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Topic: was it really a dream?
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Gooober
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From: Dhaka, Bangladesh
Registered: Oct 2001
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posted May 30, 2003 04:16 AM
 
well,this is gonna be one long post...but i think if i'm gonna ask Ra to interpret this dream for me,hez gotta know a few things...i'm gonna cut a loooooong story short...itz been just over 5 months that we've been married (my beloved twin n i) n the first 2.5 months seemed,well normal (watever we aquarians define as normal!)...we fought n made up,fought n made up...n fought n made up.then i don know how or when it happened, but everything seemed to turn upside down.. something seemed to be totally wrong with my husband.initially i thought maybe it was just his frustration abt his work.but then as days went by,i had this strange feeling of living with a stranger.everything abt him seemed different,especially when i looked into his eyes,something seemed,well different.the fights we had during tht time were nothin short of bizzare n his behaviour made me feel like i'd landed in some mirror opposite world where all good was bad n vice versa.first i blamed it on my imagination. then i realized tht i wasnt the only one who had noticed this difference in him.all of his closest friends,ppl he'd grown up with noticed the change too.he wasnt willing to listen to anyone who tried to tell him tht it was our marriage tht we had to work out for ourselves instead of trying to get his family involved (by family meaning his mother,father,one of his aunts).i tried to talk to him too,but he just kept on pushing me away tellin me all sorts of hurtful things...n then things got just worse n worse n it was decided tht we're gonna move into his family home,to live with his mother.altho i din like the idea at all cuz it jus meant tht we'd be spendin more n more time away frm each other,since his studio was gonna remain in the flat where we used to live (hez a musician) n of course he works day n night,which was why he had initially decided to have his studio n our home in the same place.well,i din say anythin abt this since i din have much of a choice,altho itz too complicated to explain why.i jus pretended to be happy as long as he was gonna stop acting like a stranger...but tht din happen n at one point during one of our fights (in which of course his mother got involved) i totally lost my temper n walked out on him.since then i've been livin at my parents' house n itz been two weeks tht i havent heard frm him (n i havent called him either).
but in the past couple of days,i've had this dream in which i see him..n hez sayin 'i'm sorry' n i can tell tht he really means it..n it feels like the person i'm in love with,especially when i look into his eyes...i've had this dream twice already n in the second one,i see myself askin him 'sorry for wat' n he says 'everything' then he takes me in his arms n i say'oh you don have to say you're sorry,i understand n it's ok'. n thtz when i wake up n everythin in the dream feels so real..his voice,his touch..when i wake up n i don find him beside me,i nearly start crying. i realize all this may sound a bit jumbled up,but somehow i felt tht this dream migt have some significance..so if Ra could help me out over here... peace, 
-Gooober
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Gooober
Knowflake Posts: 115
From: Dhaka, Bangladesh
Registered: Oct 2001
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posted May 30, 2003 05:36 AM
oh,i absolutely forgot abt this other dream i had as well..you see Ra,i've been having dreams abt him every night,but most of them i forget,but there was this other one besides the one i already told you abt..
i saw tht i am pregnant (3 mnths at least) n i'm attending classes at my college n my husband is with me too cuz he doesnt want me to be alone n then i feel this pain in my stomach n there is this old friend of mine sitting beside me n hez hugging me n kissing me to comfort me.then my husband takes me away with him to this room where we start kissing...it seemed really weird to me.but i remember feeling tht my husband is being caring n loving...i hope u can make some sense out of this...IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted May 30, 2003 10:01 PM
Hello Gooober.  I am thinking about this ... Peace to you
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Ra
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posted June 03, 2003 10:40 AM
Gooober, The first dream you mentioned could be one of two thinks, or perhaps both. For the most part, it seems to be a reflection of your desires, as you desperately want your relationship to be healthy again. It could also be a communication between the Higher Selves of both you and your husband. If only we were all open enough to feel the energies of our higher selves!  The second dream seems to simply indicate the feelings that you are lacking with your husband - comfort, caring, and love. Perhaps you are pregnant in the dream because a child is something you want to share with your husband - apparently there is still some learning/growing to do before this happens. I wish I could give you more from these dreams, but what I see has mostly to do with your needs and desires, and there is not much offered by way of a course of action. Keep paying attention to your dreams. Perhaps your subconscious will make some suggestions in the near future. Until then, I wish Peace for you, Gooober.  IP: Logged |
Gooober
Knowflake Posts: 115
From: Dhaka, Bangladesh
Registered: Oct 2001
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posted June 04, 2003 10:09 AM
Ra,thanks for helpin me make sense out of such jumbled dreams...i think u'r right on both counts..altho i'm not sure abt the first one,i wish it really meant tht our Higher Selves r tryin to communicate,but i have a feelin tht itz more likely to be a reflection of my needs..  in any case..thanx
n now,therez another dream which i remember quite vividly (the other ones i had i don remember much of expect tht he,i mean my husband was in every single one of them).the dream goes like this....
my husband's just come back from a long trip to london n hez brought lots of things for me n hez givin them to me n i'm takin them absolutely delightedly.but somehow therez this feelin,tht we're seein each other for the first time after this fight we had..any way,then i see his mom n shez lookin at me in a very cold manner n then somethin i say causes her to snap at me.following tht,all three of us go into the bedroom n he lies down on the bed beside his mother while i lie down on a mattress on the floor.for some reason,they'r fightin over the air conditioning in the room n i take this chance to slip out n go sit in the livin room.next thing i know,i'm seeing this horrible nightmare (a dream in a dream) n i get so scared i scream.
all of a sudden therez a change in the whole scenario n i see me n him,all alone in a room.at first we're both hesitant,not knowing what to say or do,but then we rush into each other's arms n we're hugging n kissing n makin up for our fight.
again,therez a sudden change n i see tht we're standin in a shopping mall,on the ground floor hugging each other n his momz standing on the next floor with his aunt n both of them r givin me looks which could kill....
another change...we're back in the livin room n his mother is showing him tht she needed stitches on her knuckles,n he looks at me very accusingly,n all i say is 'i don know wat happened to her'
finally,i see our old home,the flat we used to live in n then everythin gets very hazy...
i think i shud also mention tht i was gettin definite BAD VIBES frm his mom all thruout my dream...thtz all i guess Ra...i hope this dream might lead to some answers...n i hope u can help... peace...
-Gooober IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted June 04, 2003 01:11 PM
I will certainly have a look! IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted June 05, 2003 01:08 PM
Perhaps these dreams will lead to some answrs ... in the future, but for now it seems to me like these dreams are more reflections of your feelings about your situation.The gifts you receive probably represent those feelings of support, romance, and love that you want so much. And all of the kissing and hugging are the same. The rest of the dream seems to focus upon your feelings about his mother and family. You feel a great deal of interference from his family, particularly his mother. You feel overshadowed, scrutinized, and judged by them (mother and aunt glaring at you from above). You feel as though your husband has forsaken you, that he has taken sides with his mother (beside his mother on bed - stitches on knuckles, looks accusingly at you). You are very scared (horrible nightmare) and you feel as if your marriage is becoming a memory (old home/hazy). I truly wish I could give you more than this. Perhaps your subconscious will eventually lend you some direction, once some of the emotion has dissipated. IP: Logged | |
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