posted July 16, 2012 06:57 PM            

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posted July 16, 2012 07:02 PM            

mercury in the 12th can make one very afraid to communicate for fear of looking silly or rejection.
Does this fit, Darling?

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posted July 16, 2012 07:04 PM            

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posted July 16, 2012 07:08 PM            

Moon oppose Pluto
Do you feel very, very passionate but then freak out about HOW passionate you are and kind of go to the other extreme?

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posted July 16, 2012 07:09 PM            

Aside from astrology advice, I'd step back from the social networking sites and work on my confidence. STOP comparing yourself to others.

Not trying to be a jerk or anything, I just know how ya feel.
Saturn in the 11th might make you feel a little alienated from your friends combined with being in the sign of Aquarius, and squaring your sun and moon in the 1st house. It is also your air singleton, you are heavy earth which can lend to stagnant emotions and depression without a little fire or air. You find it hard to communicate your feelings.

If you can somehow transform negative in a positive, I think you can be a very lucky person yourself. People with their inner planets in the 1st house, Be it their Sun, Moon, Venus, or Mars are very influential, very popular and attractive to the opposite and same sex alike. With your planets in Taurus, you are probably very creative and this is probably part of your charm.

posted July 16, 2012 07:26 PM            

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Originally posted by ceecee*:
i had to start taking notes..this helps me let what you are saying sink in. mostly because these things are true. The following is what i really responded to and feel fits me as a person. Being afraid to go forward makes sense because i sometimes feel stuck in what i'm doing and i feel hesitant to reach out to people to talk, or see how they are, and whats going on with them. I'm not shy persay though because i naturally like being socialable but i have heard i am both shy and outgoing. It depends. Most of the time i do feel as if i appear weird and i don't know if i can do anything about that. it seems engrained in my life. and i am realizing this currently in college with not knowing what to major in and who to befriend. To who asked me if i was pretty, i actually have been told i'm very attractive. Not to toot my own horn (:.

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Cute
Did I put my articles on the 12th House up for you. They seem to help people

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posted July 16, 2012 07:53 PM            

I go out at least once a week, but i don't post pictures on facebook. Why? I don't want to. I just don't want to be a facebook ***** .

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posted July 16, 2012 07:57 PM            

Your post really struck a chord with me I want you to know and understand that everyone on this earth deep down inside, has the same insecurities and feelings of vulnerability at their core so don't be worried, It's very normal and can be worked on. As regards Facebook.....I feel exactly the same way you do about it and I can tell you that my close friends also share your views aswell....Facebook photos or status's are not an accurate representation of anyone or how they look or act or think in reality...so really there is no need to be threatened by what you perceive to be their perfect lives and constant whirl of social activities. Most of us on Facebook hate 99% of our so called "friends" and that's what makes the whole charade so fake A girl could have hundreds of photo's of herself, looking amazing in all of them, 1000 fb friends, a big fancy job, ten sun holidays a year and post all of this on fb..... yet maybe that girl has a boyfriend that hits her? A parent that dosen't keep in contact with her? ....think about it.....no matter what Facebook allows you to see of another, there is always behind closed doors that you cannot see. For that reason alone you should never feel inferior in any way to anyone, on Facebook and in life. You say that you feel you have been anti social in the last while. I really feel that you may be psycologically "caught under a raincloud". I really do believe that you should mention how you have been feeling to your doctor. At the very least your doctor can put you in touch with a good therapist or counsellor who could help you to make sense of how you've been feeling and how best to work through it. Don't be afraid to do that as a lot of the time talking about things with an unbiased ear to listen can be the key

I sense from your words that you are a very deep thinker and a sweet soul anyone would be delighted to have a friend with those qualities and therefore you should give people the gift of your company as much as you can

When you come into contact with a person or group and your feeling a bit unsure, talk a deep breadth and think .....what do I think of this person...not ....what do they think of me....

Smile, and enjoy finding out about people...ask them questions about themselves.

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posted July 16, 2012 08:37 PM            

Welcome to the n.Saturn in the 11th house club!

Yup, I have it too. What a pain in the patootie. After what you described in your opening post, I thought you'd have n.Saturn in the 11th. Yes, it's a toughie. I'm often alone, with few friends. It's because I simply cannot handle those light, shallow talks. You know, all that "cocktail party" talk. I need to *know* a person. I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I do have, I've had for many years. I do love to be alone, but it's a habit I'm learning to slowly break. It seems like Saturn in the 11th can really turn someone into a hermit.

Also like me, you have n.Mars in the 12th. Another pain in the patootie. For myself, I feel like my energy gets held down or smothered. What I want to do seems to be squelched by others, until I finally just blow. I've learned how to control that now, though. n.Mars in the 12th can mean you get blamed for things you had absolutely *nothing* to do with. Yeah, that happened more than a few times in my childhood! Hated it, too.

You do have some challenging aspects to your n.Saturn. Like someone else said, they will get better as you get older. You're in college. Great! That's good. Your NN is in the 9th house of higher learning, publishing, travel. Investigate those areas. Don't be afraid of college, even though it may overwhelm you sometimes. Try to dig into everything college has to offer. Whatever they have that's extracurricular on campus.

posted July 16, 2012 08:45 PM            

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i think it might be aspergers. i don't understand figures of speech at all and i take things way too literally, and have been told i act like a 7 year old. i hope i don't have it. is there anyway to see that in a chart? i went to a psychologist and she said she doesn't think it is aspergers.

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Just my 2 cents. You don't seem like aspergers to me. I think it is simple insecurity from the 12th house planets, mainly.

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posted July 16, 2012 09:30 PM            

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what do you think about it? aspergers and in the chart?

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Well, I don't pick up an aspergers vibe from you. You are direct and open about your feelings and your insecurities. You seem to take criticism very well.
I think you should study up on the 12th house, as it is a turning inward of the planets that reside there, as if you are facing to the next dimension and not really of this world with all its garbage, quite frankly. It is hard for you to be superficial and a lot of friendships/ relationships/ social life is about being able to be superficial or at least act that way.

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