posted June 22, 2023 05:11 PM            

Unfortunately, I wasn't interested in him even though I could tell he was interested in me. He ended up finding someone else while we were still working together and married her but remained close with me. (I could tell he didn't really want to be with her, I still don't know why he married her).

I eventually left the company and 9 months later he got divorced. We kind of kept in touch for a bit and remained friends on social media. Every so often he would like my posts. Anyway, 3 years passed and we hadn't really talked, so I chalked it up to him and I just passing through each other's lives. Kind of like when you lose touch with people after your purpose together has been served and I was okay with that. Although, I did find myself from time to time telling myself how much I missed him. Not in a longing way, but in a general just really missing the familiarity and comfort that with him as my friend.

I ended up starting a new job recently and I kept having this amazing feeling about it. Not to mention this guy kept popping into my head more and more as my start date got closer. I had actually told my mom a week before my start date that I bet he might come back into my life. On the day that I was to start work, I was driving in and my mind trailed off to a memory of my first day of work at the place where I had originally met him. Also on my drive in, I had been praying to the universe to please send me the right person and to let this be the right place for me, etc.

I got to this new place of work and stood in the lobby with all the other new hires. After about 10 minutes or so, guess who walks into the lobby across from? Him! I stood there smiling as I watched him scan the room until he noticed me. When he did, the look of excitement on his face was that of a child who spotted their parent after their first day of school. We both ran over to each other and hugged immediately. We then spent the next couple of days at work talking about how crazy it was that we both ended up working at the same location again together. We started talking and found out that we had both been applying for the same exact jobs at the same companies for the last couple of months, prior to us both being hired on at our current place of work.

As we went through training together, he remained the same gentleman to me that he had always been. Unfortunately, it never registered with me before. I'm not sure what it is, but I never saw him as more than a friend before. But this time I do. The three years that I hadn't been around him I had gone through some very draining times and I still kind of am. But when I am around him, I noticed myself coming back to who I feel I really am. I feel at peace with him, like I can finally relax. I also feel more confident around him, like I don't have to be afraid of the world or something.

The problem is, he is dating someone else, who regardless of how I feel about him is completely wrong for him. He seems drained and not like his usual self and he complains about her and all the fights she starts with him. Nonetheless, I like to respect the fact that he is with someone else so I keep my distance and make sure it stays on a friend level. I am of the mindset that if I wouldn't want it done to me then I won't do it to others.

I think my issue is that I am hung up on our synastry and composite chart. To me, it looks horrible and is also one of the reason I think I didn't see us as more than friends before. But I have come to realize that the synastries that I thought were "good" turned out to be awful and left me with constant anxiety. I started doing more research into it and noticed that a few, not all but a few of the synastries that I have with others that I perceived to be "bad" were actually my most loving and loyal relationships (I'm talking friends/family). For example, my mom and I have may squares and oppositions between us and while it hasn't been smooth sailing AT ALL, we are now in a place with each other where we respect and love each other very much. I would even go so far as to say she is my best friend and one of the only people in the world that I can trust 100%. What's interesting though is that ever since we have come back into each other's lives, the universe seems to keep putting us in each other's paths at work and outside of work.

So perhaps I suck at reading charts and was hoping someone with better insight could look at mine and his synastry and composite to see if perhaps I screwed up the first time in not seeing anything more than friendship.

Synastry http://hosting.photobucket.com/images/i/teg2019/Synastry.png

Composite http://hosting.photobucket.com/images/i/teg2019/Composite.png

posted June 23, 2023 10:45 PM            

I see very close connections with Vertex and Sun, and Vertex with NN. This is a strong bond element.

Venus and Chiron connections are strong, loving bonds.