posted August 27, 2004 12:13 PM           

Some speak on the exquisite oblivion of the Self that must surely come at the end of whatever ride we're on - they look forward to their merging with eternity and existance at the end of their journey - but I'm rather too attached to the joy and sorrow of discovery and learning to yet move to that. Perhaps that's one of my shortcomings - attachment - and as a Pisces Sun with Neptune strongly aspecting that, the urge towards Ego Oblivion calls.
God, it calls.
But there's still too much fun to be had.

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Where are you?
Would you mind dying?
Being born again?
Not being born again?

Would you like to experience childhood and adolescence and adulthood and the agony and the excitement and the fleeting peace again, or would you like to move on after this?

posted August 27, 2004 12:30 PM         

I've thought on this often. My life force is too strong now, I'm about to embark on so much, learn so much that it'd be a pity not to make the most of my LIFE.

I like who I am right now, sure my temper can flare, and am capapble of being b*tchy, selfish & unforgiving same as anyone, but I learn from me too. I've arrived out the other end of the most recent tornado, pretty balanced, things scattered but still in eye shot and I love it.

After many tests and a few life threatening moments, I'm still here - and corny as it may sound, I wouldn't change a thing, and don't have any regrets since I made the best decision I could at the time in every situation. I've shifted, so I take responsibility for my actions and have moved forward alone, however it has been frequently rewarding

I'm calmer & have more faith in situations nowadays, and somehow know I'll be OK too. I love having my brain taxed like this, but cannot respond fully now, as I have to log off & head outta the office to start my weekend, so bye for now .. this is gonna be one hot thread!

posted August 27, 2004 12:52 PM         

In truth, we die a million deaths a day and are also reborn the same number of times. We also relive childhood and adolecence on so many different levels daily. Think about it.

I think there is often pain, cold and disquiet here, and yes, I do believe we have to experience those in order to recognize their counter parts.

There are dimensions not of the physical. Having been able to see spirit most of my life I know this. It has opened up a huge can of worms for me. I wonder if we actually go anywhere else at all. I mean space wise.

I know for sure we transform. Perhaps these dimensions are the many mansions. I do consider myself a believer. I'm so glad things never stay the same though. How boring snoring that would be!

Some people are annoyed to die, some are annoyed to live, and some are just plain old annoying.

posted August 27, 2004 02:10 PM         

The main reason the Kaballah gives for waiting until age 40 to study that path is before that age, one is supposed to be attached to life. You have a handsome young husband and a beautiful baby (with more kids to come, I suspect). Of course you are attached to life right now. This is the time for the joy and the struggle, for finding out what it would really be like if you were Corri trying to make your way in a physical world. You have lots of time for sweet Pisces oblivion later.

Would I mind dying? When the time comes, I won't. Right now I still have too many people to help and too much joy to experience. This life IS supposed to be a vacation for me, after all, and who would want such a wonderful holiday cut short?

Would I want to be born again? Sure! I'm a volunteer at this point anyway, not just stuck on some karmic wheel. The secret of Nirvana (escape from the wheel of rebirth) is that if you are seeking it and grasping at it, you have missed the whole point. One must get past the point of wanting to escape and start to realize the wonder of what we have set up for ourselves here in this illusionary physical plain. Then you volunteer to come back to help others and to simply laugh, love, and live. (Check out that look on the face of the Dali Lama.)

You are a wonderfully deep and loving person, Mrs. Prox. Sure you feel the undercurrent of the Nexus running through your soul, but you need not return to it just yet, at least not for more than a short visit...the odd satori experience and moment of enlightenment. I can feel in my heart that you are SO on the track meant for you. Have fun and feel the laughter that bubbles up every day. Remember...life isn't a test...it is a field trip. Let me know if you run out of chocolate-chip cookies before time to get back on the bus. I brought some extras.

posted August 27, 2004 04:21 PM         

The only thing that bothers me about dying is leaving my cats behind with no one to care for them. Don't give a whit what the old sages 'round the water cooler say about letting them experience their own karma. It's a bona fide worry for me.

I don't believe it's nearly my time. I suspect there are still many years ahead.
And perhaps by the time it is my time, I'll have the kind of crazy dinero available to ensure them a comfortable life. Or perhaps they will have passed by then.

posted August 28, 2004 02:05 AM         

Would you mind dying?
I would also be really annoyed to die at this point. It would be like totaling your car on the way out of the gas station after filling up. I just filled up.

Being born again?
I'll be back. I'm quite sure of it.

Not being born again?
I think I have stuff to do here. Not sure what... maybe that's why I'll be back?

Would you like to experience childhood and adolescence and adulthood and the agony and the excitement and the fleeting peace again, or would you like to move on after this?
Not in THIS lifetime

Do you think that there's cold and pain and disquiet once gone from here, or do you think that we must live to taste those in order to know their counterparts?
I've read that the only physical feeling that can compare to the descent to the hereafter is orgasm. I like to believe this is true

Do you love them in that they allow you differentiate?
Whom? I don't really understand this question.