posted July 02, 2014 11:40 AM            

A couple of nights ago I had a bad nightmare about him. I dreamt he was with all his good friends that I know and were putting him on a pedestal...making him look so great and making me look like this horrible person and how dare I end the marriage...he and his friends were saying and doing hurtful things to me and making him look so great, although his lack of attention, interest a d communication with me is what prompted me to end things.

I know this may have something to do with my guilt for ending things and HE was the one that was treated so badly. My logic tells me I did the right thing, but subconsciously I'm having a lot of guilt still?

I don't know how to move beyond this in order to heal..and the fact that he has and has treated me so coldly doesn't help things...