posted April 04, 2021 06:25 PM            

I was wondering if you could help me come up with a story to explain the energy of a connection I have/give me feedback?

I do not myself believe in past lives, but see it as a tool or language for making sense of the energy between people...

In that vein, yesterday I read that Mars square composite nodes could reflect a past life where there was an inappropriate sexual connection

In our synastry, these are the aspects I’m wondering about:
- my North Node in Capricorn conjunct his true Lilith & SN

In our composite,
- Jupiter conjunct North Node
- Mars/Mercury/Neptune conjunction, square Jupiter/NN
- Mars/Mercury/Neptune conjunct my NN & his SN
- composite NN square our natal nodes/his true Lilith
- composite NN in Libra, SN in Aries

From this, I feel that this story could match:

He was my mentor in a religious setting, maybe training me to be an advocate for women who couldn’t speak for themselves & I fell in love with him because I admired his knowledge & understanding but he ended up feeling guilty for us getting involved sexually because he felt he’d abused his power & diminished the work he was training me for, whereas it was empowering for me for us to get involved with each other & a conscious decision on my part ...

our lessons now could be to learn to see each other as equal partners; learn to depend on each other slowly & holistically, not making any hasty decisions to get entangled with each other; for me to value my own self-resilience & not put him on a pedestal; & for him not to see himself as overresponsible for me

posted April 05, 2021 05:43 AM            

Note the Pluto-Neptune-NN Learning Triangle :-

Transformational Pluto is the most elevated planet, making it the most visible "player" in this natal chart. ... It is "at home" in Scorpio (the sign of sex + taboos), and powerful in 10th house (of status + reputation).

Slowest-moving planet Pluto is indeed teaching faster-moving Neptune ... BUT the latter is in competent Capricorn, "at home" in 12th house (of at-one-ment) and is the second-slowest-moving planet in the zodiac ... Hence, the "pupil" is already perceived by Pluto as "an equal, with the potential to become the teacher of the teacher".

NN is in self-assertive Aries and 3rd house (of learning-to-know, through communicating with others in the local community).

posted April 06, 2021 12:19 AM            

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Originally posted by livvywatermonkey:
Thank you Graham! I appreciate this the question rings very true as well

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