posted January 07, 2016 05:04 PM            

"Just from fighting
Just one anniversary
So I never thought you'd be the one to up and leave
You said our love was written in the stars

But I never paid attention to my charts...

I can love it, or
I can leave it
You say honey I
Best believe it
Cause you're a taurus, and
I'm aquarius, and
I'm not gonna say
I'm not gonna do

Never thought about it sentimentally
Never saw just how much you thought I meant to me
Never learned about it at university
Never thought about it cause you're the first, you see
And I'm aware of the procedure
But normally it's me that leaves her"

posted January 08, 2016 02:32 AM            

a song came to my mind - i'm not sure - but sounds astrology related from an 80s english band called cleaners from venus

Mercury Girl

She's staying around or else she's goin away
It could be forever or it might be a day
Or may be forever I call her a mercury girl
She's building me up & then she's knocking me down
Like a factory chimney in a northern town
And I am demolished I call her a mercury girl
She never sees me till the sun goes down
Lives in a secret world
Says: her career is in another town
Life with a mercury girl

One day once when I've got some time
I try to hold her but she wouldn't be mine
She slipped through my fingers & I missed the mercury girl
She came back to me with her mocking eyes
She told me she loved me but it could have been lies
And life can be up & down, life with a mercury girl
Life can be up & down, life with a mercury girl

posted January 08, 2016 04:10 PM            

Earlier today, I energetically had to break-off a Taurus relationship that had off/on qualities for quite a while now. *sigh of relief* to say that it's finally done. OFF completely. I had made that decision a while back, then kinda got seduced back into it, but today, it's done.

I'm the Aquarian part of the equation with my Aquarian Progressed-Asc.

I kept trying to Communicate (Mercury!!) an idea that I had been holding exclusively for HIM for OVER the past year+. I give way too easily (and, I like that about myself, actually, and want to continue to do so, AFTER I have my living-situation and economic sufficiency solved. I don't need mountains of money. Just what I need to pay my bills, with some extra for little comfort things, and extra on that so I can be my own little philanthropist-humanitarian--- laughing, that's my chart).

It must have been an Angel that was stopping the communications all along, because I was ready to do EVERYTHING just for FREE (aqua?) *duhmm~ME*?... NO, correcting self-talk, I say softly, that this was the most-Elegant, magnanimous and *Beautiful-ME*

Like Randall says, Everything happens for a Reason... And I Believe that that reason is for Good, and not evil. God(for me) doesn't want me going around prospering everyone else, while I neglect my own prosperity needs.

So anyways, I had a super down-to-THIS-HERE planet-earth grounded idea (for him, and for ~FREE) on how to make some money. (It was soooo freakin' easy for him, ~too. Wouldn't have taken a whole lot of 'extra'-effort (which Taurus loves).

I was going to do that just because I felt an affection and appreciation for him. My Venus Taurus, with quintiles to Uranus-planet within an 8th House Cancer stellium (Jupiter Cancer there sextiles with the Moon H9)?? Jupiter is the ruler of my Sag-asc. That's something for me to analyze about myself. I have Self-Value and working on that and ~Worth now.

I think I had given up on the 'money' part of MY equation after an emotionally scaring and very painful and economically devastating divorce. Like I never got over the emotional-loss during that time. When Venus is sad, how can she make money for herself. When Venus just constantly gives it all away.... still in mourning.

(Ha!! Stop it. Drying the tears. Laughing in a loving-way at myself, and being a very-good sport here)
~~~I'm soooooooo Doooonnne with it.

NO more. MY time and attention, Ideas and affections, have a Value attached to them. I'm sticking with the wiser ones in the background that have had some long-term faith in me.

Thanks for the GROUNDING moment. Thanks for letting me vent, and cry. Your music and lyrics were truly deeply part of a breaking-though moment in my life today!

So, ty to Thegrinning_cat, and VirgoPILL for your lyrics! (And Hi to Seimei.)

I've got ME a Destiny and a Future awaits. Thanks for support.