posted February 21, 2019 06:47 AM
((Please I beg that you bear with me and read all of this before commenting...thank you))I asked, what is the future of my relationship with him if I take *idea in my mind* route now that I'm single again? I got the 9 of Cups and 10 of Cups based on the now, and the 7 of Cups REVERSED and and the Tower REVERSED based on these ideas I am envisioning for myself (Both numbers are represented by 7 which is my Life Path number as well.)
Will explain below in a sec.
My partner and I have split up once again...our relationship was unhealthy for the first while but we overcame a lot together and changed for the better. The love is so strong, but it's painful for us because we are not who we want to be in life currently, we both have a lot of issues and are not financially stable.
I left him a couple weeks ago and then found out he cheated on me last year with a close frind of mine when we fought and didn't talk for a few days.
But I did the same right before leaving him because I just knew he was lying to my face. He had a very slight and early alcohol problem and all of a sudden changed his ways a lot. But then, 2 weeks later, he gives me this excuse that he gave me 2 years ago....he grows better on his own. When I tried to let him do it, but he begged for me back. And I rarely give this kind of thing a 2nd chance. I'm just hurt.
But the love really IS strong and telepathic. I almost hate it now. But ultimately we always come back together. Now, please don't lecture me about toxic relationships I've been dealing with them my whole life...but there is something truly different about him.
I have been seeing number 22 a LOT lately and that is also my Soul Urge number, and I am turning 22 in just over a month. (so my solar return is coming too). I'm seeing synchronicities about change, my kundalini awakening is intensifying and I'm getting a lot of memories back that I lost most of my life. I'm cleaning out my wardrobe, rearranging my room, and starting over, letting go of everything from the past that I don't need anymore... and just a moment ago, while I wasn't looking, autoplay on YT played a video (posted just over a couple weeks ago) that Immediately said "You are a Starseed."
Listen... I was 8 when I first remembered something about my origins, but I suffered a lot of abuse as a child and I got... lost. Now something tells me this man plays a significant role in my journey alongside me, not just an encounter to be let go like the rest of my karmic meetings are. When I was 8 I rememebr my higher self communicating with me and she told me about twin flames. I don't know if it's him or if it will be someone else further in my future... But there IS something about him.