posted May 29, 2017 12:29 PM            

I'm feeling better than I ever was but I'm still stuck so I wonder if anyone could see what situation from my past needs healing?What happened there that still affecting me?

I'm meditating in order to understand my feelings and the root cause for them but yet nothing! and it's been 6 months since that.Ohh Serene told me to seek help,I'm not second-guessing her reading

posted May 29, 2017 10:19 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Try posting these cards in Through The Looking Glass.

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posted May 30, 2017 01:58 PM            

did you give these cards specific positions?

If not, what was the first card, and what was the purpose of continuing to cast a further two cards?

I am asking these questions so I can try to help you. Your intention when casting, your question and the positioning of the cards is the key triad to unlocking the door to the message.

If you have simply free-cast these with only a question and no intent for each card to explain a particular aspect of the question then it is more difficult, but I will try to help you.

The High Priestess clearly indicates meditative arts, but her meaning may alter depending on your answers to the above regarding the other two cards. Preliminary basic interps for the other two are Poverty and Rejection; Integration.

ETA: The World is about integration. However, one must process experiences first before they can integrate them. Meditation and reflection can assist processing. These cards are probably pointing you in the direction of what you need to do. But we need to understand the 5 of Pentacles, let me know about positions, intention, etc.

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'When an inner situation is not made conscious, it appears outside of you as fate' ~ Carl Jung ~

posted May 30, 2017 02:14 PM            

That was serene's reading.I was trying to understand what kind of situation 5 pentacles could mean.She gave me some options like feeling left out,abandoned but I don't remember what happened so I asked if someone else could try to see it for me,or feel...since with the cards there's too many possibilities.At this point I don't think I will figure out alone :/ It could be even on childhood since that period was a little complicated for me.

posted May 30, 2017 02:38 PM            

There are many possibilities with this card. I would really need to do a reading on it myself to be sure.
If you want I can do a reading for you on this tomorrow? I will need you to clearly define the question.
If you wish me to do the reading here in this thread, you need to consider if you are comfortable with this info being on the internet.

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'When an inner situation is not made conscious, it appears outside of you as fate' ~ Carl Jung ~

posted May 30, 2017 06:11 PM            

We were poor but I don't remember feeling too sad about it.

I felt like black sheep of family at times however I never felt useless or something else because of that.It's a weird feeling that I have that makes me unable to move on with my life.Maybe fear?!I feel something within me died when I was younger but I don't know when exactly or why.I was a problematic child,agressive but also extrovert and I loved to dance and and play with my friends and then BAM something changed and on my adolescence and I became shy and introvert.

I would love to! but no pressure,can be tomorrow or another day if you want.Could you formulate the question?I'm not not good at it and you know how to take the most from tarot.I can give you more info about my family,childhood now if you want but I think after the reading is better to not cloud your reading?

posted May 31, 2017 07:37 AM            

just to take divination out of the equation for a second, it is actually quite normal for a child to change nature after puberty/adolescence. This does not necessarily mean anything bad happened per se, simply that you developed.

If you have a complete negative memory from that time, or a fragmented memory from that time (one in pieces or cuts off at a certain point in the scene), then there may be something to find. However, you may be more likely to find this in a narrative-type therapy or through writing a journal from that time period to jog memories. Also, if a memory is at all traumatic, it would not be safe to explore this with tarot, as it could trigger a crisis and I am not with you in person to support you sufficiently.

Please be honest with me if that is what you suspect. That type of work must be done in in-person, in a safe environment with a trauma-trained professional.

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'When an inner situation is not made conscious, it appears outside of you as fate' ~ Carl Jung ~

posted June 01, 2017 12:39 AM            

Well I had some pretty crap moments on my childhood,adolescence.The most difficult ones were my parents always fighting (verbally and physically) and my dad always super drunk breaking our entire house,was very SCARY for me and I probably end up with some emotional scars but when I think about that past specifically I don't feel sadness or rage so I'm not sure.I feel I'm over it you know?The fact that I didn't mention it, is because I wanted to know what you pick.I thought well maybe I feel I'm over it but I'm not?Let's see what she picks.I thought telling you could cloud the reading because for many that seems to be the most obvious reason,right?Somehow I don't think it is.I feel trapped when it comes to be assertive etc my yellow chakra is unbalanced and I'm sure that is the biggest problem on getting a job now.I feel like a bird stuck on a cage with open doors lol

Serene told me that could be something I may think wasn't important.I don't know,I'm very confused.

I understand,thanks a lot for your concern! I want to go to therapy and I will as soon as get much money.

posted June 02, 2017 09:42 AM            

I never felt like it was my fault,I don't feel i did anything wrong you know? I was just super sad and angry with the situation back then.I will try to remember things that happened on the past and see what I feel maybe I understand what is going on.

"they may feel they were dropped from the sky" lol it's true I feel I don't fit in anywhere I go.

The thing about purpose making plans,goals I can relate too :/ I have no idea what I doing here on earth.There's therapy for free here but is very,very far from my house.

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Your mind is a wonderful thing, and you have the intelligence, strength and spirit to get in touch with who you really are underneath any doubt.

You said you meditate. Meditate simply for peace and stillness, rather than for answers. The answers you need will come when you silence the mind chatter

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