posted March 02, 2021 04:57 PM            

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Me (Ari) going out with Gem since Mar 2019. Been living with him since September 2019 after a turbulent few months where there was a never ending circle (for me), of job loss/ home loss.

Last year I was trying to overcome a serious long standing drinking problem and was doing this successfully having put structures in place such as psychotherapy. However, since I was making an effort from Sept 2020, I was finding that my hair got thinner and thinner by degrees (he lost his hair in his 40s, and during lockdown I was shaving his head for him).

Eventually I found a clump of hair at the back of my head which was much shorter than the other lengths (I have hair just past my shoulders). I then found tufts of my hair in his mending box. I confronted him about it as it seemed he must have cut my hair off whilst I slept. He denied all knowledge and said the hair might have been his from when he was young, or dog hair.

I gave him the benefit of the doubt and took lots of vitamins to try to get the hair to grow back. In Jan 2021 it seemed to do well and I told him so. 1 week later, there was an even shorter chunk that had been cut out and was extremely short at 1" length (3x3in).

We had been getting on well and I had not drunk, but I began to have a panic building. I have bipolar as well as PTSD from a previous domestic violence scenario. I also have severe PMDD.

The medication I had been on stopped some of the panic attacks but it didn't fix the high level of alertness I felt. I questioned him again and he denied it.I got drunk, we had a blazing row and I called the cops the next morning over the haircutting issue. He has taken my house keys away so I can't go in or out of the house without asking him. He has stuff of mine in his room and I have to ask everytime I want something from there. It's senseless as I ought to be able to go in there and get everything of mine in one fell swoop.

I'm aware he's got Uranus transiting his Asc currently, as well as other stuff.

I saw a Cappy friend today, who also knows him, but is more my friend than his. Cappy was horrified at the state of my hair and the way I looked. He said he had had a bad feeling about this guy from the start and said "get flat hunting, top priority"

I also have a court case at the end of this year, fighting my family over my mother's will as she left nothing to me.

First off, I hope you can follow the links, and secondly, why is my life in chaos most of the time? What does the future hold?

posted March 02, 2021 06:00 PM            

Ok, made album on Imgur. Let me know if this works.

Contents:
Ari (Me) Natal/ Transits
Gem (Him) Natal/ Transits
Me with hair all peculiar lengths
Tufts of hair I found
Last but not least - a lot of his friends are into gothic/ Satanist stuff. One woman made a "dead baby" sculpture (typical of her work) and they were all flocking round her saying it's "funny" and "cool". Horrible stuff.

https://imgur.com/a/TIXDRGe

posted March 02, 2021 06:56 PM            

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Originally posted by IAmAnOrange:
What does the future hold?

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That makes us two on this board!

posted March 02, 2021 07:55 PM            

Thanks for pointing out the aspects. I dare say I've not previously paid attention to the ones you mention, but I'll take a closer peek.

Trouble is, it's his house. I went through a rough period in 2019 where I was continually losing my jobs and accommodation and it got too much for me, so I moved in with him.

Last year we worked, or so I thought, on our relationship to try to make it stronger, then this new situation popped up. I hadn't been able to have a proper relationship since 2005 when I had to leave my violent husband. OH hadn't had anyone serious for 25 years.

We are both creative and our work provides an emotional outlet and we thought we had managed to get somewhere during lockdown, but this latest development/ realisation seems to have hit me hard.

Orange,

posted March 03, 2021 04:53 AM            

Cappy friend visibly recoiled and was horrified by my appearance and my hair yesterday, when he first saw me after a long time, and said he felt bf had incredibly dark energies. He said that bf was clearly affecting my energy, and urged me to house hunt straight away.

I personally am feeling numb, almost catatonic, both mentally and physically, I feel like I can't budge?

Spoken to psychotherapist this morning (end of course review, I did some group online therapy last year). They can't offer any more treatment at this current time as facilities are overloaded, but will be getting a second opinion from a psychiatrist on what to do.

posted March 03, 2021 10:32 AM            

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Originally posted by IAmAnOrange:
Kani, yes I have always had my antenna up (came from extremely hostile and violent family). However, I seemed to attract nothing but abusers, the same pattern was repeating itself time and time again with school, work, leisure etc.

Yes, I think stealing my hair was in a manner of speaking; a) trying to take my life force away from me; b) he has a shaved head and was possibly jealous of my hair and also didn't want other men homing in on me; c) his friends are all into paganism, Satanism, very dark stuff which makes me uncomfortable and which I'm not into; yes I wouldn't put it past him that he might want to use it in one spell or another.

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posted March 13, 2021 11:59 AM            

It never ceases to astonish me how property owners use their ownership to wield a sick sort of power over people. So for the moment, I am staying in a budget hotel, which is clean, calm, quiet, undisturbed and where I have actually managed to sleep properly for the first time in months.

The damage my partner did to my hair was so great, that I eventually cut it into a short bob. It disguises the damage better than when I had it long, wasn't my first choice, but something shifted when I did it. It really was like a huge break from the past.

I also had some private medical tests/ consultations done recently, and found out that I have a brain tumour (explains a lot) and also a very fibroid 22wk sized womb, for which the only remedy is a hysterectomy.

All of this has been so sudden, I can't believe the turnaround and how things have gone from 0 to 180 in such a short time. I'm wondering whether my partner's Uranus on the Ascendant was to blame?

posted March 13, 2021 09:34 PM            

Did you have my email address from Randall? Write me if you can. I may have a chance for a room for you. Don't have details at this moment so I hope not to give false hopes, but my nephew is leaving his room in LDN and I could see if you may take his place... and then, if you write me your birth data, I could try to check all your health situation.