posted October 29, 2004 02:07 PM              

I always miss ex's, but I did buy an embroidered Indian shawl, it doesn't hurt to feel good about yourself a bit more. Work really sucks right now, so I am being open minded about using other cultures as inspiration, when I do that I instantly receive more work. I get closed off when I get scared, so I have to work at being open and relaxed every day.

I was hit hard yesterday and today and received a counterfeit check from a new business, luckily the bank called me one second before I spent too much on merchandise to deliver.

I always get hit by scams around Halloween, this year I am staying in with the ex and watching scary movies.

He is the kind of ex that I just didn't desire, and he too, so we made a deal to hang out on holidays if we weren't with family or dating anyone, because of his many air placements that works. A relationshp doesn't though.

I did meet a sweet guy this week, but he is moving kind of fast so far, I don't want to feel vulnerable.
He thinks I am sweet, which is sort of deluded since I am anything but these days. I hope he doesn't have too any Aqua placements.

Take Care Everyone,
Scorpio Mom issue is resolved for now,
not that there is a cure,

posted October 29, 2004 03:45 PM            

Yeah work is kicking his rear. He's had to put up with one person making a false allegation (he's an MP) and then a colleague submitted a false statement against him to make him look guilty. That all happened during the solar eclipse and escalated - BUT...yesterday he was exonerated and now charges will be filed against the guy that made the false statement.

I am still struggling to find something out here in my field. I am thinking about looking into being an ER vet tech again, they have to HAVE some kind of emergency or referral place.. It would get me back into a profession I love and I'll have wierd hours like Mr. Taurus.

Natasha,

I am happy to hear that your mom issue is cleared up a bit. Sorry you had to go through that.

posted October 29, 2004 08:05 PM              

I felt the same way about the eclipse sort of closing a chapter, like saying, this is the best we can all do for now. Let's try to adapt and make the best of it.

posted October 30, 2004 11:30 AM              

Valentine's Day I will ignore,
too many mind games

I know what you mean Gloria, you want to spend the holidays happy, in a breezy sort of way, not a touchy way.

The perfect day is seeing a little of a lot of people.
spreading yourself out, expect a lot, don't let others expect much from you.

Libras, love holidays, every year I have to drop by my ex's and bring him a gift, and his father is a LIbra too and I have to call him as well. Libra rules traditions, manners, and holidays are a tradition.

I still think that I should be allowed to make up my own tradition, such as spending the holidays on a tropical island paradise.

That's what I want,

Any suggestions? I'm serious,

Puppy Blew, my ex boyfriend has a Taurus moon/Taurus Mercury and he's never vulnerable, but I think you are a bit more emotional with that Gemini Mercury, you change your mind a lot, like me. What house is your mercury?

Remember therapists say

Change your Mind, Change your Emotions
and Libras change their minds a lot too
Naturally, Libras are emotional
But is he good FOR you?
Taureans like stability overall.

Natasha

posted October 30, 2004 12:18 PM              

You've asked the right person about family and holidays. In the last 15 years, I think I've spent 4 or 5 holidays with family. It's very easy when you realize what the true meaning of the holidays are, when you let the meaning of the holiday touch you and surround you, rather than going through the motions everyone expects. VERY STRESSFUL.

Needless to say, there are more break-up's and fights and arguments and suicides around the holidays. It's a psychological fact it is THE most stressful time of year JUST BECAUSE having to deal with some family members you really can't stand. And then us "modern" and "intelligent" americans somehow find a need to compound the problem by going to "Day After Thanksgiving" sales, standing in lines, shooting the bird to ALL the other drivers.

It's really bizzare when you think about it, and I have! It's quite dysfunctional, and it feeds into our acceptance of being dysfunctional. It stunts our growth and independence.

Unless you are one of those charismatic Leo's or Sag's who has energy to spare, who know how to command a room and be a duck (rolls off your back) ...

But if I detect ANY sort of hypocrisy even from them, my holiday is already ruined.

Not to mention, the women spend two days preparing a meal that takes 10 minutes to eat, and then spend 3 hours cleaning up, while the guys sit around the TV set.

I'll tell you what I've done many times during the holidays. I've volunteered for the Salvation Army. It's great! You're around people who are ALL in a wonderful helpful mood, and you're connecting with people who may not be as fortunate as you, which helps you appreciate what you have much more. Plus I get a free T-Shirt, a certificate of "Thank You", and free helpings of food.

THAT'S the spirit of the holidays. Afterwards I'm totally destressed and feel better about myself and life.

PS: And if anyone asks where you are, you or someone you've told can tell THEM, you're volunteering for the Salvation Army!

posted October 30, 2004 01:06 PM              

Gloria I love giving to children, but it's not real if I am not giving from my heart, I feel too emotional to present a facade.

I wouldn't want anyone to give to me unless they meant it, I don't want to look for points.
I've been on the other side and I couldn't stand the hypocrisy either way. I will offer to take whoever wants to go with me to a tropical island, if that doesn't come to pass then I will give, but I prefer to give to children who have innocence. There is precious little of that in people.