posted September 18, 2008 04:34 PM         

...f*ck... i probably shouldn't admit this to anyone, but it's weighing me down...

Alright, i had a dream the other night about my mother. We were in a garage, and she was visibly drunk. She came up to me and tried to hug me, but i refused. When i pulled away from her, she looked at me fiercely and said "Do it."

Now, nothing else implied this, but i instantly knew she wanted me to f*ck an animal. She was going to make me. So i started sobbing and said "No, no, i won't!"

It was f*cking horrifying. SO much so that i woke up and i couldn't stop trembling.

When i think about it.. i ... well, i start to well up.

posted September 18, 2008 10:57 PM         

maybe, you feel she is forcing you to do something that makes you not feel human? goes against your beliefs in some way?

posted September 20, 2008 06:43 AM         

That was my first feeling/thought/mixture of both as I read that.

Bestiality in itself is just a symbol of something you don't want to do (in my view).

I get a variant on the theme: being hunted down by authority figures. Mainly Gestapo like sinister types. It could be interpreted in part by me picking up on the undercurrents of feeling around when I was a small child ~ war films playing on the T.V, family who were around during the WWII and witnessed some stomach-churning things. It could also be something deep-seated in my psyche about the need for freedom and not being penned in.

posted September 20, 2008 07:48 PM         

But i hadn't dreamt of her in a long time, which made me wonder if it could have possibly been something else. And the beastiality factor, i wasn't sure if that meant anything special- like if i was turning into a pervert or something.

Thank you both. I was just really scared.

posted September 22, 2008 12:18 PM         

This dream is a reflection of your treatment by your mother when you were a child. The bestiality theme probably indicates that her treatment of you stunted your development emotionally in some ways. There is probably some specific event connected with this dream (not necessarily bestial in nature). Does something specific come to your mind when you think about this dream?

posted September 22, 2008 05:00 PM         

But what does that mean? That the incident is going to happen again?? I really, really, really, f*cking hope not...

I read somewhere that dreams can possibly indicate something that will happen in the future. Is that correct? How do you tell whether a dream can do that or not?

posted September 23, 2008 04:36 AM         

Most people do this, I do, as well. I think of it as saving me from having to go into therapy or counselling. Not prospects I relish.

Things occur in dreams that could be linked to emotional trauma, something we don't want to face, or just the usual floating garbage sucked up by the subconcious mind during the average day. The world is full of unpleasant and scary things we blank out to keep us sane. At night, the cogs keep whirring and things might float through the filter.

posted September 23, 2008 01:29 PM         

The meaning of the dream, then, is that you are struggling with your past, especially this event and others like it, and trying to overcome the damage done.

Make sense?