posted June 02, 2003 12:54 AM              

It seems to me that life often brings us changes for which we do not feel prepared, nor would have chosen due to our cultural conditioning. Who of us would choose to feel confusion or pain, yet only a sociopath would never feel either!! If you are in a Neptunian phase now, you can use your strong natal Capricorn energy to pick a focus and create a safe space for yourself while all this sensitivity, intuition and spirituality plays such a big role in your life. Neptune is so subtle and internal, and often needs seclusion-- maybe use your Capricornian abilities to set aside a room or corner in your home or life for yourself.

The dissolving, all-One nature of Neptune resonates to art, beauty, music, metaphysics, and the Christ-nature within. When I went through a Neptunian phase many years ago, I spent a lot of time crying, triggered by a break-up, but a wise woman helped me see I was really crying for the world, and all its pain. I cried for months, until I was done. There was no right or wrong about it. Whatever you choose to do during your Neptune phase, or whatever it brings to your soul, surrender is a key word for contemplation and meditation. I don't know if you know Tarot, but an appropriate card for Neptune is The Hanged Man.

Neptune takes us from the deep dark murky lake of disillusion and sweeps us down to the ocean. We are cleansed when we let go, and allow mysterious forces and the unseen to transform and heal us. We stop sinking and become buoyant. The certainty that "all is ruined!" is simply overtaken by the magnitude of understanding a force that is bigger than we are, bigger than the past.

No, I know that my ego would not have chosen a Neptune phase, but luckily for my soul, my ego is not in charge. If it was, what a self-satisfied little underarm deodorant commercial I would be! Ewwww!!

posted June 02, 2003 03:05 AM              

I always enjoy hearing what you have to say. You are so kind and helpful.

Thank you,

posted June 02, 2003 10:08 PM              

Thanks, Heidi!

posted January 26, 2009 04:41 AM            

i think that someone that has 6 or more planets or a majority of there planets in feminine negative signs are more likely to be deppresed or suicide.also alot of water signs in a chart could indicate suicide.

posted January 27, 2009 11:57 AM              

I looked at all the times I have been suicidal, and there's really not one transit or aspect that kept showing up, although I can note that the most difficult stuff came when Pluto went through my 8th and was conjunct my Neptune. This ultimately was when Pluto was also square my natal Sun. But you can see natally that I might suffer mental issues/severe depression and trauma, and I suffer from depression even now that Pluto is out of that house and no longer making those aspects.