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Topic: Waxing Gemini, Waning Leo
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Sepia
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posted March 14, 2005 04:14 AM
 
My Gem and has only ever known one of his "sides". When we met,he was horribly introverted and I saw lots of potential to work with. It stirs my soul to new hieghts when I can help someone see their own potential. If I can help someone grow or progress forward in life, it boosts my sel-esteem. To him, I was his souls very yearning...I came to him offering something he'd wanted for several years...a family of his own. He was adopted at 5 by his Uncle and Aunt along with his only full blooded brother, age 4. His Uncle was his Bio Moms brother but considerably older. Like in their 40's at the time of adoption. His brother so traumatized by their childhood that he didn't speak a word for several months after being taken in...my husband spoke for him. So we progress into gradeschool...he went to a po-dunk elementary and lived on a secluded farm. The anti-social tendencies abounded. No friends to speak of, just a few hang out times at the farm but they were never aloud to go out or even jion sports teams. Highschool was attended on the otherside of the state, due to a move and the posh town was that of those places where you were either a have or a have not. As you may have suspected, he was a have not! He never dated, he never knew of any crushes had on him, wore his hair in two spikes like horns, shaving the rest off, at one point. He totally delved into the goth scene...appearence and music mostly. Still not a source of socialization. His only passion--RolePlaying(D&D,ShadowRun,WhiteWolf) (I must mentuon here that he is an exquisite storyteller!)Outside of his brother, his only real friend was his nephew-6months his junior! As he got older, those primal sexaul urges had no outlet, no room for expirimentation...he kept his crushes and fantasies to himself. He joins the military straight out of highschool and is immersed in very low moral standards to put it cautiously. He meets my (ex)husband threw a "rave goer" associate of his and actually attempts to start up some roleplaying groups. I never really notice his existence until I find out he had a growing interest in the occult. At that point I walk him thru a numerology reading...his "chosen at time of adoption by himself", middle name adds up to doom no matter how it is spelled! Really Weird! I do up some runes for him. We talk pretty intently for the whole night. Little does he know, the (ex) and I have been discussing divorce...and he ends up babysitting for us as we try to go out together more often. My (ex-a scorpio) and I grow closer and closer but KNOW without a shadow of a doubt that it's time to part ways. I, having been hitched since the age of 16 and with my (ex) since 14, know nothing about being "alone". I proceed to fulfill some of my curiosities with (ex's) best friend and then am so exhilerated by my freedom, I gotta share it with someone...but who? BAMM! All of a sudden the Gemini not only exists but is genuinely interested in my rebellious secrets and sworn to keep them. No sooner than I confess my "triump" to him, I ask him to walk me to the mailbox one day. On the way there I very simply and directly, proposition him. He very casually accepts. Done deal! Keep in mind that while EX and I have "split up" I am staying with him until a chosen date at which I pack up and move home to Washington. So EX and EX's best bud go to a Rave together and Sean declines there offer stating his <clearing throat> obligation to go rpg'ing at someone elses house for the weekend. Well, he stayed that night with me and I got to play teacher! One of my most prizes TITLES...he's never kisses anyone and only had minimal tastes of anything else. We stayed up till dawn...totally into each other...both probably high on the notion that if the EX(scorpio) walked in Gemini would be mince meat. He was due to get out of the military in a matter of 2 weeks...so we played cat n mouse the rest of his time there. He left and two weeks following his departure, I moved home. Just so happens that our "homes" were 3 hrs apart. Within a matter of 3 months time, we knew we wanted to be together permenantly. He knew my kids were top priority to me so they'd have to be to him. He had no hesitations. (He has been the best father I have ever known!) An instant family! The very thing he'd longed for! We were married apprx. 6 months after our initial woo-ing. It's been 6+ years now and our morals have risen significantly, our marriage is pretty solid, but our social aspects are being upheavaled. I was raised in a jealous environment. My Libra father cheated on my Taurus mother after 2 yrs of marriage and seems to have had a 7yr itch for the first 25 years of their now 32yrs together. Taurus mom never let go of it! Stubborn thru and thru. I have jealousy coursing thru my veins more than a typical Leo might/should have. My gemini has never done anything that would provoke such feeling from me, but I cannot help it-yet! Recently he has decided to pursue Creative Writing Degree, of which I fully support. I am absolutely tickled to see him immerging. I am absolutely terrified of the the unknowns, the what if's. I don't know how he is going to react to the fame, popularity, onslot of praise...something I don't seem to give very freely(praise). Here are some broken thoughts for you all. Writing is MY forte'. I loved English in Highschool. I am a good poet. I can whip off a poem on demand, provided I have paper to think on. I love doing outlines and making lists. I think best on paper! Math is his strength. He's "Mr Logic"..."Mr Absract"..."Mr I never expirienced any emotion outside of anger and sadness until this hot Leo momma came into my life--full of emotion". His only social outlet for the past 7 years has been weekly RolePlaying, of which I jioned to be in his world on as many levels as possible-initially. No offense to anyone who's ever RPG'd, but they are typically social outcasts, computer geeks, anti-socialites--not that am miss people person. In my world you earn respect. your earn trust and is you should ever betray such privileges, especailly being let into my inner sanctums...wo be unto you. You'll be on a long difficult journey if you ever expect to get back into my graces!! He's never had a woman come on to him...remember, I merely propositioned him. He has no clue what flirting is on any real scale...only me to compare anything to and I think myself pretty direct. Subtlty is not my forte'! He gets to go to school and brush up and grow his talents...I get to stay at home and raise our 6 beautful healthy children, youngest 3 months old(for those of you who may recall my Sag inquirery). After having gone to Iraq he has even more social anxiety than he ever had before and as time goes on it gets worse(he has PTSD)so if I get a babysitter he doesn't want to go out on the town or to the gym or on a double date. Maybe I've rambled enough for now...after having read the posting from Lovely Lioness, I wondered if I could specifically request response from the following:
Saturn's Child
miss_apples
sthenri
GemStar
Nackie
geminstone
hot_ice
I have specific q's for:
RUMAN-Have you ever gotten a clear definition of what beong "in-love" mans to a male Gem? M Gem's is very absract and detatched. Mine is very emotional, ingrained and passionate.
LOVELY LIONESS-How helpful was LoveSigns to you in your quest for understanding? Was it overly genralized, did you find it to only be reflecting one side of the gem and not the other? Obviously I haven't read it yet, but am headed out o buy a dream dictionary and could easily pick it up. Gosh, Sorry So Long!
Sepia
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sana
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posted March 14, 2005 10:41 AM
not sure what u want to know!!! u ve known ur husband intimately for 6+ years n now want to know what bein in love means to him???shouldnt u b giving the inputs?? u want to read love signs now to know how ur relationship is going?? u r jealous bcoz ur dad cheated ur mom???do u or dont u trust him?? i feel u should know him by now n should not try analysin him usin other ppls point of view who dont even know him...
anyways hope u find out what u want...all the best...
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Thethirdbenjamin
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posted March 14, 2005 11:08 PM
I thought that was touching story
just because.. well i sorta feel like himU'd think all gems where social, i'm not. I started college this year and its not going as well as i thought it whould, i'm thinking of doing the rest of my program online. as for how he feels, i think u have to ask what clues has he given u to indicate how he feels? chances are he won't say how he feels, but he will indicate it one way or another, somehow.
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posted March 14, 2005 11:27 PM
Hello Sepia!LOVE SIGNS was/is always VERY helpful to me!! I recommend that you buy the book whenever you get the chance.
I think the chapter on the GEM-LEO relationship is detailed and informative to say the least! It shows both sides of thee happy-go-lucky Twins.  The whole book is fabulous--one of my faves. It helps you understand the relationship between every sign. I hope I helped as well. love and light*
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posted March 15, 2005 01:34 AM
I second Sana.You have been married long enough to know what you husband's ways of expressing his love are. As For my husband he will buy for me any of my favourite things -maybe just a chocolate! - to express his love. Sometimes he dose get detatched and I have to remind him that the kids need his attention and want to play and go out with their Dad. That brings him back to us. A clear definiton of what being in love means to a (my) Gem will be something like keep the family provided for and happy without getting too involved emotionly.(After reading your post I asked him and this is the reply I got.)Every man dreams of becoming famous and well known. And other than all the praise from others he needs true praise and true criticism from his loved ones. So if you can't do it openly then do whatever you can to make him feel that you appreciate what he is doing. You say that he has never done anything to make you feel jealous then why dont you get rid of jealousy? If you cant then my advice will be never to let him know that you harbour such feelings. It will only hurt him to know it.
I hope I was of some help. Love and Light 
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Sepia
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posted March 19, 2005 05:44 AM
Let's clarify a bit...First of all, I am looking for insight into the Gemini soul from others because my husband can't seem to articulate his inner workings, more specifically--of a side he has never let out until now. he doesn't even know his
other side" Second, I the Leo, am not used to being married to the "other side" of him. So it provokes terratorialism and enrages my trained levels of jealousy. I can't just get rid of something that I was rasied to harbor...that my friends is a going to be longer journey than I even suspected! So, I seek guidence from other Leo's here! When Iasked about the "definitions of being in love" I was curious as to how two people can be satisfied in their love for one another if their own personal definitions are like night and day? Mine is EMOTION and DEPTH. His is ABSTRACT and INTANGABLE. Where is the middle? When I asked for a review on the LOVE SIGNS it was to get a frsh persepctive on it's applicability and thought I indicated that I didn't own it. Just so you guys know, I haven't been "studying" this art for about 10 years! My attention gets turn to it intermittenly through out the years but I have 6 kids! I don't have as much leisure time as I used to to do the necessary sudying. I am at a point in which I can actually sit down with this book, and just wanted a fresh review...from a loiness, who was having issues with a gemini. Does that make sense? The mention of not telling my hubby how I feel is great in theory, but near impossible in actuallity. He can tell when something is wrong. My emotions ooze from my eyes. My soul screams or announces my feelings. i am never and will never be an emotion faker. Mind you, I do try not to be an emotion dweller either...did that make sense?I appreciate the input from Thethirdbenjamin, becasue I am looking for insight from one of his kind, so to speak. Please... if there are male gemini's out there who are willing to articulate a comparison between living one side to living the other...I beg you for input! Desperately seeking guidence,
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posted March 22, 2005 12:00 PM
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