posted March 03, 2005 02:43 AM            

I drew my cards already- I will compare them with yours... It's just that last night..I saw an owl fly west..the last time I saw that my aunt came out of remission and soon died.

I am worried..I know it can mean many things..but then when combined with my dreams and the cards I drew..I just needed an objective review.

Personally, I think I am picking up on another family members feeling of grief. My grandmother...a 91 year old Aries is about ready to leave this world..yet I don't think it is her..

Thank you in advance...I am wondering if the owl / dream is an indication that Mr. T IS going to be sent to Iraq..he doesn't know it yet...but somehow...I think there is something..well...I don't want to say more.

Lots of love,

posted March 04, 2005 12:12 AM            

Thank you so much for the reading. I will look more into the interpretations. Would you believe it...but my cards were very similar.

Blue Roamer, thank you for posting. Your insights were very spot on...

This is what I pulled on my own last night- looks like we all had some of the same cards:

My first spread- I asked What do I need to know about our relationship: I did the celtic cross and this is what I got:

1) Covering Card: Ace of Wands
2) Crossing: Knight of Swords
3) Basis: 8 of Cups
4) Recent Past: 5 of Cups
5) Crowning Card: High Priestess
6) Near Future: 3 of Wands
7) Me or "us": Queen of Pentacles
8) Environment: Page of Cups
9) Hopes and Fears: Emperor
10) Outcome: 3 of Swords.

I can sense the military theme throught the spread. I think my fears of death and his going to war is affecting the spread- or it may be that we will suffer a 3 of 3 swords outcome. Since he has been gone (3 months is the total time he was sent for training). I have been taking care of everything here and still trying to find a job. I see me being very Queen of Penatacles in holding down the home and even going so far as to take care of all the yardwork and planting (which I do love).

Then I thought to take a look at the 3 of Swords as a sig card in our relationship. This time I asked 'What does the 3 of swords mean in our relationship'

The next spread also made sense..from sadness and despair comes happiness:

1) 10 of Cups
2) Star
3) 7 of Pentacles
4) 4 of Swords
5) 3 of Wands
6) Magician
7) 4 of Cups
8) Hierophant
9) 9 of Wands
10) Chariot

Again..I see the indication of our separation brought about by outside forces (4 of swords). I also still see the indication of military, but I also see that we are being "helped" in a positive way by magickal and spiritual forces (Star and Magician).

Last night my dream was very comforting. I dreamed he was back home and we were doing just regular domestic things. He was going through is pile of mail and said "It is so good to be back, you will never know how much I missed you...no one "gets" me like you do". We walked through the garden I planted and he commented on how we would have such a great harvest.

I think my own anxiety is coming through. The not being able to find a job thing is really hard. I am either over qualified or not an engineer so I keep getting passed over. I know I need to be hopeful, but combine that with our being apart and I am a bit on edge. I think that could be also what the first dream was saying..be patient...don't freak out and run away because of the pressure.

We did have the chance to talk today- but again, briefly..Now he won't be coming back until the 21st and he is bogged down by the politics. I am hoping that we can make it through all of this.

Pixie..wouldn't you know it..two possible job opportunities have popped up. One is for the County Sheriff's department- Animal Control Officer. My resume fits right into their requirements now I just have to fill out the 10 page background check...but I feel like something is on the horizon.

BR..no, I am not getting enough sleep. I have been sleeping a few hours a night, then getting up..then pushing myself physically so that I can fall asleep exhausted. Pluto is conjuncting my Sun and is almost on my IC...so I am preparing for a few life changing events...we'll see.

Who is my Page of Cups? Hmmm....that card keeps coming up huh..in all three of our spreads. I am not sure..maybe some feelings I have that have not been totally resolved.

Oh..BR..yes, I am going to see my brother soon. He and his family (my sis in law, their 2 1/2 year old son and the new baby born on 2/2/05 will be coming out to Phoenix). Mr. T and I will be seeing them for about 4 days as well as visiting some of his family while they are out on their vacation to Laughlin.

Pixie, I look forward to any more insight that you may have. Thank you again

posted March 04, 2005 01:16 AM            

I just did another reading, and I asked specifically about your lover....I pulled the seven of pentacles followed by the nine of pentacles...this is fairly clear to me, you must work hard and devote yourself to a specific cause to be happy in your solitude (temporary)...I'm getting a lot of earth vibes from my readings, indicating a need for hard work and a very mature attitude and realistic outlook...I would pull more, but I felt this was sufficient, i usually pull cards until i feel the necessary vibes have been presented

I see your three of swords indicating definitely delay, note the three of wands again, indicating a journey undertaken...

posted March 04, 2005 01:33 AM            

I stopped there it seemed complete....

The tone of this reading is extremely focused on other people, on personal relationships, there is a lot of air, and a lot of royalty, indicating whatever difficulty there may be might be communication issues...

I see problems with a capricorn, do you live with one, or is he your father/mother (4th house)? Your first and tenth houses are both very strained, with a burdensome 10 of wands, but I also see that the pressure is going to be released, with a 8th house tower...i see that whatever releases your current burden will deepen your relationships and your connection with the universe. The 10th house, which i think is probalby the most important, is suffocated with a four of cups, isee that you are very dissatisfied with some aspect of you life right now, you are definitely harboring a lot of negativity about something, or more specifically someone in person....I see cap libra or aquarius as the primary targets of this issue....So yes theres a lot of stationary energy here, but the tower and temperance are saving graces here, I see also a libra as providing you with the key to this issue, or perpaps the key lies in standing back and being objective, and not being so bogged down in 4 of cups style emotion (even worse than 8 of cups, as it is stationary)....A theres alsoa very positive 10 of pentacles in your 9th house, this shows me a feeling of security and happiness emerging from your home life, 10 represents the pinnacle of comfort and phyiscal satisfaction, in your 9th house, meaning that your consciousness may expand through realization of what you really have going for you, this is a very familial card....

posted March 04, 2005 02:14 AM            

I hope the reading helped, it had a lot of energy and presented iteself very directly, I hope everything works out with your mom, I guess now more than ever you need that objectivity...any air signs you can have a long chat with?

posted March 04, 2005 01:24 PM            

Thank you again. I appreciate your reading. He is going to be delayed another few days coming home as I said- but I have tons to occupy my time. We have a huge backyard and garden area (the owner of this house we are renting- had a fenced in garden). The soil had not been touched for years, but the space it good.

I have concentrated on this inside of the house. Getting things prepared, organized...etc..but then I ran out of projects. I am the kind of person that needs at least 3 things going on at once. With him gone it has been even harder (especially without the work).

Then we had a call from our prop management company. They saw weeds on the side of our property (it is between houses / fences so we didn't even know it was ours).

What started out as a brief weeding..turned into a major Earth project. Maybe it is the coming of spring and the advent of the warmer weather- but I have been the quintessential gardener..Like the woman in the 9 of Pentacles or Queen of Pentacles. I found that I love it. I turned the soil 3 times, brought in good soil / nutrients and planted a full garden of tomatos, zuccini, strawberries...etc...even Sage, Rosemary and Lemon Balm. I planted flowers in the front planters (they also need more soil and a big cleaning). I did all this under the Scorp moon ( I like to follow moon signs / phases for certain projects..like cleaning out files under a more non-emotional moon so that I don't cling to things out of nostalgia LOL).

My one problem...it seems like Mr. Taurus is totally ungrateful. I have been keeping things on track here...paying all the bills, even getting some of his bills in on time, taking care of the house- inside and out- taking care of our cars, boat..etc... and he says NOTHING. He has not once sent me an e-mail saying thanks for my hard work or that he misses me. He calls..but he expects ME to send him the cards, e-mails etc...

I can't do it anymore. I am just starting to feel like I did with my ex-husband..where I just don't care. I know if I continue doing this, building up that wall..then once I get to work I will begin planning my exodus. LOL.it's sad, but I have already tried to talk to him- it is just like talking to a wall..

So, I am just going to do my thing and see what happens when he gets back. Emotionally, I am not going to waste my time worrying about how he feels- he'll show me or he won't and based on that I will stay or I won't... I am going to spend sometime today looking again at the card meanings and house placements. I usually log all this information and my dreams in my journal..which I have neglected over the last 4 months or so LOL...

posted March 04, 2005 01:32 PM              

Love

posted March 04, 2005 02:34 PM            

No worries...I am sure that this is to be expected. I think that the hardest part for a fire / air sign in being with a Taurus is when we start to become a possession and not a human. Sometimes Earth signs take what they have and the people in their lives for granted. Like we will just "always be there". I am very loyal, but I can only take feeling "put on the shelf" for so long. At first I fight it...my heart breaks and I feel sad. Then I get angry- then I just get apathetic.

Maya..please don't worry..this is just the natural progression of things. I am sure that I am just feeling the sadness of us being apart and things will will be so much better when he comes back.

Thank you for your kind words- by the way, how are you doing?

posted March 05, 2005 01:23 PM              

The question, as with any Libra would be regarding love ...

posted March 05, 2005 01:42 PM            

I will give it a try..but it will have to be tonight. I do my best readings..concerning the future, love, major events, at night. I also try to avoid any readings on a vc moon or exact new moon.

DO you have a specific question- such as - will I find love soon? Where is my love life heading..etc...

Just let me know and I'll try.

Update on Mr. T....

I had a potential job offer in California..with my stepmom's family's company. It would mean that I would have to move and we would have to have a long distance thing until he gets out of the Army. I think it would cause an end to our relationship. I let him know..and got his take on it. He was very much against it. I think it shook him up a bit...knowing that the offer was made through family to manage one of their locations.

My dad and stepmom did this distance thing when he was in OC Cali for a year until he retired and she worked at the Phoenix based location. It hurt their relationship that year..just caused a lot of tension..Mr. T and I would be farther apart and have less opportunities to see each other.

It was good to hear that he was very firm about wanting us to stay together here and then he thanked me for taking care of things and said how sorry he was that we hadn't talked as much as he would like. ...

We'll see..counting down the days....

AJ...just let me know your question and I will take a stab at it..I will post it in a "new topic".

Love and Light....