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Topic: pluto or neptune...whats going on?
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taurusvirgoleolady1974
Knowflake Posts: 205
From: a previous life
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 04, 2010 09:29 AM
 
saturday night i had a dream about my father. he died in april of 2009. i dreamed that he had not passed away, that it was a big mistake. i was able to hug and kiss him, and he reassured me that he was okay. then i woke up, and it seems i woke up into a nightmare. ever since then, i have been depressed, having crying spells, and thinking about the past and mistakes i made with him. sometimes i want to go with him. it feels like i am just now realizing he has went on. then i worry about others in my family dying. also, i am out of a job, and been feeling the potential to be verbally abusive and hateful. i am starting cna class next week and i am scared of old people. so im not sure if that is for me but i dont have a choice. i have been getting out trying to visit people, but im just not feeling any better. can someone take a look?  IP: Logged |
mercuranian
Knowflake Posts: 174
From: the 12th house
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 04, 2010 02:59 PM
"feeling the potential to be verbally abusive and hateful"transiting pluto opposed your natal mars would be the culprit here. IP: Logged |
Diana
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Registered: May 2009
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posted February 04, 2010 03:34 PM
You have pluto square pluto exact right now. I know when i had it (I didn't know I had it at the time) it made me very hateful, argumentative, and emotional. It was the worst transit ever. It finally just ended, but now t. pluto is on my mercury, but that is not NEARLY as bad as pluto square itself. This transit usually coincides with a very harrowing and emotional experience in the life. Often that experience is death of someone. So it is very difficult. You have to not resist the changes that are coming to you now. Some people say yoga or meditation helps a lot. You also have t. uranus on your venus. That can explain the dream. Maybe he was jsut trying to tell you he was OK and that you shouldn't feel bad about anything.
I just lost someone who was like a parent to me a few months ago and I still don't beleive they're gone. I also have dreams they are still alive. It hasn't sunk in. I guess that's a normal feeling....I thought it was just me. It's hard. I understand how you feel.
Progressed moon is sitting right on your neptune, that can also signify the dream and also not facing what has happened. P. MC is right on your n. saturn which fits vey well with your new line of work and also with the passing of your father. I think the new career will be cathartic for you. P. jup sextile n.merc in the 9th also shows the dream well. I think we both need to try to realize that it actually happened, but it will take time. Maybe we aren't ready to handle it. I do know it happened, but it is weird, because I feel like it didn't at the same time. that probably makes no sense... IP: Logged |
taurusvirgoleolady1974
Knowflake Posts: 205
From: a previous life
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 05, 2010 01:13 PM
mercurian, thanks i saw that too!
diana, thanks for all the dead-on info. very thourough. it means alot when people help you.
I am sorry for your loss, also. You never really get over it, just used to it. I miss my dad greatly. People mourn differently at different times.
i do feel like pluto is surrounding me, but i know i will get through it. its just a transit.
yes, i have been trying to decide what to do, and i have not been able to get a job in any areas of work that i have experience in. i just decided that God must want me to move forward. I changed to pharmacy technician, which is really for me. i will be done with my certification in may. i have been wanting to do it for a while, but have put it off.
Is pluto squaring my fourth or fifth house? and does it affect my natal pluto more, or the house it is transiting?
Also, its hard sometimes for me to read charts how long is this exact and i didnt know they are exact so early on in the transit, if that makes sense.
Once again, thanks diana. IP: Logged |
Sanchenuss
Knowflake Posts: 47
From: Clinton, SC USA
Registered: Nov 2009
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posted February 05, 2010 03:32 PM
Hey, her chart is really balanced. The more balanced a chart, the cooler and more awesome the person is right? My chart looks really dinky and unimportant.IP: Logged |
taurusvirgoleolady1974
Knowflake Posts: 205
From: a previous life
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 06, 2010 12:15 PM
This is the exact reason why i rarely post. i really needed some help here but posts about movie characters and guess the ascendant seem to be more popular at lindaland.
where are all the experts, besides the very few who were kind enough to help???IP: Logged |
katatonic
Knowflake Posts: 3010
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Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 06, 2010 01:07 PM
tvl...sometimes a few good answers are better than a slew of superficial ones...IP: Logged |
taurusvirgoleolady1974
Knowflake Posts: 205
From: a previous life
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 06, 2010 01:13 PM
you are exactly right, katatonic! but i had to point that out, because it is not the first time. that is why i made sure i acknowledged the people who were there to help people who are not as astrologically inclined as others.
just wanted to say how i felt... IP: Logged |
popcorn
Knowflake Posts: 801
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Registered: Aug 2009
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posted February 06, 2010 03:30 PM
I've have T pluto in opp my mars 2,1 in cancer. T saturn also aspect it in long time. I must say for me there is an stop in my lifeprocess. I live and survive and don't want start any new things. I still in and be in a thinking process. I wounder what I want to do in the rest of my life....My feelings are more deeply in a strange way and I also feel my anger more and deeply. My venus in 28,3 gemini and N.N in 1,2 in cancer also beeing in aspect in long time before. I've breake off and don't want be in a bad relationship anymore. I be rather alone. I also being better to take care of my parents. My mother and I got it better between us. We can talk to each other in a good way. I think it was 30 years ago we really talk to each other before. There is much good as come out of this. But sometimes it feels as my life stop and I want womit and nothing happend. The only I did in the time are to think. The life force me to think. Everything in the life precide one ide so...why not...I'm still in a thinking process  IP: Logged |
Unmoved
Moderator Posts: 1325
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Registered: May 2009
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posted February 06, 2010 04:02 PM
 good point kat. I also noticed tPluto opp nMars to be a strenuous transit. tSaturn on nPluto is also something I would see as a trigger for strain and pain. tUranus on your Venus is also another reason why you might be feeling insecure financially, because Uranus energy is just so erratic that you have no idea what will come where. I am trying to see whether there are any Chiron/Neptune and/or 12th house connections that could explain how the wound got touched through a dream, and I can't see anything really. tNeptune and tChiron are conjunct, so you're not alone in the revisiting of old wounds department because it would seem like this is a trend collectively on earth these days. This is also an opportunity to heal though, so maybe you were suppressing these wounds and now the dream has forced you to face these pains. I can relate TVLL1974. Trust! So, my heart goes out to you and may you find some comfort during this tough time. I am sorry I only read this thread now because I could have told you earlier that you are not alone. {{{{{hugs}}}}}} IP: Logged |
venus in gemini
Knowflake Posts: 337
From: Florida
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 06, 2010 04:38 PM
taurusvirgoleolady1974,He needed to come through to you, because of the difficult period you are going through right now. He needed to hug you, and kiss you, and let you feel his love for you no matter what passed between you when he was alive. He needed you to know he was okay, but more importantly, he also wanted to transfer that feeling of "I will be okay" to you, because you need to believe that right now. He asks that you raise your vibration level up as much as you can, because negative entities jump on you through your fears. He also said to tell you that his "celestial" arms are wrapped around you when you cry. Hugs to you..... IP: Logged |
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