posted April 19, 2017 07:34 PM            

Usually  dreams consist of things, people  we think of some time  before we sleep but I hadn't  thought of either individuals  in awhile . Certainly  not yesterday!
(Unless seeing Nicolas Cage on tv yesterday tapped me in to my ex. He used to remind me of him. Circa 80s)

It began with me walking in on my first love (we once were engaged), his back  to me. From the hindside, his hair appeared  thinning. Therefore  it seemed current . (Long story, I have gone oob before, another topic altogether). He was studying  a puzzle. The puzzle  had him pretty stumped. The middle was not solved. Rather the  inside was not solved.

I stepped  in to ask if he needed help. He snipped "No, you made your decision  before".
(Back story, I was young and our break was a result of my mistake. He never forgave me. We never remained in each others lives either. I believe we took turns hurting one another deeply.)

I walked to the hall area where I saw my departed  aunt . She was beautiful. (Last we saw her, she was ravished by illness) She giggled "I'm  going on a date" -
Then she vanished. My former love turned to look my way, he told me that yes I could help him, he embraced me and we began to kiss.
But that's whenI awoke.

Okay, I'm  aware dreams aren't the basis of what we see, so if this was a true dream and not me floating to another realm to see them in another sense, I don't feel a dream of kissing could make me feel guilt because I'm happily married.

Was my aunt showing me she's vibrant, happy and loving since her death?

Could my conscience be showing me my former love felt this way over me or is it I who felt that way of him? (Our recent harmonic  charts, late last year, reflected he was possibly  thinking of me. And our dr-natal charts indicate we might be soul connected).

A coincidence or idk, maybe I should look at my transits, they (aunt & former love)are 5 days  apart (years apart in age though) They are Sun Cancer, as is my hubby, on my Draconic Desc.
,Maybe my ex crossed over?

I'm  open to any thoughts how all of this might  translate  - thank you.

(Added- in my natal, Karma is (0) conj my Dr Cancer Desc in my current Harmonic. Sextile  sun, moon and Neptune.
Tr Hypnos is (3) My natal Hypnos. Idk if it's too wide, could it be powerful with dreams?

-His progressed  Karma (0) conj my nickname of my youth  'Kira'. (My names are in his PR H3&H12)
His Harmonic  is (0) conj my natal Venus&moon.
His Hypnos near exact  my natal  DNA.
Kira in his Harmic is exact my natal Vishnu 'goddess preserving), which I hsve as a conjunctionin my natal  with Talent.

posted April 21, 2017 07:40 PM            

@Ayelet- Thank you! That made a lot of sense. Although I never see him/I reuniting. I believe he couldn't even allow being my friend. I made him so mad -if we were thrown on paradise island, he would either drown me or himself. I broke his spirit, if not his heart, he hardened badly.

Yes!He does hold a key. I had figured that out several weeks ago. Way back when he wouldn't forgive me I was sorrowful. I thought I never could feel such anguish. My mother found me a wonderful cat that
helped me move on and forget my pain. (My love of animals has always been powerful. I feel my highest good in their company) Current life- almost 2 months ago I sadly lost my beloved fur daughter (a different one). The pain has been tremendous that when I reflected on my younger self recently, that pain (of my young love) couldn't compare to the loss of my baby. I'm sorry to say, maybe I didn't truly love him as much as I thought I had. Even though we connect like soulmates in our charts -I suppose we were put together by the universe to learn, feel and process in our growth. Although I'm a happily married woman, I do miss him still. This feels full circle in some way. Felines connect in my healing and heartbreak.

posted April 22, 2017 05:39 PM            

We just finished a Chiron-Venus'retrograde where she "kissed" the Wounded Healer, the Great Physician in the cosmic-dumping grounds of Pisces.

She might merely have brought some submerged old junk from the past up to be released. Works like the process of defragging your computer. Just making things more organized, and efficient, and readied for 'the next' ...

Maybe you just let go and 'happened' to see it (via dream)...?

Venus turned direct, but is still slogging through the Pisces waters. When she's through, she will have taken her bath.... cleansed in the seas of forgiveness and forgetting.

Letting go of the Former things....
in order to make room for the Future

posted April 23, 2017 07:47 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
MoonMystic....

We just finished a Chiron-Venus'retrograde where she "kissed" the Wounded Healer, the Great Physician in the cosmic-dumping grounds of Pisces.

She might merely have brought some submerged old junk from the past up to be released. Works like the process of defragging your computer. Just making things more organized, and efficient, and readied for 'the next' ...

Maybe you just let go and 'happened' to see it (via dream)...?

Venus turned direct, but is still slogging through the Pisces waters. When she's through, she will have taken her bath.... cleansed in the seas of forgiveness and forgetting.

Letting go of the Former things....
in order to make room for the Future

Much Love!

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Hi Mirage.
Looking at those trsnsits,
that actually feels like that fits how I feel. The boomerang that the retrograde Venus and Chiron brought me. The letting go of the old love and issues. Closeted issues that resurfaced in my slumber. Relieved I won't need to put anymore thought into this dream anylonger. Thank you!

posted April 25, 2017 04:35 AM            

So I think this dream has more to do with you than with him. It is interesting that you mention guilt, as if trying to find a place or reason for that feeling. You are right, it is not because of the kiss. It could be suggested that you feel guilt for leaving him with an “inner puzzle”. If this is not about feeling of guilt, then perhaps it is about your soul connection and a desire to solve that karmic puzzle.

An embrace and kiss generally symbolize an exchange or sharing of energies. In this case it seems to be about closing the gap, reconciliation, and healing.

I’m not sure about the appearance of your aunt. Maybe she is there as a reminder that life goes on. Or, since the healing embrace occurred just after her appearance, maybe she is helping you from the astral side of things. I don’t know. Whatever the case, she seems to at least represent an infusion of positive energy.

Just some thoughts …

posted April 27, 2017 12:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Ra:
I know very little about astrology, so can’t comment on that aspect. I can see, though, that you have been keeping tabs on the ex astrologically and therefore keeping a connection with him open, at least subconsciously.

So I think this dream has more to do with you than with him. It is interesting that you mention guilt, as if trying to find a place or reason for that feeling. You are right, it is not because of the kiss. It could be suggested that you feel guilt for leaving him with an “inner puzzle”. If this is not about feeling of guilt, then perhaps it is about your soul connection and a desire to solve that karmic puzzle.

An embrace and kiss generally symbolize an exchange or sharing of energies. In this case it seems to be about closing the gap, reconciliation, and healing.

I’m not sure about the appearance of your aunt. Maybe she is there as a reminder that life goes on. Or, since the healing embrace occurred just after her appearance, maybe she is helping you from the astral side of things. I don’t know. Whatever the case, she seems to at least represent an infusion of positive energy.

Just some thoughts …

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Thank you for the reply, Ra.
I collected the natal charts of many people that I knew well to better understand in my studies but yes, I have had him in the back of my mind. There is a strong possibility it's one sided. With Astrology transits can happen to both people. Therefore I wondered if he/I might both had been on each others minds. I have heard/read we can meet anyone (living or dead) in our dream worlds. In this instance I absolutely agree with you, it was most likely my working through the old guilt and pain.

Thank you for the thought you added with my aunt. That very much makes sense too. I ask for guidance frequently from my spirit guides, Angels, ancestors and loved ones who crossed over. She was Angelic like while living and she very likely would offer healing to me where possible.