posted May 04, 2003 10:36 PM              

Sometimes i wish I had a better handle on it...the emotions...I mean..for instance...just last week...that Virgo I worked with and liked an awful lot left to move back to the south this past friday and I cried like a baby/sissy on his last day...some people kind of smirked/laughed but others found it to be "charming"...not sure that's the best word but I think you know what I mean...I think they finally see that I'm more sensitive than most people...and I think maybe He (the virgo)really understood my feelings a lot more...even though I didn't cry in front of him...he still knew.

I don't know...my chart says I'm prone to depression and I have dealt with that in my life already but I thinkI'm better for it...as odd as that sounds...the people in this worls who really "feel" were and are some of the greatest poets, songwriters, artists, musicians, actors.....you get what I'm saying..I know you do.

I'd rather feel than not...because at least I know I'm capable of different levels...the highs and the lows....I think it enables you to deal with life a little better and to relate to others...to be able to get along with a variety of people...makes like interesting.

posted May 06, 2003 12:33 PM              

I do it myself, and often feel guilty because it seems I only make self-centered remarks on the threads, instead of contributing to the group discussion... but oh well, that's me

That's crazy that you let the other people see you cry... I don't think I would have been able to do that (if I was a woman) but that's cool that you felt comfortable with it

The depression thing I think will always plague us, there's no way to escape it... smoking pot REALLY makes it worse for some reason... (which adds to my theory that my personality shifts when uner that influence)

Usually when I feel a fit coming on, and I can feel it during the day, I just spend the ALL MY TIME outside work and school WITH PEOPLE. I have a great group of friends that are always willing to let me just be "there" at their pad throughout the night until I want to go home... it's great... They don't know how much grief they have saved me... just to be around people... weird, huh?

I can't believe how moody I get though, jeez, I'll start the day off on cloud nine, and then one little comment will change the whole course of the day for me... IT'S RIDICULOUS. But of course, it's only when I'm alone, once I'm around people, my happy-go-lucky side of my personality shines forth again and that's how I feel, I really can't get depressed around my friends

How about you?

How do you deal with it?