posted July 27, 2016 06:44 PM
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Originally posted by angel4845:
We both have Saturn opposite Chiron natally. I wanted to ask you how do you feel about your Saturn in the 5th house? And have you ever suffered in the area of friendships (11th house) Chiron in the 11th in leo? How do you feel about your Chiron sitting there opposing your Saturn? I have Saturn in Aqua in the 5th DIRECT and Chiron retrograde in leo in the 11th house. I'm starting to believe that retrograde asteroids are not the strongest they defently give another meaning but I'm not too sure how do you feel about your Saturn being retrograde in the 5th?
Honestly, I felt the effects of this. Growing up, I was rather serious and didn't go out as often as most kids. I had a small group of friends, but going to big parties with a lot of people wasn't my thing. I came off as very serious and I was told by quite a few people to lighten up. But, like any natal, or synastry aspect, it's up to YOU to continue to act this way, or change. When I entered college, I was still pretty closed off, except for a few friends I had. I never went to big gatherings, and shunned typical college get togethers, thinking they were lame and just superficial. But, I made myself go, enjoyed myself a few times and made new friends. So, I really changed MYSELF under my own willpower.
So, I guess I'm a little disappointed of Saturn being in my 5th, simply because I was KIND OF a loner for a lot of my childhood and teenage years. I hung out with very few people (even though we did really fun stuff together), there were many days of me just hanging out at my house doing nothing, when I could've easily made way more friends, done more social things...maybe even had sex with a few girls I found attractive 
So, I guess this ties in the question if I ever suffered in friendships. No, not really. Again, I didn't have as many friends as I would've liked, but still knew a few who I really did enjoy. I wouldn't say I HATE these aspects, but it did present challenges to me. I didn't bother to overcome those challenges until very late in my Freshman year to early Sophomore year in college.
It's super easy for a lot of people with this placement to not make friends, or be social, because it just doesn't FEEL right socializing in big groups and going out. They may see these typical social paradigms as fake, superficial, lame and below them. I honestly felt that way for most of my life. But when I started being more open and FORCING myself to be social, eventually, I realized my sense of humor was very alluring to a lot of people. I thought those few friends I knew in middle/high school only liked my humor, but it worked on so many others, especially pretty girls. So that just opened the floodgates for me.
I still don't enjoy going to parties where there is SO MANY people, with a ton of alcohol and stuff like that, but I am definitely better than I was years ago.
What I figured out, is that with these aspects, is I was timid to LOVE. I yearned for love and acceptance and I saw other people making friends, hanging out, having relationships and I knew I wanted that, but was too scared of the idea of loving and accepting others into my life, that I refused to do it regularly. I was simply SCARED of it all. But hey, I faced them, opened myself up to the fear and realized what I was scared of, isn't that scary at all, and it made me COMFORTABLE in the situation.
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posted July 27, 2016 12:40 PM
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