posted February 20, 2004 06:20 PM              

I tried not to get involved, I dragged myself forward bit by Taurean bit, and I tried to keep myself from getting emotional, but the Cap just would not let us, phone calls, visits etccccc.

Of course this all stopped as soon as I committed my heart (but not my loins my good friends, I have earned some self control over the years).
I have also committed my heart to an Aqua/Venus and Merc in Cap this year too, but it's long distance so this was my local committment. I don't commit often even being a Taurus but when I do I guess it means something. (Committments are long or short depending on the person so that's why Taureans seldom commit-it takes a while)

I am feeling very low, having been hideously dumped in such a fashion that would make Marilyn Monroe or some other <trying to think of stable beautiful woman but can't right now>, star, kill herself with drano. Even Tracy Chapman would be emotional with all her wisdom.
"Oh give me one good reason why"

So I am looking for some answers,
I do not have a birthtime, because he hates astrology, and everything else about me. What I know is that I hate him or care, I don't know which. I don't know whether to punch him or not, we have Uranus conjunct the moon in synastry which results in emotional upsets and hysteria, which I experienced much of this week. Unbelievable uncontrollable crying and anger all at once.
We have composite moon in virgo.

His Moon is Scorpio and Venus Aqua, Mars is Cap again, Mercury Cap again, Saturn is Aqua, Pluto and Uranus are Virgo, and Jupiter is Aries. His Neptune conjuncts his moon and he is split on what he wants, to be reserved or have the emotional intensity.

Any experience in a setup similar? With infidelity especially? and games? His entire personality is fake it seems. how was I taken in? Is it the Aqua venus, I have experience with this.

posted February 20, 2004 06:21 PM              

Truer words have not been spoken. It makes sense he has so many planets in Scorpio.

Natasha

posted February 20, 2004 11:09 PM              

Like taking bits and pieces from bad actors and Mr. Potato Head's, I see this character clearly.

Does this apply?

* He's VERY smooth.
* His voice, his words, and how he speaks makes you melt.
* He seems to present himself to you with "the future" in mind.
* He seems to make time or have time for people who rely on him.
* He commands respect in social situations.
* You forgive him for whatever he lacks since he makes you feel grand.

posted February 21, 2004 03:26 PM              

Thank you Candida, Yes I do feel sorry for myself sometimes but only when something really horrible comes out of someone's mouth. I have Gemini Mercury on the 7th so what a person says to me matters more than what they do and I am very sensitive to someone like very much saying the wrong thing, especially if IKNOW they meant it to harm me or make me angry in some way.

I do not think i deserved this reaction simply because I believe he wanted a physical relationship too soon.I am just out of a relationship for pete's sake and working boundaries, which are healthy. I think I insulted his pride too. Power struggles!

Scorpio Ascendants are powerful and have intense feelings and reveal them slowly. They are funny about physical contact, they do not like to hurt anyone or like to see pain in anyone. Very often they are doctors. I am brutally honest and I also have Mars in the first! My ascendant is in the 12th making me easy to feel a crush on someone pretty quickly. I am used to it.

Power struggles are felt. I like to worry about a mate and see what my partner is thinking about constantly. Scorpio ascendants do a lot of work on dealing with worries in others, it's a strong power but it can be used for good or evil, just like Scorpio moons, or Pluto aspects. It's similar to Pluto on the ascendant. I also have Neptune on the ascendant too. So I feel like a Pisces too. I can't stand seeing anyone walked on especially physically, including myself.

Do you react strongly to pluto aspects or have a particular partnership that works better for you?

Thanks, Gloria, I am okay now, Just had a tension headache and a weird massive feeling of pain in the back of my neck from wanting to scream some words I could not say at the time. I like to be honest but sometimes the other person does not want to hear it. I'm not really in love, just feeling sensitive. The Virgo I was seeing is out of town. (the virgo is already giving off, wanting to be physical vibes which gives me pause).

I was not seeing two people at the same time, I hadn't heard from the CAP in weeks and he would not return my calls so I assumed since his last cold shoulder regarding talking about our feelings, he was not interested. I had no idea he would react with spite. I tried to talk to him about my feelings, and He threw it in my face that he was "seeing someone else ANYWAY", spitefully said. In any case I am taking it very slow.

The reality is anyone can get to you if you let that person in close, it's up to me to pay better attention to what's hanging around me.

Yes you were right on all counts!
Scorpio moons seem to be smooth talkers.

I think I had a small crush on the Cap in the light of day but I am angry that I let myself feel that way about an obvious fake person. When I have a crush I usually push it or just try and crush it. It has nothing to do with whether or not it's good for me, it has to do with the other person needing me, or if the other person makes me feel good about myself and makes me feel grand. But I am always willing to arrange my life around another as long as there is a real future. Dreams are great but I don't want them. I want the real thing.

The real thing doesn't reject me emotionally, and gives me what I honestly need and vice versa. There can only be one partner per person so I have to receive X instead of Y, you know? Otherwise I get frustrated and afraid of my insecurities being played on.

Our composite said that there was a real problem with one of us playing on the other's feelings, that is certainly true. There is a plutonian feel about our ex friendship, something to watch out for.

posted February 21, 2004 03:49 PM              

What else matters anyway? It's silly to date all the time if you know what you want is not to date, dating is all about playing on your own insecurities. It doesn't have to be deep at start but it does have to be committed to be good. Don't let anyone tell you only insecure people get married, actually the insecure people are out dating.

posted February 21, 2004 05:21 PM              

.gloria

posted February 23, 2004 10:17 AM              

Too much romantic soap opera stuff.

posted February 23, 2004 11:46 AM            

I do see that he is a mixed bag of emotions. All that squaring and opposition, not just with his chart, but also with your chart. What really struck out was that he has a Fire singleton - in Aries. That forms another tense angle and takes so much energy with is one chart, but ALSO with your Cancer Moon - also a singleton.

You can't help but feel worried about his intentions. You must have felt that there was just "something" weird about him or uneasy. Your heart was warning you all along not to trust his shell (because behind that shell was a very selfish, inconsiderate, BOY)

posted February 23, 2004 11:34 PM              

With Libra Moon - he could still be a smooth talker. His feelings become your responsibility. He's overly sensitive one minute and stoic the next. Plus Cap with Libra Moon cools down any emotions. Same with Cap Moons.

Libra Moons are just born to get their way with people, especially Cancer with Libra Moons.

Natasia... what's your b- info again? I want to take a quick look and see if I get any hunches on good mates.

posted February 25, 2004 10:17 AM              

Hmmmmmmm