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Topic: My life is getting out of control
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Radium
Knowflake Posts: 497
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Registered: Jul 2016
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posted September 05, 2018 11:56 PM
  
My life is ******* insane. Can anybody figure out why I can't seem to get any hold of it? Pluto is transiting my Neptune and Venus (which are at 24 and 25 degrees Capricorn) in the 3rd. Neptune is in conjunction with my natal Saturn and Sun in 4th to a lesser point. Jupiter is in the 1st transit
I am a natal Scorpio Rising The only thing I have going for me if you want me to be 100% is my talent, band, and my youth. I have no help from family and no support system. I am back to living in my freaking car again since no one can seem to help me. I try to help myself but my phone broke so it's tough to find work, I have no stable place to live but I am grateful for my vehicle. Oddly, my social circle has increased a bit and also my relationships are getting extremely intense. I can see through people and situations with ease thanks to Pluto Rising and Scorpio rising. A lot of people tend to be jealous of me, I have a hard time finding love because no stability and trust issues. I don't know what to do or how to get by anymore I am literally no different from a ******* stray dog right now only difference I can play the **** out of a guitar and perform my ass off. I am a true blue 90s reincarnate punk rock/grunge lover. I feel Pluto is working very heavy in my life right now and I am legit going to die soon. I no longer fear death in fact I embrace it. I am scared of nothing but being locked in a cage. I will kill myself before that ever happens. Natal Pluto Aspects:
Natal Pluto in 1st Sag
Scorpio Rising
Pluto sextile Neptune/Venus/Uranus
Pluto square Sun 8th house ruler is gemini then cancer.
I have mercury conjunct my moon. Pluto is really kicking my ass out here folks I feel it's not easy being this cool. I feel extremely close to Kurt Cobain's soul and I can understand a lot of what he went through, I thank god for his exsistence everyday. What he had to endure is bullcrap. Jealousy kills so many beautiful people then when they end up dead we cry over them. I am over life and all the fake trash that comes with it. Come on death I'm waiting. IP: Logged |
MahaKali
Knowflake Posts: 457
From: Anywhere out of this world
Registered: Dec 2015
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posted September 06, 2018 05:21 AM
Hello from Scorpio rising with Pluto in Scorpio in 1st. Jupiter is transiting my 1st house as well, the beginning of this year marked the most ****** up and difficult period in my life, literally nothing good, not one single thing happened to me, only fails and disappointments. That's way aspects are more important than house transiting planet finds itself, but I don't have some hard aspects with transiting Jupiter. So I wonder if those 5 retrograde planets in the 1st half of the year are responsible for it. In my case, other 4 transiting retrograde planets were in hard aspects with important planets and rulers. I feel better now, but still depressed. You should look at whole chart or post your Natal with transits. IP: Logged |
MahaKali
Knowflake Posts: 457
From: Anywhere out of this world
Registered: Dec 2015
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posted September 06, 2018 05:28 AM
One more thing, I see you have hard time but also see immaturity with this Kurt Cobain thing. You are younger than me with Sagittarius Pluto and should focus on your goals, not to compare yourself with musicians. I'm AIC fan and don't have a need to die from heroin even in this desperate moments.IP: Logged |
DannyCappy
Knowflake Posts: 909
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Registered: Jan 2016
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posted September 06, 2018 10:11 AM
Radium months or weeks ago you were happy right?so remember that!! If things were working out for you then it can happen again.When we have depression we have our sad dark periods where we don't see a way out but once you get better you get even happier than you were on the last happy period.God bless you. IP: Logged |
Radium
Knowflake Posts: 497
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Registered: Jul 2016
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posted September 06, 2018 12:17 PM
Thanks guys, I'm trying to pull through  IP: Logged |
MahaKali
Knowflake Posts: 457
From: Anywhere out of this world
Registered: Dec 2015
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posted September 07, 2018 01:55 AM
You will feel better, just try to stay positive. I have these moments too, from black thoughts and depression to optimistic moments and calm nature. For example, I know the reason behind my depression, finances mainly, so I'm trying to solve it first so all other problems to come to an end. Total disaster was my first part of the year, so hope for better time now, I'm trying to stay busy and always in a move, so not to fall in moodiness and depression like I was from the beginning of the year. Try to do the same and wish you much luck and happiness. IP: Logged |
Huldra
Newflake Posts: 11
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Registered: Sep 2018
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posted September 07, 2018 07:44 AM
it is also a period with alot of energy from cosmos, with the eclipses and solar minimum making way for strong high vibrational energy to reach earth. all this high vibrational energy rips us apart, so that the low energy can get light and be healed.
it feels alot like plutos way of working, taking away all that is in the way of the souls purpose. are you 27 now?
i went trough a hell of a year when i was 27, and also thought of curt cobain, and the other famous people who died when they was that age. wondering if it was some astrological aspect or some energy we had to move trough to overcome ourselves that year. maybe it is for some? hope you will figure out what your blockage is, or what inside that attracks this,, or what lesson you are being taught.
sending love <3 it will get better, and when it does, it gets alot better! IP: Logged |
Aries Eagle
Moderator Posts: 1348
From: Λ Ἄρης Λ
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted September 07, 2018 11:48 AM
Be safe my friend it will pass, wishing you the best.IP: Logged |
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