posted September 08, 2003 04:11 PM              

I noticed a lot of us are struggling and I have struggled hard with jealousy, sexual jealousy myself. I hope to have peace of mind, and there doesn't seem to be any, once another one we love knows how we feel and keeping the pride is tough. So here are some lines from a song that tells how it is.

"I See a Darkness"
Johnny Cash
This may help you express what you feel.

Well you're my friend
And Can you See
Many Times We've been out Drinking
Many Times We've shared out thoughts
But Did you ever, ever Notice
The Kind of Thoughts I Got
Well I have a Love
A Love for Everyone I Know
And You Know I have a Drive To Live
You Know I won't Let Go
But Can you See
It's Opposition
Comes Rising Up Sometimes
That it's Dreadful Imposition
comes Blacking in my Mind
And I see a Darkness
and that I see a DArkness
and That I see a Darkness
and that I see a Darkness
Did you know how much I love you?
Cause I hope somehow that you
Can save me from this Darkness
Well I hope that someday Buddy
We have peace in our lives
Together or apart
Alone or with our wives
And we can stop our whoring
and pull the smiles inside
and light it up forever
and never go to sleep
my best unbeaten brother
This isn't all I see
Although I see a Darkness
although I see a Darkness
and I know I see a Darkness
Althought I see a Darkness
Did you know how much I love you
Because I hope that somehow You
Can Save me From This
Darkness

posted September 09, 2003 12:18 AM              

Oh how wrong can you be?
Oh to fall in love was my very first mistake
How was I to know
I was far too much in love too see?

Oh jealousy look at me now, Jealousy you got me somehow
You gave me no warning, took me by surprise
Jealousy you led me on, you couldn't lose you couldn't fail
You had suspicion on my trail
How, how, how all my jealousy
I wasn't man enough to let you hurt my pride
Now I'm only left with my own jealousy

Oh how strong can you be, with matters of the heart?
Life is much too short, to while away with tears
If only you could see, just what you do to me

posted September 09, 2003 01:23 AM              

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Jealous Guy -- John Lennon

I was dreaming of the past
And my heart was beating fast
I began to lose control
I began to lose control

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy

I was feeling insecure
You might not love me anymore
I was shivering inside
I was shivering inside

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy

I was trying to catch your eyes
Thought that you was trying to hide
I was swallowing my pain
I was swallowing my pain