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Topic: Giving birth
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Emsie
Knowflake Posts: 763
From: Hungary
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted March 23, 2016 12:01 PM
  
Pretty strange things happened to me in the last few days. I was looking at some future Solar return charts of mine, and one of them holds the possibility of a future pregnancy. Right before this I've always had a strong opinion not to have any children, because when I look at any babies, I immediately turn cool if not cold. There are reasons regarding my past and old family issues that I decided to go with this opinion.
After that, I was sitting on the tram, and I noticed a mother with her baby boy. The baby was staring at me with those pair of huge baby blue eyes. And then, today I had a dream of being pregnant. I escaped with my big belly from some house where other people treated me like crap. I traveled with trains, then I was lying in the bed of my mother. She was there when suddenly I started giving birth to my baby. I was in for a C-section, but my mom didn't call the ambulance or anything. I didn't have a long labor, I felt some pain, but I delivered the baby quite easily. And I also felt the whole process with my body, it felt so real. o.o What could this dream possibly mean? I was contemplating the causes. Do you think that this could be a confirmation and a YES to that future pregnancy? Or I was just thinking too much about this topic... IP: Logged |
GeminiKarat
Moderator Posts: 2486
From: Austria
Registered: Jun 2014
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posted March 23, 2016 02:18 PM
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Originally posted by Emsie:
.... Or I was just thinking too much about this topic...
I will second that! I decided to become a mother later in my life  . IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 5158
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted March 23, 2016 08:03 PM
Sometimes that waiting little soul just wants IN!! hahaThere's also a thing about one's Biological Clock that can seem to overtake. GeminiKarat! ^   ... I became a mom at my first Saturn-Return. (That was called 'older' in those days.) I loved my baby with everything that was in me! (I've been estranged from her for almost twenty years, and I mention her because her birthday is next week. I'm thinking sooo fondly of her, and send her Blessings.)
Emsie ... You're Healing from past issues. How cool!! It's good to flush all that away and go for what YOU want in life. It's different when you're holding your very own baby... magical.
Maybe your New Solar Year will bring you possibilities you didn't see before? In the dream things went well for you. You were willing to go through whatever would come, and able to see success in your labors. Best of Luck on your studying astrology-- it's like a 'developing child'. Takes time and work, and your dedication is so real. You're Doing It!!   IP: Logged |
GeminiKarat
Moderator Posts: 2486
From: Austria
Registered: Jun 2014
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posted March 24, 2016 06:41 AM
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@mirage29:
Everybody gave it up that I would marry and be a mother  . The place I grew up everybody above 25 is to oooooooooooooold .IP: Logged |
Emsie
Knowflake Posts: 763
From: Hungary
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted March 24, 2016 09:17 AM
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Originally posted by mirage29:
Sometimes that waiting little soul just wants IN!! haha
Emsie ... You're Healing from past issues. How cool!! It's good to flush all that away and go for what YOU want in life. It's different when you're holding your very own baby... magical.
Maybe your New Solar Year will bring you possibilities you didn't see before? In the dream things went well for you. You were willing to go through whatever would come, and able to see success in your labors. Best of Luck on your studying astrology-- it's like a 'developing child'. Takes time and work, and your dedication is so real. You're Doing It!!
Thank you, mirage29! I had a very difficult childhood with an abusive Aries dad and a rather independent Aquarius mother. I decided to postpone becoming pregnant, because I don't want anyone to experience that hurt, pain and damage my dad caused us. I tried to think about this self-consciously, but at the same time I realized that perhaps I also have fear from the future.
Another reason is that I have Aquarius Moon, and I'm pretty detached. I just can't bear anyone who is clingy in general. When I see any babies, I just don't get that "oh my God, how cute" giddy feeling. More like "that's just a baby, okay, bye" kind of thing. This is why I think I could never be that certain mother archetype everyone thinks of as ideal. It was my 2020 SoR chart, so it's still a bit far away, but I guess I'll be more mature then.  IP: Logged |
Emsie
Knowflake Posts: 763
From: Hungary
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted March 24, 2016 09:20 AM
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Originally posted by GeminiKarat:
[QUOTE]@mirage29:
Everybody gave it up that [b]I would marry and be a mother . The place I grew up everybody above 25 is to oooooooooooooold .[/B][/QUOTE] Then, soon I'd be too old for them, too... I'll be 25 at the end of the year. IP: Logged |
mirage29
Knowflake Posts: 5158
From: us
Registered: May 2012
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posted March 31, 2016 03:00 PM
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