posted October 27, 2013 12:45 AM            

My Priapus and his Black Moon Lilith are @ 20° Aries; conjunct his Moon (22° Aries), opposite his Mars (22° Libra), conjunct my Sun (19°) Pluto (21°) in Libra.

Also, I realise that 2° might be wide here; I'm counting it because of the exactness of the conjunction of BML/Priapus, and to emphasise how BML operates in both of us natally.

posted October 27, 2013 03:05 AM            

Though it seems that Lilith is more dominant and Priapus submissive lol.

Lilith is about raw sexual power, Priapus is about loosing that personal power by becoming lost in the beloved/object of affection and willing to do anything for them.

Priapus is about an emotional/sympathetic connection mixed in with sexual longing. He is willing to compromise and understand the other in the deepest of ways, rather than want them in a purely selfish, lustful way.

Whereas Lilith is more selfish in nature, she wants what she wants with full-on intensity, no matter what and doesn't care about anything else.

In our conjunction, I'm Priapus and he's Lilith.
We also have my Draco Lilith opposing his natal Priapus.

posted October 27, 2013 05:33 AM            

Black Moon: lunar apogee
Priapus: lunar perigee

posted October 27, 2013 05:40 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

Also while Priapus is desperate to merge with the object of his affection, there IS a very lustful feeling, too, and in a way he is not THAT unselfish. After all he tried to rape Lotis and Vesta/Hestia!

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posted October 27, 2013 05:21 PM            

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Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
I'm definitely coming to see Priapus as a point of ultimate surrender and true submission.

If you have Lilith (or BML, or both) strong, you'll fight it tooth and nail, but the second you resolve to relinquish control, to surrender, there's a limitless capacity to do so.

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That is a beautiful way of putting it.

I am not sure how strong my BML is, though true one is in Aquarius trine URanus by 3 degrees. Mean one is in Aquarius, conjunct Psyche and sextile Sun and MErcury.

My BML seems to highlight individuality and independence quite much. With the Aquarius vibe there seems a real difficutlty for surrender I guess. Unless it is equal.

It is square my Scorpio Valentine on 27 Scorpio, too.

both liliths are parallel Jupiter and contraparallel Chiron.

Priapus on the other hand is on 00 Leo in 8th house, squaring Uranus. lol Can`t escape the Uranus.

Also trines my Amor by 2 degrees.(also on the antiscion of Valentine, but over 2 degrees, so very widely).It is also contraparallel Amor, so strengthening the aspect.

It is interesting how Lilith has the square to Valentine, and Priapus the trine to Amor, two asteroids dealing with the concept of unconditional love.

The 8th house definitely has to do with surrender as well, while my mean Lilith is in 2nd house, the true one in 3rd house.

I guess for me surrendering (Priapus in 8th house) demands to cut back on the obsession with intellectuality and analysis (Lilith in 3rd house) or security through independence (Lilith in 2nd house).

Sort of having tobe able to accept a certain insecurity.

However it is interesting how Priapus is in the sign of creativity and playfulness, warm and showy. Maybe another reason or description about why I admire truely creative and demonstrative people.

posted October 27, 2013 05:29 PM            

true Lilith is on 28 Leo conjunct his NN (3 degrees), trine his Moon and MC exact, trine his Sun by one degree.
opposite Psyche and Pallas by 3-4 degrees.

Maybe most importantly it is opposite Priapus by 2 degrees, and they are also contraparallel each other;
Priapus being on 00 PIsces on his SN.

Priapus is parallel, nad BML contraparallel Sappho.

his mean Lilith is on 18 Virgo squaring Neptune and sextile Valentine, but that is all.

posted October 27, 2013 05:33 PM            

Oh, great.

I hope I don't end up absolutely destroyed today. I don't think I could take that. Again.

Always being made to feel like the 'bad one'. Being forced into that rock-and-hard-place position because of his bloody principles. You know how terribly a person can feel when they're trying to love someone, and they won't allow them to do so because of a myriad of other reasons - fears, insecurities, fear of loss, abandonment, losing control - all behind the guise of 'their principles' ?

Gah.

I only have so much strength, and Lilith (BML) will keep fighting until the moment she doesn't have to, and the 'permission' has been given to surrender.

I've never been to THAT point before.

posted October 27, 2013 05:35 PM            

The Sun/Node is dancing over my Sun/Moon MP.

Moon's hitting my NNode, and his Karma. And ... things.

posted November 02, 2013 04:08 PM            

BUT ... that sense of 'I'm FEELING!' does definitely get me, too.