posted October 24, 2017 04:06 AM
Soulofabird,I hope you don't mind, but wish to respond to you with astrology aside, if that is OK. Please ignore me, if I am preaching to the converted.
Depression is a response.
There will either be an emotional, cognitive or environmental trigger(s).
Our fantastic brains often also provide us with early warning signs before intense responses, so you will also have had clues prior to the depression's full manifestation.
I would advise you try to retrospectively journal how you felt, what your thoughts were and what events took place just prior to the manifestation of the depression.
Try to create a map for yourself of your trigger points and vulnerabilities.
This is the best defense against adverse emotional episodes because from this you can walk a path that if safe for you and also build a took-kit of coping strategies to manage those situations you cannot control.
It is perfectly normal to fear the return of depression, however, it would be of benefit to you to develop some robust anxiety management techniques at this stage. Mindfulness, exercise, slow breathing and guided meditations are a good place to start