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Topic: Pluto and Saturn- the Cosmic B***H Slap....
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Motherkonfessor unregistered
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posted February 27, 2004 02:40 AM
Thinking back to just one week ago, I sat at this forum about to compose a melodramatic weepy monologue about how MISERABLE I was and how horrible life had become......I am unemployed, single, living with Mommy for the first time since I was 17, blah blah blah. I hated being in my own skin. I was begging the Universe to please, just give me some mental clarity, pretty please, to help me figure out what to do next. Instead of writing my mope-poem, I started really READING the boards here, and posting, and re-vamping my self-instruction into the arcane art of astrological navel gazing.. Boy, has it been a fun week!! With everyone's help here I started looking at my chart impartially, learning how Pluto and Saturn are teaming up to help me get my self together. I started to realize that altho the stars don't MAKE us do something, if you flow with what you have been given, it.....starts.....working. Seems obvious, right? Not to me. I was so set in thinking that society dictates I must "be" a certain way, that I didn't know I have the choice to BE what I want. No wonder it took losing everything to just get that point across.......hehhehe Now I understand why people tend to speak in ephemeral platitudes when one speaks of consciousness transformations...the language fails a person. In 7 days I have quit smoking, started walking in "my" woods again, started applying for jobs again, and have reconsidered my fear of taking the job I was offered in Yellowstone for the summer. Oh, and I was able to cut my emotional cord to a 6 year long relationship that wasn't doing me any good. Whew. This is basically just a vent, but its also a thank you to LL, and everyone here. No, my life isnt any different than it was a week ago....but I'm different. Weird how that works, sometimes. MK IP: Logged |
Harpyr Newflake Posts: 0 From: Alaska Registered: Jun 2010
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posted February 27, 2004 03:42 AM
Lindaland is truly a wonderful place. It has helped me through some rough times. IP: Logged |
pixelpixie Newflake Posts: 8 From: ON Canada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 27, 2004 08:32 AM
*CLAPS* *Cheers* Hip-Hip-Hooray!!!!!The problem with my life is that i am constantly changing, reevaluating, and I feel like I leave evryone behind, choking on my dust. They still matter, but I am different towards them.. and they don't even know it happened. I would liket o think I emerge as an eagle, or more self fulfilled, but I don't know what others that I care about would say..... But Congratulations to you for having the strength to go with the flow you need..... We'll be here every step.. even the faltering ones!!!!
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TINK unregistered
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posted February 27, 2004 09:07 AM
"I hold it truth, with those that singTo one clear harp in divers tones, That men may rise on stepping-stones Of their dead selves to higher things." Go get 'em MK!
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cristiname Knowflake Posts: 66 From: Earth. Welcome! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 27, 2004 11:07 AM
well, now... your life sounds just like my life lately... I knew there's a light at the end of the tunnel ...someplace... nice to hear you made it out! IP: Logged |
gloomy sag unregistered
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posted February 27, 2004 11:53 AM
Lots of LOVE and LIGHT to you, MK! (And come on now - I have never known a Virgo that wasn't ambitious!) *bends over with admiration*IP: Logged |
astro junkie unregistered
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posted February 27, 2004 12:59 PM
Mother & Pixel -I too am a "leave em in the dust" type person. There must be something about us which instinctively knows we need to be totally be immersed in making our lives better. With a few guys, as they are getting to know me, I'll say, "I'm always changing and improving. The person I am today will not be the same person 2 weeks from now..." and if they are at all insecure, it puts them off. .gloria ------------------ it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness... IP: Logged |
FishKitten unregistered
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posted February 27, 2004 01:20 PM
Good for you, MK! Hang in there.PS: Isn't it funny that MOPE and POEM are lexis? IP: Logged |
astro junkie unregistered
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posted February 27, 2004 07:19 PM
"HOLY SPY" is in "PSYCHOLOGY"IP: Logged |
Apple Newflake Posts: 0 From: Registered: Sep 2010
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posted February 27, 2004 08:49 PM
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aquaspryt69 unregistered
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posted March 05, 2004 07:10 AM
MK--Love the Topic you came up with! I don't know how I missed this thread, but I can honestly say you and I are in the same sh***y position ( or we were). I ended an abusive 8 year relationship and moved back in with mommy for the first time in over 12 years! Unfortunately, I don't have a national park to escape to even if only for a while. I will be stuck here in hot ass Phoenix, unless I do some fancy footwork that gets me out of this adequately called hell hole before May/June, or whenever it decides to hit 120 degrees this year! Good luck to you! IP: Logged |
Motherkonfessor unregistered
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posted March 05, 2004 07:37 PM
Thanks aqua.....and more luck to you!! I once had the chance to move to Phoenix, and I didn't because I just couldn't handle the weather.I would rather deal with floods, bugs, tornados and cows than that heat!! LOL Strength to you dear, in escaping your previous situation. MK IP: Logged |
Total Pieces Newflake Posts: 2 From: Los Angeles, CA USA Registered: Oct 2009
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posted March 05, 2004 08:09 PM
Congratualtions!Isn't wonderful when you just get it. Whatever 'it' is. I'm glad you are feeling good. I've been reading your post and you have some much wisdom and knowledge to share. I've been taking bits of wisdom home with me everyday! Have a great weekend, MK Love, Amber IP: Logged |