posted May 02, 2002 10:27 AM         

This morning though, I dreamt....
It was quite a fragmented dream so I hope it is not too confusing.

It began with me walking on a trestle type plank suspended next to an old building. As I moved to the end of it it bent down then snapped, although I neatly and gently sprang off it to the ground. My father was angry with me for breaking it as it now meant he could not finish his work on the building, but I knew that it was good that I broke it as I could spring off it easily...if it had of happened when he was on it he would have fallen badly and done a great injury, breaking bones etc.

Next I was a large room with bunk beds and nets hanging from the ceiling in a nautical theme....decor for a holiday house....it looked quite snazzy, and the design appealed to me. I took one last look at the room as I walked out the door and onto the landing, which was wooden decking, closing the door behind me, I was leaving and knew I would probably never go back. (It did not concern me though, I just felt sentimental)(I had out grown the room as I had to duck my head to walk under the nets.)

My brother arrived with a number of his mates from Uni and asked my mother & I some questions (I can't remember what they were) then off he went to get his car, but he was walking up the hill in the wrong direction and I turned to mum and said "what's he doing, he's doing it the hard way" she replied to me that he just had to do it that way...it was nescesary for him. I heard the truth in this and knew that he would get to it eventually even though there was a much easier path clearly visible.

Next Mum was going out of a door and leaving me in a room (kitchen like with cream painted walls & tiles) but there was no furniture or fixtures in the room. As she exited, I noticed a large cobweb in the corner above the door containing 3 large fat hairy spiders. Not wanting to remain in the room with them I crossed to a door on the other side of the room (opposite the one mum had taken) but the doorway was blocked by a large spider's web and I could not get past without touching it. I was scared of the spider in this web (he was even bigger than the others) and I couldn't bring myself to brush past him. As I stood there wondering what to do, the web got larger, and then I noticed many more spiders dropping on threads from the roof....I was terrified and couldn't move, only crouch down, shut my eyes and scream. I felt abandoned and I couldn't believe my mother had left me there alone and vunerable.

Then I was in a room where there were alot of people that I didn't know, along with my friends & boyfriend....they were German or scandinavian or dutch or something similar. and they were bikies who kept asking everyone for cigarettes.

Next I was in my best friend's 4 wheel drive and my boyfriend was driving. we were at a harbour and I suggested we drive down to the lower carpark so we could sit & watch the boats on the water. As he drove down we were suddenly driving into water, until we were submerged up to the bonnet, which was quite deep, as the car was a Landcruiser. We all got out of the car and into the water, trying to bounce the car onto solid ground...I was standing on the bull bar and he and my best friend were pushing from the back. Suddenly I noticed that the car was sliding down a muddy slope and I was now at the back of the car, I realised that there was no-one in the car now and therefore, no steering or brakes. My boyfriend told me not to worry about it, but I was holding the weight of the car so that it didn't slide into some trees.

Then I was walking up the street to my/my parent's house and one of the bikies was beside me and talking to me although I couldn't understand what he was asking me. I thought by his gestures that he was asking for a smoke so I opened my handbag to get out my cigarettes. My bag was full of water. I held out a smoke to him (a little grudgingly as I was tired of them continually asking others for smokes) He just smiled and held up a lighter and was obviously offering to light the smoke for me. I felt a little guilty that I had judged him prematurly. He was reassuring.

Next I was back in my best friends 4x4 and this time she was driving. As we approached the gate leading off the property my boyfriend got out to open the gate, and another car was comming through. first we had to cross a small bridge, and it seemed logical to me for us to wait before the bridge until the other car had passed as the ground on the other side was soft & boggy, but my friend just pushed through over the bridge and then was forced to pull over into the soft edges. My boyfriend called out to be carefull, but we were already begining to slide down the edge of a muddy embankment. We landed in a large room and my friend drove round in almost compulsive circles. I looked down and I saw seals on the carpet (yes, the animal type! ) They looked up with their big dark eyes at me, and they were so beautiful. I told my friend to be careful as there were seals on the floor, but she ignored me and continued to drive around in small circles as if in a trance. I looked down & I could see that the seals were going to get hurt. I urged & urged her to stop, to no avail. When I next looked down I saw one of the seals go under our wheel. I became really angry and frustrated with her, yelling "why couldn't you look where you were going, why didn't you listen to me! You've killed it!!!" I was really upset.

The seal was the adult male and the female was making her way over to the edge of the carpet. It was then I saw a dozen or so baby seals desperately trying to follow her. they were so sweet, silky, beautiful and helpless. My friend stopped the car and burst into tears, finally realising what she had done & was overcome with guilt & remorse. I sat with my arm around her shoulder and cried with her, mourning the loss of the daddy seal.

Here endeth the important bits
Aus

posted May 02, 2002 10:34 PM         

You have such a good recall of what takes place in your dreams. I always love reading your dreams because they really are like stories, or movies in some sense.

posted May 03, 2002 07:20 PM         

Your dream may appear to be fragmented and confusing, but there is actually a common thread to all of the "fragments", believe it or not, and it is actually not difficult to see, once pointed out.

They are all about your relations with the people that are close to you - father, mother, brother, boyfriend, and best friend - and a little something is said about the connection you have with each.

A very interesting dream!

I will write more later, if you wish.

posted May 05, 2002 04:01 PM         

The scene with your father and the plank - Seeing the larger picture, perhaps averting some fate, or resolving some karma between you and your father. Consider also the construction atmosphere.

The room with the nautical theme - This has to do with "outgrowing" or completing some lesson or cycle. It feels to me like the completion of some past life situation/lesson, one with a nautical theme. I also feel that this has to do with your father, a past life that the two of you shared, and the "death" of the cycle (wood decking).

It is interesting that in the previous sequence you were "walking the plank", and in this one you are leaving behind a "nautical" situation. Do you think there is a connection? I do.

The scene with your brother walking up hill - Seems to indicate your understanding of your brother's chosen path, at least on a spiritual level.

The mother/kitchen/spider scene - This scene has a complex symbology, one that is multi-leveled. You seem to depend much upon your mother (as most of us do) and perhaps it is time to let go of some of the more codependent aspects of that relationship, or perhaps you feel she is somehow doing this, in waking life, and it creates fear within you. As Pisces Moon indicated, spiders can symbolize a mother aspect, and I think this is partially true in your dream. Your mother leaves and fear concerning this energy creeps in, and it is unavoidable. I think that the 3 spiders are an indication of a new line of psychological growth for you, as well as a perfect symbol for the "fate" or destiny of the situation, which you try to avoid, only to face it in a larger sense as you try to escape. The web itself could indicate feelings of being trapped. The spiders dropping from the roof could be telling you that you need to "weave" a new pattern concerning this situation, so you should look at your behaviors concerning this relationship.

The next scene, bikies asking for cigarettes, seems out of place at first, but actually reinforces the symbology of the previous scene. As I see it, it could represent an unconscious aspect of self that is making itself known (foreigners). This aspect is perhaps something you would view - if conscious of it - as being crude or undeveloped, and could represent a "neediness" within self.

The scene with your boyfriend driving - This could indicate that you feel he is the one leading or controlling the path of the relationship. The water has a two-fold meaning: unconscious material, and emotional material. You feel you have no control over the direction of the relationship, and the emotions attatched to this could be stiffled, pushed into the subconscious, causing the entire situation to become "muddy" and difficult to manage. Keep in mind that this is not necessarily as dire as it is sounding, and is probably very subtle in waking life, but nonetheless pressing upon the consciousness.

Again, we have a scene with a bikie - again, this is indicating an unconscious aspect of self, a part of you that you have difficulty understanding, and it is emotional in nature, or rather the emotions are what is causing the non-understanding. Again, there is a need, and it is annoying, but the personal emotions or "baggage" (handbag with water) is keeping you from seeing things clearly. This foreign aspect of self, as it surfaces, will "light a fire" within your consciousness, and you will begin to understand that which hinders you, although it will cause a bit of pain as the realization dawns on you (guilt).

The scene with your best friend driving - This message is similar to the one with your boyfriend. Do you feel that your relationship with her is on her terms? You sacrifice much of yourself for the ones you love! All of her driving habits in this scene reinforce this idea. You see one way, and she does another. Again, mud. Driving in circles, trance-like. (this has a feeling of past-life cycles as well) And there is something to the seals, of course. I think this has to do with a connection with the emotions, innocence lost, and past-life patterns. There seems to be an indication that when the unconscious goings-on in this relationship do finally surface, much healing will be accomplished, for her and you. A cycle (circles) will have ended, and the emotional build-up will be released, especially for you.

As long as this interpretation is, it only scratches the surface, but I think it is enough. Many other connections can be made if you look at it in this context.

I hope this all makes sense. I feel that you are a very spritual person, advanced. But there seem to be issues concerning your dependence upon what others think, or a habit of bending to the will of others. This will change, for the better.