I just found our heliocentric chart has
g earth trine
Tau - Camelot 
Virgo - Guinevere
Capricorn -  Lancelot

~ When we met, he was tending to his brown horse. (car) We corresponded and spoke from a distance once first apart.
He took on knightly duties when he courted me,then he brought his new (horse) for me to see 'Mustang' .. Our lovestory was beautiful.
.. we will never be the same people, nor together but he is wajing me to a story we have within us that until the end was as beautiful as a fairytale .

This is not the heliocentric , this is our Midpoint with transits from 11/2

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Combined Chart - below
I am probably going to need a few edits on this. Any TFers here?
I struggle with the concept but it gets tough at times. I think the notion we have losts parts of ourselves makes sense
. this in part is my shadow work. In a tender part of my young adulthood I was broken by this particular relationship. I'm merging several arts in this study. I really prefer to not DL our raw individual energies. chart added as soon as I can get it formatted .
thank you for any input you might have. ♡

.. To paint the picture-
(song is below)
- I started this thread because of the thread here http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/241279-13.html

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I'm not looking for advice unless anyone sees something to add, that of course is welcome
I wanted to share to let others realize if they have some quandary in their seeking info .. looking via a blending, hence creative NEW
ways might be additional help. ♡

*My head and heart are reconnecting. 
my tarot connections may need fixed. I'm learning them and there's a lot of distracting energy around now.

.. this is combined energy progressed  with
our transits.
Chart of blended energy coming soon. Just the Midpoint progressed with transits.

transit energy
tr venus/tr Adonis  in Libra cnj (0) our
   house1 and tr N. hits our 9th house Lovers Gemini. 9th can be spiritual,  here deeper, less superficial  love may be noted.
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Our NN was in the tarot slot of the Astrology wheel of 4 of Wands .. awe, it almost makes me wonder but healing is what matters.
> 6 of Cups in nature.

... our energies ...
H1  tr Mercury  (rx) pulling out old feelings is cnj our combined  cnj exact by H+M  .
SN and Adonis. Sun is close to hitting exact to the combined Aphrodite, in H2.

- The asteroid  Lola means 'Sorrow'
 it falls in H1, we wear it on our faces.
This card was the 3 of swords  - cause of our togetherness death.

My name is on the cusp of the 5th. Aquarius.  which, much of my energy alone is there.
tr Younglove just passed by my name in 5th, kinda far apart though.
  > 4 of Cups   >  Jupiter/Neptune
      'Younglove' in the chart

- combined energy Saturn/Vertex in with cnj (1a)  H7  Aries
 
H8 Taurus we have combined Venus/Preziosa 529 (precious) .. today incoming memory of his serenade when he was on shore leave,from my upstairs bedroom. Throwing candy up to me and professing his love. Damn how real that memory came back. So sweet he was then. >❤< talk about a haunting! We are working out that karmic connection (8th),  in the ghost house. Old Karma dug up to feel and process.
> This is 6  pentacles  energy <
  Same page energy in terms of love. This karma is coming into balance and healing.
  ** I realise I made an error with that H8**
It's all good.

our 12th Virgo. with pluto+uranus in there and Lola 'sorrorows' tr in that house.
Mudaca (lost love) is 0 cnj with Pluto.
  > 10 discs energy

.. our song was ... seeking it