posted April 18, 2007 08:39 AM         

I'll start from the earliest I can find.

1) We were on a rollercoaster and I was scared cos it got stuck upsidedown. I was hanging on really tight to the harness then suddenly I let go and help his hand and didn't feel scared anymore.

2)I dream about this certain man quite often! I've had a lot that seem to run to the cooking theme but none of my books on dreams can seem to help.
The first one I had (on this theme, not counting all the others lol) was he was cooking breakfast for me, bacon specifically, on the stovetop. I was standing with his mother in the kitchen and asked her if he could actually cook.
The second was we were in our own place (which doesn't exist, we don't even live together) and he was cooking us a roast lamb or beef for dinner and he wanted it to be perfect. He wouldn't let me help he wanted me to sit at the table with a glass of cabernet sauvignon.
Last one I can vividly remember (theres been more on this theme that I can't recall right now) was he was cooking a bbq for us and our friends and he looked so happy and relaxed. Everyone was happy it was summer and we were all outside in my back garden.
Maybe I just really like guys that can cook tho I have no idea if this specific one can! Does anyone have any ideas why this theme keeps popping up???

3) Had another dream about him last friday night. I dreamt I was in a car w my best friend, my ex, his new partner, my kids and my best friends kids. We stopped at a large double story house with a large pool in the front garden.
I thought I saw him and thought he was ignoring me but he went inside and came out onto the upstairs balcony.
He did a dive-bomb into the pool then swam over to the edge and began to splash water on me. I don't mean a little bit it, there were waves of it. Lol. It annoyed me actually.

4) I had a dream thrursday night that he was holding hands and flirting with another girl in front of me. I pretended I didn't even notice in the dream. It made me feel sick and affected me all day friday.
Sure enough I see him friday night, we ignore one another and I do what he did in the dream. All flirty with another guy. He tried to ring me later that night. Think maybe I was trying to hurt him before he hurt me.

5) I was at a camp/movie set kinda thing with a whole lotta people and we all had horses (not so unusual I love horses and own 2). Anyway, after the farewell pizza party (???)when everyone was leaving I found a whole lot of people had called me and messaged me saying keep in contact.
A telephone dream isn't weird in itself, but is if for me because usually when I dream of the phone I either can't hear, can't remember the number or its broken. And nobody needs to tell me what that means cos I already know!
I've been kinda seeing a pisces-boy since january which has been nothing but heartache, mutual rejection and reconciliation. Felt like we were finally getting somewhere then cancer-guy came into the picture.
I'm kinda cutting myself off from both of them at the moment, pisces-boy rang me 2 weeks ago (since then nothing) and although I had't seen cancer-guy in a month he rang me and came over on the weekend.

6)Had a dream the father of the guy I've kinda been seeing for almost a year apologised to me for being so anti-us when we first got together.
It wasn't him in the physical sense, looked more like an older version of the guy I'm kinda seeing. I actually don't know him only know who he is, not sure if he even knows who I am or what my relationship to his son is (gee I don't even know that!). In my dream I think we were getting engaged or married or something, there was no great emphasis on that other than we were 'official'. I was sitting in a roof space with him and his son and they were doing some kind of electrical work or painting, which is no surprise as he's some kind of electrian apparently.
I remember mostly feeling comforted and relieved that we'd received his blessing, so to speak. Its the feeling I recall clearest. I remember the guy I'm kinda seeing was happy and confident about it in the dream too. The large roof space thing was definately strange.

7) I dreamt I was at my friends house (Pisces-boy's close friend too actually, she grew up with him) and we were drinking tea and talking. I was asking her about the girl he'd told me about whom he'd said had knocked him back (real life situation) and she told me the girl had moved in with him for a week, he expected her to tidy up after him, then dumped her. Apparently I was the one he wanted and everyone knew that but me. I was disturbed in my dream that he'd lied to me about the situation and thought he was trying to win me back with sympathy because 'nobody wants him but me' type thing. And also disturbed he could treat someone he was supposed to like that way.
I woke up feeling very strange.
In reality the night I'd had that dream I was at the same party as the guy pisces-boy knew I kinda liked. Didn't really talk to him cos I've realised I like him just as a friend, but I'm pretty sure he still likes me. Pisces-boy thinks he knocked me back but he didn't really we just haven't seen one another.

8) I dreamt we were sleeping at my grandparents place (they're both dead now) and I threw an arm over him to cuddle him and he pushed it off and got out of bed. I was hurt and thought he'd left but when I got up he was just somewhere else in the house.
Then it was my birthday and I was sad he wasn't around for it, but I went to a park where I was having a barbecue for my birthday with my friends and family and there he was cooking (yes, he does seem to cook for me a lot in my dreams, lol) then he started chasing my son around with the tongs, both of them laughing.

9) When we woke up nobody else was there and we were in the same sofa bed but in my best mates house. I looked out her back door and noticed caravans and tents in the yard next door (in reality where my pisces-boy lives) I wondered what was going on.
An unknown girl arrived and wanted to use the toilet or shower (not sure which) cos the one next door was busy and I asked what was going on. She told me it was a family reunion and 'the band' was going to be playing. I asked what band and she couldn't believe pisces-boy hadn't told me about it, his father had told her we were seeing each other.
I actually blushed in my dream, it felt so strange!
I didn't know who she was but apparently she was his cousin and the family had a band. Pisces-boy's father played the trumpet and they had some kind of jazz/blues band. I was just getting dressed then oddly enough the dream ended (I hate my alarm clock!)

10) First I was getting married and I went into the bakery to get the food for our wedding breakfast (where pisces-boy's sister sometimes works) someone else served us and I thought it was different than what we ordered so I rang my best friend on my mobile phone and got thru to my dead grandmother, altho she wasn't dead in the dream. She said my best friend was asleep but the order was right.
I then went to the house where 3 men (pisces boys cousins whom I've never met) were sitting on couches/armchairs, I felt strange and uncomfortable cos I didn't recognise any of them inc my fiance. Their girlfriends/wives sat on their laps so I sat on my 'fiances' lap although I didn't think it was him but as I sat on him and cuddled him our chests and hearts touched and i saw a blinding flash of white and I then recognised him thru my heart as my pisces boy, altho he still looked different. He kept telling me I was beautiful then our armchair flipped back and we fell to the ground with me on top of him. It wasn't a bad thing, we all laughed.
Second dream I was on an airplane and it broke in half and a flash of fire ripped thru the cabin. The plane landed and we were all ok, just slightly singed and all commented it was a miracle. I went back to a small houseboat in a marina with a couple afterwards and they went and I stayed. I tried to cook something on the stovetop but there were no knobs so I turned off the jets by turning them with a tea towel. I didn't burn myself.
The third dream i was a spy and my partner and I were outwitting other agents, we went into a department store and I dressed as if I was pregnant and we held hands as tho we were a couple looking for baby gear. The enemy spies left and we went into a room over a wharf and changed back into our spy outfits. The other spies shot at us and my partner was shot over the railing into the water altho the other spies didn't know he had body armour on and wasn't hurt at all. They captured me but as I didn't have the disc (what they were after) they didn't hurt me.

11) Dreamt I was at pisces-boy's house (dreaming of him again, how annoying!) having a cup of tea and cake with his mother and my kids were there too. He wasn't there and I went into his room and had a look for any papers lying around that may've had something 'interesting' written on them. The only papers in his room were lottery tickets of varying types and there were lots of them all over the place.
He came home and we went outside, I thought he was angry that I was hanging out with his mum but instead he called me and the kids to the backyard to show us the new puppies.
I picked up a tiny black puppy and it was gorgeous but wriggly in my hands so I nearly dropped it. He took it from me, said I wasn't holding it right and gently showed me how to do it.

12) I dreamt I was in the city and I went into a shopping centre that was closing but my friends and I stayed anyway to buy outfits. After that we were at my best friends house and I stuck my finger up at the pisces (he lives next door in reality) and he didn't see but his girlfriend did. I apologised and said that it wasn't to her and she came over with a friend of mine. In the dream my friend was her friend too (in reality they live 3000 kms away and theres no way they would ever meet). Our 'mutual' friend didn't take sides (there are no sides) and strangely enough the girlfriend seemed to morph into my friend and she wanted me to draw a fake tattoo on her arm, then use the same texta to do her lipstick so she could go out and I did.

13) I dreamt I was up in a bi-plane and having fun, but I saw a plane shaped like a football with wings and I said to the pilot to stay away from it cos everytime I dream of this plane it crashes (and everytime I DO dream of it it crashes). The plane came closer and closer and everything went dark when it hit us and I felt pain in my body.
I thought, I know I'm dead but please don't let this be the afterlife, let it end or change.
After a few moments the pain ended and I opened my eyes to find myself in a weird though beautiful kind of garden with a meandering path down the centre. It wasn't the garden that struck me, but the overwhelming sense of love I felt encompass me from every single direction.
I woke up crying cos I've never felt such love, I felt strength from that love too.

SORRY!!! Didn't realise there were so many and so much to think about. The pisces began to see his girlfriend somewhere between dream 8 and 9. Oh, and funnily enough I now live in a house eerily like the bbq house from dream 2 (completely different to the house I looked at months ago that I thought was THE house).
Its ridiculous and I know I'm being silly but I still feel theres some kind of heavy karmic connection between us.
Probably just a HUGE learning curve for me about admitting my feelings though. lol.

posted April 20, 2007 08:35 PM         

Dreamt my friend and her family were helping me plaster and paint the inside of my house (not my actual house). Pisces-boy's best mates were there and helping and they told me that his girlfriend looked like me. The pisces and his girl rocked up and he helped me too, she went along with it although she didn't seem glad to be there.

Last night I dreamt heavily, I still feel yuk about it. Think I need a nap.

I dreamt I was in a pub with 2 male friends (one my ex) and the pisces was waiting for us. It was very hot and we were sitting underneath a heater so I took off my jumper underneath which I just had a singlet. My ex was being crude so I slapped him across the face, the other male friend started being rude then I slapped him too.
The pisces seemed surprised at my reaction to their behaviour, saw it was annoying me and defended me. A fight ensued and suddenly I was at another house and I knew he was next door and not talking to me again for some reason. He sent me a text saying I needed to give back his $50 wallet and he was cross. I got cross cos he'd lost his wallet and I'd found it and returned it with all the money inside.
I went to see him and said I wanted to talk and he refused. He went into the shower and I asked again and told him I wasn't going to leave him alone until we talked. He agreed and spent ages in the shower.
While he was in the shower I went back next door and met a stunning looking half naked young girl on the way. She was about 16 in my dream and gorgeous. She said her name was *** (pisces-boy's girl) and I was surprised cos she was so much younger and her voice didn't even sound the same, I thought 'no wonder he doesn't want me'. She asked me to delete his number from my phone and I showed her I already had.
Then her cockney accented mother came out and bullied me, his gf sat their smirking as if she agreed but would never have said that. They had a devious plan to nab him as a husband for her.

I woke up then dreamt again.

Dreamt I was at a town xmas festival and I was dressed as santa claus giving out lollies and small toys from a sack. I smiled and handed them out and everyone loved me. I literally bumped into pisces-boy's parents in the crowd and gave them some lollies and smiled at them. They smiled back and after that no matter where I went in the crowd they watched me smiling and talking to each other. Weird.

posted April 24, 2007 01:03 PM         

As a whole, there doesn't seem to be a message so much as there seems to be a reflection. What I mostly see is a reflection of the mental and emotional contortions that you are undergoing concerning the pisces. There very well may be some "heavy karmic connection", but you are probably also right "about admitting my feelings". Definately some learning going on, and it doesn't look as if it is quite over yet. What exactly it is that you are learning, I cannot say.

posted April 25, 2007 01:53 PM         

For me, it came to a point where I accepted that the other had moved on, but I also accepted my own feelings that somehow it just wasn't over. So, I let it go, had faith that everything happens for a reason, and had hope that someday I might be with the other again, even if that meant waiting for a long time, although I would also continue on with my life, of course. I actually had a picture in my mind of pooling social security checks, and I was willing to wait for that, I was okay with that.

If I hadn't have been able to let her go, I think I would have gone crazy! And I would have missed out on some very necessary growth.

Anyway, that's my little story. Easier said than done, that's for sure. Hang in there.

posted April 26, 2007 05:40 AM         

And it is getting easier. I had a bizarre dream last night that was nice which has helped me a bit.
It was a nice dream, flowers growing through melting snow (not sure of the symblism there) and the feeling of love. Afterwards, I dreamt I was with a group of people and the guy I secretly thought was cute left and I mentioned it was a pity, what was his name. Somebody told me 'Dustin' and said he thought I was cute.
Today whilst shopping I ran into an old school friend I haven't seen in about 12 years and used to have a huge crush on. His name? Justin. Lol, weird coincidence.

posted April 26, 2007 01:28 PM         

"Flowers growing through melting snow" ...

The flowers are yourself, growing and blooming as you break through the melting emotional energies of the pisces situation. You are no longer frozen in place.

That seems pretty appropriate.