posted April 11, 2005 05:40 PM              

All I see is anger and greed and selfishness. Why are todays heroes yesterdays villains - and why are they worshipped with such vigour? That doesn't nessecarily mean just individuals but the traits of man that once were vice are now celebrated as virtue. We are shrinking as a species while our technology develops as if of itself.

Mother Earth is in agony and we are the cancer.

And I feel it all.

posted April 11, 2005 08:07 PM              

Life is... well, life . You can't force people to change the way they are. Yes, that royally sucks, because some people are more aware of certain things than others, and virtually everyone is at a different level of understanding in life as well as about themselves.

I guess what it all boils down to is recognizing that in the long run, it's all ok. Mother Earth isn't going to mind, because she totally agreed to let everyone come down here and develop themselves. Think of it like when a mum lets her toddlers go all crazy on her with makeup. Yeah, there's a helluva lot she's got to fix after they're done, but she knew that was going to happen when she let them start in the first place. That's how they learn. And one day, the toddlers are going to grow up and (providing they're girls... oh ok, some guys too ), when she's all old and wrinkly, they'll paint on that makeup for her perfectly and she'll feel beautiful and loved.

Ok ok, horrible analogy I know. lol!

They way I think of it is like this- there is what we see on the surface, and then there is the deeper (or superconscious) level at which things happen. We don't always understand the superconscious why of things when we actually experience things. But, this level does exist. Stuff happens, but there's a method to the madness. Everyone's gotta grow. People are growing now. It happens. It's sad when some people 'grow' slower than others (subjectively, of course), but cest la vive.
Hang in there and try not to let it get you down.

posted April 12, 2005 04:33 AM              

Thanks for the responses. I have to make clear that the post wasn't for selfish reasons or a cry for help. Neither was it centered on myself, I would hope to have become wiser than that by now.

It was an exclamation of the troubled feeling I have that we are entering a storm. Perhaps the darkest one for a while, and the enemy this time is within. Far more so than obvious movements liike say Al Qaeda.

And I sense the darkness is growing unchecked and we may have one hell of a damage limitation job to do. I'm not even sure people may want to fight it.

I know this sounds a little unbalanced, but I am certain of this.

posted April 12, 2005 08:31 AM            

"How else but through a broken heart
May Lord Christ enter in?"

posted April 12, 2005 09:41 AM              

I struggle with non-existant self-confidence in social arenas and with dating which scares me witless still however, and this is a particular type of pain for sure.

But what I mention here isn't about me. I have always had the ability to read things with a keen perception with a psychic energy to it on the grander scales and the focus is so far away from personal desire or disappointment.

They certainly don't feel connected in any way.

posted April 12, 2005 11:22 AM              

Do you feel these things in certain places or around certain people? I find it hard to analyze why I feel emotions sometimes. It can drive me nuts, but it does help to analyze.

posted April 13, 2005 11:37 AM              

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soul is screaming in silent torture

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