posted October 18, 2004 02:41 PM              

For me, that can change every 5 minutes, but I can tell you that at present, listening to a certain CD is really giving me a synchronistic boost of energy. I'm thinking I'd share that because it could be beneficial for anyone else going through a difficult time - especially women - but if a guy needs to understand a woman better ... Anyways, it's the CD "Tidal" by Fiona Apple. She's hitting on so many points spot on!!! The girl is a classic in every sense of the word.

posted October 19, 2004 03:12 PM              

i love liz phair's exile in guyville album when i'm angry about a break up or a fight.
(and when i asked
for a separate room
it was late at night
and we'd been driving since noon
but if i'd known how that would sound to you
i would have stayed in your bed for the rest of my life
just to prove i was right
that it's harder to be friends than lovers
and you shouldn't try to mix the two
'cause if you do it and you're still unhappy
then you know that the problem is you)

i also love cat power when i'm feeling melancholy (her voice chills me).
(yesterday on the street
someone called out your name
someone thought that you were me
last night there was a party
i could not go
i walked around it
i thought about it
all night long
today there is a newspaper
about you and me
and the day we were married
the same day
the same day they fell in love
the same day they died in love
i did not want you to die alone
rusty river run down
run, run as fast as you can, oh run
rusty river run ragged
and drag my lover's self back to me
i'll meet him there
water and air)

right now i'm stuck on joanna newsom, though. her lyrics are fantastic! though it's not quite a love song in the traditional sense (i believe it's directed to a pet named sadie), the song 'sadie' makes me cry, every time.
(...and the mealy worms
in the brine will burn
in a salty pyre
among the fauns and ferns

and the love we hold
and the love we spurn
will never grow cold
only taciturn

and i'll tell you tomorrow
sadie, go on home now
bless those who've sickened below
bless us who've chosen so

posted October 19, 2004 05:15 PM              

it's not so much heartbreak music...but it IS one of the most beautiful albums...bebel gilberto's 'tanto tempo'. she's brazilian. i'm listening to it right now...oh god, this album is pure beauty...(if you like samba).

-chrissy

posted October 19, 2004 05:49 PM              

Beautiful ambiance, but I wish I understood her words more. Portuguese and Italian is easier for me. Even some Dutch & German words, depending.

But that one song was the best, Tanto Tiempo.

Last night I blasted the whole neighborhood with STP (Stone Temple Pilots) - that was beneficial. And listened to an old compilation CD I sent an ex - that was beneficial. Now I'm listening to "The End of Silence" - Henry Rollins

"... if you could see,
the you that I see,
you'd see yourself so differently,
I assure you ..."

posted October 19, 2004 07:14 PM              

Frosty and Fries is one of my big ones.

posted October 19, 2004 07:22 PM            

2) A work out

3) A Bubble bath- with the Cure playing in the background

4) Sage / Candles with Items 1, 3 and 5

5) Taking the sad items that remind me of the situation, meditating on them, allowing myself to cry...knowing that this is part of the healing process..

and then moving on...

Sometime I will have to repeat the process as needed..until I get it out of my system, but I don't think I have done that more than 5 times for any one situation.

posted October 20, 2004 09:46 AM              

anyway, i was thinking more about angry music last night...music that i like to listen to at times when my emotions boil over, music that somehow fixes me. i listen to music for SO many different reasons (lately, one album that has me transfixed is manu chao's esperanza -?- i think it's called, i LOVE that album, it's a CRAZY mix of english and spanish and french, a hyperactive blend that sounds a little like cafe tacuba to me), but when i get in that mood, i always kind of revert to good old fashioned punk rock, it all does it for me, like the pistols, the clash, girl bands like kleenex (http://www.comnet.ca/~rina/kleenex.html), you name it...the energy and all that expressed in music like that usually has me hopping up and down in my seat or rocking back and forth, hitting my hands on my steering wheel, yelling along with the music and feeling better in no time.

posted October 21, 2004 12:14 AM            

Reading Franny and Zooey
Watching the movie Magnolia
Listening to Nirvana

posted October 21, 2004 12:18 AM            

"When you were young you were the king of carrotflowers
and how you built a tower tumbling through the trees
in holy rattlesnakes that fell all around your feet

"And your mom would stick a fork right into daddy's shoulder
and dad would throw the garbage all across the floor
as we would lay and learn what each other's bodies were for

"And this is the room, one afternoon, I knew I could love you
and from above you, how i sank into your soul
into that secret place where no one dares to go.

"And your mom would drink until she was no longer speaking
and dad would dream of all the different ways to die
each one a little more than he could dare to try."

posted October 21, 2004 03:21 AM              

Drugs:
half a xanax
glass of nice cab
smokable herbs

posted October 21, 2004 04:16 AM              

lotssss of music: Sunny Day Real Estate, Thursday, Coheed and Cambria, weird instrumental music (groups like Explosions in the Sky) haha yes i do listen to a lot of indie rock.

good smelling lotion (citrus scents keep my spirits up and vanilla calms me)

driving!!! I LOVE driving

venting to really good friends and maybe having a good cry

finding something to analyze to death (a book or a movie)

a meal of ethnic food

posted October 21, 2004 06:28 AM              

Burning candels.

Reading Wilder, Salinger, Grin & Bulgakov.

Dancing or working out in a gym or swimming. (This is something I have to push myself.)

Looooong walk in the forest.

Being near sea.

Baking.

Things more or less in this order.

Edited to add:

posted October 21, 2004 08:58 PM              

Sharing hot chocolate with that friend,

Natasha
Taurus