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summerlove22
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posted May 28, 2021 11:03 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for summerlove22     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Can someone please help, I have been so down for so long, months, years, i thought this year would be better but in every aspect of my life i feel so negative and dark, not happy in my career, have zero love life, no social life (cos pandemic- and i have isolated myself because i feel so down about myself ), been suffering from anxiety, panic… constantly arguing with my dad, like i hate how he treats my mum and i feel sooo much anger toward him (i’m 33 and don’t live with my parents but whenever i stay with them or visit i witness how he treats her and resent him so much for it)..

Looking at my transits horoscope it says: -171 opposition pluto sun: Problems with men or the father are quite possible at this time. Your passions may sap some of your vitality, and regular check-ups should be made because intense feelings and/or anger may affect your health.

And i feel this is so accurate but worries me how long this will go on for because i dont want to feel this way anymore.
Can anyone see this in my chart and see if things will get better?? And if things will improve in general and why i am feeling this way. Thank you
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Randall
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posted May 29, 2021 07:32 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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mirage29
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posted May 31, 2021 10:34 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi Summerlove, Hope things will feel better.

Yes, I see that your Sun is in Cancer @27~28 degrees? Transiting Pluto has been in sign of Capricorn, directly across your Sun. Pluto just turned retrograde. Being a slow-mover, it will turn direct again.

Pluto will continue to creep its way through closer degrees for you for the next few years. Pluto enters Aquarius mid-November 2024, but even then, it's still in influence for several years past 'that'. It's been riding your Sun for a while.. and still will. Find a way to get accustomed, more.

Since the theme is basically about 'power struggles', and if your Mom is okay and handling it and not physically in danger, then, basically, with Love, sort of take your 'own' self out of their marriage relationship (as far as defensiveness of her).
Detach just a little bit more ..

Allow self to Write what you would say, on paper. Analyze that-- applying it to 'self'. Find a women's support group, and talk with them-- Help other women.

Examine your own various relationships. Even do some writing about it on paper. You have your Sun in 3rd House, and a Gemini Moon? .. Do some Creative work.

Find a friend with whom you can talk things out. With COVID, if you're vaccinated, and you still take reasonable care outside your home and place of work, you could begin a process of searching for interesting people to be with. If 'you' are searching, there HAVE to be others feeling the same way.. *hug*

One of the features of Pluto opp Sun, IS 'power struggles' that "could" crop up dealing with authority, your parents, your bosses. Don't be a doormat, but consider thoughtfully doing an inventory-- what are the kinds of things that you value, and what you want to see 'more' of in your life in the future.

Try being non-threatening or try different approach to bosses, coworkers ..
Things can still be really quite gnarly ahead.
Find your inner-place, place of deep deep calm.

When you posted, the sky transits had people feeling nervous and ~stranger than normal. Was a weird chaotic restless passage for that week. Things are heating up in the world. Some getting more violent...

People in open positions of leadership, who are likely to be bullies, with authoritarian personality (disorders), will feel EXTRA ENABLED and emboldened from Capricorn and Aquarius long-term transits. These have the effect of triggering people who had been victim to these types at some point in their lives.

{humor/story, I had attended catholic parochial schools for elementary school years. (1960s) The nuns in those times (generally!!) were really abusive mean-cruel women! If they had been caught on camera, they (in this day and age) would have been arrested! Saw one nun take an athletic popular boy, and throw him up against cinder-block wall, knocked his skull rendering him unconscious on the floor!!
I couldn't stand watching nuns attack vulnerable friends unfairly-- Saw one male classmate not used to being a 'target' really crashing down inside himself over repeated attacks (for NO reason, for MADE-UP reasons). She fabricated awful lies and would punish students for that.
I'd stand up, and draw the 'fire' towards myself instead, in order to "protect" them. That particular nun would bore her eyes into mine and say You BOLD and ~~~~ BRAZEN child!! I didn't care-- I didn't want my friends to take that kind of treatment when *they* weren't used to it.
My mom was a 'bully' -- I was used to fending lies and accusations and beatings, for things SHE 'made up'.}
I say that to you-- because I "understand" WANTING to Defend your mom from a dad who might be verbally berating her... I have a Defender's Spirit--- BUT, there's a LIMIT. A Boundary, okay?
Your mom has dealt with him for over 30 years, right?
Take the 'pressure OFF' your own self, pertaining to their relationship. Go to a woman's group and help TEACH other women, from YOUR experienced viewpoint with your mom and dad. .. With you being a non-relative, you'd be away from the drama-triangle, and you might 'feel' MORE satisfied with women listening to your advices, from 'experience.'

Do you like watching transit/astrology videos?

There's an astrologer that has your Sun Cancer, in 3rd House (near~same position as yours, within a couple degrees).
Has a Taurus ASC, not Gemini.

I like that he gives how the transits are showing up in evidences in his own personal life, and that of his wife and daughters. He gives great advice. Why not give his vids a try? ..
He belongs to a religious system, follower of krishna, and, has been a seminary trained christian. Likes philosophers like James Hillman. I liked it when he speaks mystically, of the planets. He's a Hellenistic astrologer, and shares loads of stories about history too.
Has training and has worked in mental health inpatient unit; so, I imagine he subconsciously understands the sky 'triggers' in people vulnerable and gives insight with that in mind when talking about transit energies.
Has yoga training, bhakti. In college was in English Lit and graduated with that degree?? {Hope I'm remembering these correctly.}
I add all that because all these things in his background pre-astrological studies (in my opinion) make him an extra 'able' astrologer. An astrologer's understanding of people, and various interesting background experiences, add color and dimension to the understanding of the sky. It's good to 'match' people to the astrologer they may have more resonance with.

Thought that for your own 'vibe' and connection, it might bring you added-insight to listen to someone experiencing Pluto on opp Sun Cancer in similar House placement.

It may be important for you to learn to pull-back a bit when feeling triggered. Breathe... There's a lot of sky activity in your Gemini sector of the chart. Gemini can be nervous and sometimes more anxious than other signs.

Planet Mercury is now Retrograde. Entered RX on May 29. Will be backwards through first 3 weeks of June.

Your Ascendant is around 20+ Gemini?
There will be a New Moon Gemini Eclipse 19+ to your Ascendant/H12. You have natal Uranus on your Descendant? ..

Get yourself a Talking Friend. Draw together a Support Buddy Group? Go out for ice cream sundaes. Make some 'safe' friends...

Let us know how you're doing..

What kind of job field did you go into?
What's your education?

This is that Sun Cancer astrologer's youtube channel.
- http://www.youtube.com/user/humboyhum
He's just finished his June 2021 Sun and Rising horoscopes.

Do you have an account with Astrodienst?
You can get a FREE account with them.
They will give you a Daily horoscope report to give you heads-up.
Sometimes I'm so glad to GET those heads-up.
Helps me be calm.
- www.astro.com

Let me know how you're doing? {{ }}

Are you in the USA?

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mirage29
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posted June 01, 2021 10:21 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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How are you doing?

Your Cancer Sun is on the degrees of my Jupiter Cancer, in H8.
Sextile my 'helping' Virgo Moon in (9)th.

You've got my Heart, and my attention.

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summerlove22
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posted June 01, 2021 05:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for summerlove22     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hello mirage I´m sorry I didn´t get to this sooner!

Thank you so much for your kind, thoughtful (and informative!) message! I am still new to all of this, and find it so fascinating how much the stars can affect us, and i think its amazing we can see whats coming, how it will affect us and how we can try to anticipate it.
Although its not good news to hear about pluto and how it will still be affecting me in a negative way for years to come

Last week was definitely a nervous week! I am feeling a little better yesterday and today, thank you , but am still feeling all sorts of feelings towards my dad which is confusing, but I do realise I need to step back and not get so involved even though it kills me to see my mum in this way. Luckily she´s talking to her therapist this week (I encouraged her to as she had taken a break), so that relaxes me a little.

I will check out the youtube channel you recommended and will let you know how I get on with it, it sounds very interesting and I´m sure will be helpful.

Careerwise (I have a business background) I´m definitely in the wrong field but not sure which direction to take, whether to continue in this repetitive, mundane but safe "accounting" job, or to give teaching a try (I have tried it before but not officially trained), or maybe go into something else entirely, I don´t know, its something I´m very confused about but definitely feel I should be working in something where I´m caring for people or helping people in some way, I´m not sure why.

I´m not in the USA btw; I´m in Europe

I´m sorry about your mum and that you´ve been through something similar, it sucks! How did you deal with it

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posted June 14, 2021 11:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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summerlove22
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posted June 25, 2021 12:37 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for summerlove22     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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@eloquent__sky
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posted July 02, 2021 11:39 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for @eloquent__sky     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Dear Summerlove,


Sorry to hear you have been having negative encounters with your father as of late. You should know that this transit is not all bad and negative. It will start in an intense wave of emotions. Rage, self-criticism, lethargy, crisis at your career, etc. Usually you will experience a set of these and not just one. Because Pluto is here now to teach you as much as it can. Repeat to yourself every day "I am getting stronger and this too shall pass".

Soon you may notice that your relationship with men has changed drastically and they will take a major role in your life to help you out of your crisis and expect nothing or very little in return. You may meet a man of power and/or status who will help you out significantly in some way.

In your first post you asked how much it will last. It will run for a few good couple of years until you have experienced the majority of Pluto lessons. The times when Pluto in the sky goes retrograde, things might get complicated or move along slowly if you have been trying to implement some big change in your life.

Definitely do not get scared and try to make the best of the new situations coming into your life by giving out a little bit of control.

Best,
~ eloquent__sky ig

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