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lovely libra
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posted March 23, 2004 05:01 PM
  
Could sombody help please and either do a chart for me or direct me to a sight that will(preferably for little or no cash since i am up to my eyeballs in debt) I have had a really stressfull life but recently everything i touch turns to poop. Relationship gone, kids stressed,jobless,possetions stollen, Car broke down. Falling behind in school. You name it it is going badly. Is there some planetary influence messing with me? and if so when will it quit.
here is my info.
Renee Spain
9-26-72
chicago- ill.
3.44pm
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~Renee
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posted March 23, 2004 07:12 PM
Hi fellow LovelyLibra -I gave it a quick shot. I'm learning about transits. But nothing really major ah-ha! stuck out. How long has this been going on? ------------------
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posted March 23, 2004 07:42 PM
Ovely Libra, I'd be happy to do your chart, send it to you, and do a transit reading. If interested email me at LLLOG@yahoo.com with your birthdata. Lanny IP: Logged |
lovely libra
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posted March 23, 2004 08:12 PM
It's been about two years of pure hades. had five good years before that. but my child hood was a real pain in the backside too. Looking to get it all over with and do the happily ever after bit. I have been working alot this year on pulling my life together. anger management, phobia tolerence, distress tolerence. i took myself off my meds about 6 months ago. was on prozac,adderall,geodon(yikes!) and ambien. Feel better than i did learning alot how to manage myself but a bit tired of random bad things.------------------
~Renee
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posted March 23, 2004 08:48 PM
I'm thinking it's the effects of your Saturn return, and you have a Saturn in Gemini in the 5th House of enjoyment, which Squares your Mars. So maybe you have a difficult time with your intention and investment in energy creating the long-term effects you seek.Have you been spending too much time with pleasure? Not serious enough? What a killjoy huh? The only other thing I see is that in this lifetime, you are here to learn about being more exacting and disciplined. This is a huge blind spot for you with NN in Capricorn in the 12th House. You need to apply yourself more to specific things. Have you been spreading yourself too thin? IP: Logged |
lovely libra
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posted March 24, 2004 12:22 AM
A SAturn Return? Heard a bit about that but don't really understand it. I wouldn't say i have been spending a lot of time with pleasure but I'm definatly hiding out. Wen my Pices left me without warning I kinda droped out. (i thought he was my soal mate, left me for another woman, kinda destroyed all my beliefs about love and family)I am now starting to climb out of the hole but I am holding back. I definantly need to apply myself. Last 2 quarters i got 4.0 in school but really strugling this quarter. No energy(ongoing) Sleep all the time. have gained alot of weight. But like i said i am doing heavy duty soal searching and am recovering. I just lost my job in Oregon and had to move back to texas, my kids hate texas( i am not overly fond of it either)I moved in with my ex-in-laws from my first marriage.(they being more sane than my family) Then my 1st ex got out of jail and moved back home too(married him when i was 19 thought he would quit being a junky if he loved me  he was a cappy)and he proceeded to steal 2,500$ worth of stuff from me.Now I am having problems in class and my car exploded  I guess it could be worse i have a roof over my head and food in my belly,i am safe. so mabee i am just being a crybaby lol. ty for your help.Lanny your chart is beautifull ty so much ------------------
~Renee
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posted March 24, 2004 12:39 AM
NO! You're not spreading yourself too thin...
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lovely libra
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posted March 24, 2004 01:30 AM
No not spread thin just sleep, sleep, read.(i average about 4 books a week + studying) Thinking sleeping may be a bad habit left over from geodon.(but I am ALWAYS TIRED)School job search kids. I used to do so much more. Work, spin, garden, bake all the bread and goodies, make the spagetti sauce and applesauce, keep the house spottless and the laundry done and put away. My energy was boundless, now i go grocery shoppin and need a nap.cleaning one room in the house is an ordeal.I get grouchy about dishes and avoid laundry like the plauge. Also not being social at all. Online sure lots of friends, but they are safe(they can't get to me for real)and then the bad luck is not helping. sorry I am whining again
ty for listening and offering help and support. nice to know i am not completly alone. This too shall pass(wel it better anyway)------------------
~Renee
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posted March 24, 2004 09:00 AM
You sound to me like you are a little depressed hon.. lots of changes, and it is hard to reconcile the need for growth and change, with your innate need for balance. It's okay, I think you have a handle on it, you recognize that it is natural.. You say you have gained weight, moved, you have kids and go to school, have less energy (for mundane things, yes...) than you used to. But before, there was a different purpose. If the kids are fed and are clean and happy, who cares about anything else, those other things are changeable anyway. I don't love laundry, but it must be done. I started to feel depressed, and sad that this winter I had gained 10 pds, so I inquired about gyms and programs, just for myself. I found Curves.. which is available in the U.S . and they're awesome, a workout at your own pace, motivated, constant change, so you or your muscle groups don't get bored. I have found new muscles in my legs. I haven't gone alot this last week, as I have been busy.. but you might find it is the thing you are looking for.. adressing several issues.... It is empowering, it is time away from chitlins.. albeit only half an hour ( which is good for busy people) It addresses both the energy and the weight issue. Just my two cents.
Good luck.. talk away here, if you need anyone.  IP: Logged |
lllog
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posted March 24, 2004 04:58 PM
I sent your transit reading to you, did you get it?Lanny IP: Logged |
lovely libra
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posted March 25, 2004 01:09 AM
Pixel Thank you i think diet and exercize are just what i need and not to sweat the little stuff. Thank you for taking the time to respond.
Lanny yes i got the reading it was right on target. lots of cleaning out the old to bring in the new.I will make sure to do a thorough cleaning job so that my foundation to come is rock solid. Thank you very much.------------------
~Renee
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lovely libra
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posted March 25, 2004 05:05 PM
So Be It
To long have I sat crying
Huddled in my house
While the storm outside rages on.
To long have I mourned
The loss of people,
Things,
Innocence. To long have I fought
Against God
Like a child crying
“No! Not the needle
It’s only a little splinter.” To long have I watched
My house crumbling
Begging to be spared
Only to be brought
Down
And down
And down again You say it is time
To tear down the old
And start again
“Look you don’t really like that old house anyway,
The wallpaper was ugly,
The roof leaked,
And the wind slipped in through the seams”
You brook no argument
Do it or it will be done to you So Be It (Sigh)
(Digs in closet for steel toed stomping boots)
(Goes next door to borrow a sledge hammer)
Fine!
Fine!
Fine!
Bring it on then
(Extends arm and beacons with fingers
Crooked smile and slanted eyes
*“I’m your Huckleberry”
Echoes of anime warriors
Stronger after a long battle
Confident of victory)
Let’s do this
Kick, stomp
Hammer away
Leave nothing upright.
Goodbye leaky roof
Goodbye ugly wallpaper
Goodbye .
(Hand me that jack hammer
I want to move the whole foundation
3 feet to the left) Now I stand naked in the rain
Amid the ruin of what used to be
Laughing like a child in the chaos
Calling the storm
“Come lightning strike
And burn away the old
Come wind and blow away the ash”
I dance with joy in the swirling madness
Drunk on surrender Pierce me with Your needle
To the core of my soul
Again and again
And root around till it is gone completely
The splinter is festering
I am strong enough to take the pain I stand before you an empty shell
At ground zero
My life hanging in tatters
Scattered all around
Having willingly given all I am ready now to be filled
With truth
With light
With love
Rebuild my house
A strong foundation in a secure place
A watertight roof
Painted with beautiful colors
Filled with beautiful things
A thing of beauty and strength
While I was afraid
You loved me When I did not deserve it
You loved me When I ran away and
Wasted all the gifts you gave me
You loved me When I realized
I loved you too
And came home
You rejoiced
Hugged me
And threw me a party
*Quote from tombstone

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~Renee
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