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Topic: Aspects/Suicide
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Tranquil Poet unregistered
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posted April 29, 2005 12:25 AM
What aspects could have to do with someone taking there own life?My father commited suicide when he was 32 years old. I was 4 at the time. Im kind of curious.
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sue g unregistered
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posted April 29, 2005 09:28 AM
Im not sure about aspects Tranquil, but I just wanted to say I am really sorry for what happened , this must have been awful for you and your family - God bless xxxxxxxIP: Logged |
sue g unregistered
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posted April 29, 2005 03:12 PM
You are the girl from New York arent you that keeps changing her name? Why do you do that? I was just interested to know? Love Sue xxxIP: Logged |
Tranquil Poet unregistered
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posted April 29, 2005 07:52 PM
It's ok it has been a while and I have learned to accept it. Thank you. Let's just say alot of people on this forum cannot handle my honest opinions. So sometimes they cry about it and get me kicked out.
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sue g unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 05:18 AM
Hi Tranquil, I have posted a message to you in the Fire Sign thread where you go off on one to Pixie, please dont get offended at this pet, I dont wanna fall out with you - I am a 46 year old Scorpio woman with a huge understanding of peoples' pain and I think you must have had a terrible time learning about what happened to your Dad. How old were you when you learned about this. Sorry, if you dont wanna answer, that okay. Do you remember I told you in another thread about my Aries Dad who has been suicidal, well it touched my heart when I read what you wrote - thanks for being so honest, and I would think about doing the family constellation thing - it really changes things, for me, it helped me around my male relationships, sending you love and healing - God bless xxxxxIP: Logged |
sue g unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 07:10 AM
p.s. I hear what you are saying about being "kicked out" but you know some people (inc, myself) arent up for being spoken to in an insulting way - we do have to look at how we are coming across at times - we cant go barging in there all the time, some kindness and diplomacy has to,, I feel be used at times . When I was younger I was SO outspoken and then started to meet people that did it back to me and it made me think how I was coming across and that maybe I was scaring and upsetting others. I realised how angry I was and at times acting a bit immaturely (again thank God for therapy. You dont have to listen to this but I hope this helps, its just that you were on my mind and I wanted to offer support xxIP: Logged |
Tranquil Poet unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 11:37 AM
sue g let's just say I was there when it happened. I saw everything. He hung himself. He and my mom were seperated at the time. Me and my cousins were with grandmother. My mother had called from work telling my grandmother not to let him in but she had already let him in. I can recall him saying hello to me and I ran and hid under the bed. I remember my grandmother use to babysit a woman's new born child. My oldest cousin and I were playing with the baby when we heard something fall.He was in the bathroom at the time. So my cousin and I peaked under the door. We saw him on the floor so my cousin told my grandmother. My uncle tried opening the door but it was locked. So the police had to come and break it down. At that moment my grandmother was taking us kids downstairs to the super's wife's house so she could watch us. I remember I had diapers on and a red shirt and red sneakers. I had only one shoe on and was carrying the other one in my hand. I just remember passng by the bathroom and seeing him on the floor with his eyes wide open. I cried and cried and I will never forget that police officers face when he looked at my father then looked over at me. He was very sad.
I remember that night we moved. We practically ran out of the apartment and got in a car and moved to a beautiful house in long island where I would spend 2 years. I never talked in school. I was always sad. I never smiled in pictures. People in my new school were very supportive. I can recall my teacher crying when I said merry christmas to her and she was sick in the hospital. But then my mom got annoyed because the suburbs were to quiet and she was a city woman so we moved back to the city. My mom would get me counseling I remember.
It has been so many years but I got over it a long time ago. My sister was always stronger though. I could always feel my father. I know he wasn't at peace. Imagine taking your own life when you are all drugged up? Then waking up sober in pergutory and not knowing what the hell happened? We always felt that like if he was wondering what had happened but wasn't able to speak to us.
My father finally made it 4 years ago. A physchic man helped me guide him.
I don't feel him trapped anymore.
Thank god.
I got a free reading and they made contact with my father. Everything was right. All I told them was his birthdate and the date he died.
Here's the reading:
I contacted my spirit guide, she gave you a white daisy. I was in contact with a father figure this morning, he was in a suite and very uncomfortable, he was irritated with the suite( I think it was blue) and went and put jeans on. Before he came in there was a Grandmother maybe his mother or Grandmother, she seemed very close to him, she said you were a sweet girl. When the father showed up she said he was late, did he have a habbit of being late? They wanted your name to continue and they both left. I got the feeling he was a humorus guy. Please give me your name and I'll get them back if they were for you dear. Thanx, Kim --- BeautifulDreamz@aol.com wrote: > My father died on april 24, 1987. He was born on > april 15, 1956. > > Does he have any mesages for me? > > > Thank you > To BeautifulDreamz Again my spirit guide gives you a white daisy. Your father pops in, in a "Cramer"(from Seinfeld) kind of way. He fixes his suite he's so uncomforatble in and again has changed to something more comfortable (this is like a re-run) only he wasn't "late". He shows me some things that may be of meaning to him or you or even someone close to you. He shows me ketchup, so I'm taking it someone loves it. A cash register, do you work at a register? He says planes, trains and automobiles, Did he travel or is it a fav. movie? Then I saw palm trees, so maybe someone is going to a warm climate or has been recently. He says BonTon the store. He says to experience the white waters. Tell my honey I'm OK, great in fact, it's more beatiful here than you could ever know. He gives a bunch of red roses to your mother and says tell her it's acceptable that she moves on now. If she has gotten on with her life he approves. He shows me someone fishing and golf clubs. did he like classic cars or does someone have one? He says to keep up with your studies and someday you'll have the answers your looking for. A tall man with broad shoulders stands behind him, he's quiet, probly someone on his side of the family that passed.He mentions Bill(william)could be living or passed. He shows me a card trick, did he like to pull pranks? Have you waved to them recently, he shows you waving and trying to get their attention, he sees you always. It seems your greatgrandmother keeps him in line in a fun way, they are like Fric and Frac. Don't ask me who that is its what comes to mind. They say goodbye. End of message. It seems like the more I do this the less I really know, I cann't tell who they are telling me about. Usually it's someone very close to you though. Or even their best friend I've found. Well I hope this reading helps you. Take care. Love and light, Kim
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Tranquil Poet unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 11:44 AM
I blame his stupid mother for everything. She was a bad mother. At the time my father was growing up in the Dominican Republic when he was young, They were under the rule of a dictator. Called Trujillo. The lady(she's not my grandmother, I hate her) was having an affair with one of trujillo's soldiers and tattled when her husband spoke bad about him. The next day they were at his house taking my uncle who at the time was 7 weeks old away from him. They took my grandfather and no one ever saw him again. Days later his ears and fingers were sent to the house in a package.
She would leave her children and let people from the neighborhood beat them. She would let her daughters be raped by her own brother. You can imagine the shock when my great grandmother found out. She was so heart broken she died of a heart attack.
And that sorry excuse for a mother had the nerve to cry at his funeral. I could care less what happens to her.
They say at his funeral I cried and cried and stayed by the side of his coffin the whole time. I rememeber. But I have great memories with him also. I can remember things even at 1 years old. My father always spoiled us with toys. My father was very close to my mother's mother who is an aries also. He would tell her these stories and cry. I love my mother's mother. She is a great grandmother.
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DayDreamer unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 11:57 AM
Sorry to hear that TP. I don't know what to say. Can only send my love to you for such a tragic childhood.
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pixelpixie Newflake Posts: 8 From: ON Canada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 30, 2005 12:51 PM
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raaz999 unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 12:56 PM
Hi Tranquil poet,I can understand that it must have been very difficult for you to comprehend and justify. It has left deep imprints on your mind. You have been very brave. But as they say it must have been one of the lessons that you wanted to learn. We all go through something similar with respect to death of our loved ones; some very strongly and some seemingly gently. As a child it must have questioned you to your core. But what I have learned so far is that this life is an illussion and people 'departed' just exist on a different vibrationary level of this plane or another. It is a very difficult thing to cope with but have you thought of directing your energy into some physical activity like prayer, meditation, social work, exercise regime, a creative hobby, etc. It could help you give direction and focus. Keep smiling and be happy. IP: Logged |
raaz999 unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 12:58 PM
You're welcome to share more about it and many other things if you wish.Lots of love Raaz IP: Logged |
monad Newflake Posts: 0 From: Hastings Hawkes Bay New Zealand Registered: Aug 2009
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posted April 30, 2005 01:42 PM
I remember posting a message regarding the aspect that allows death"I recieved no reply and came to the conclusion that (Conclusion sounds like concussion!) "It would not be IMPOSSIBLE even if the aspect 'DID NOT' allow it" "The war is over if you want it to be" John Lennon.
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Aphrodite unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 02:57 PM
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sue g unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 04:51 PM
Thanks for sharing your story with us, hope it helped. xxxxIP: Logged |
Yang unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 05:30 PM
I know this has hardly anything to do with this topic, but I felt I needed to share it.The other day I learnt that someone I admire and respect greatly admitted to me that he tried to take his own life but failed.( This was way before I met him). I couldn't believe it and I actually felt so sorry for him with what he has been through. IP: Logged |
sue g unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 05:33 PM
Hi Yang, is this the Scorpio guy who you spoke of before, or am I getting confused with someone elses thread xxIP: Logged |
Yang unregistered
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posted April 30, 2005 05:52 PM
hi Sue G No it isn't the Scorpio guy I was talking about but another guy I know who is Aquarius.
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sue g unregistered
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posted May 01, 2005 04:42 AM
Thanks Yang, you sound like a great friend! Is the Aqua guy getting help and is he okay now? And are you okay too - love and light Sue xIP: Logged |
26taurus unregistered
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posted May 01, 2005 04:51 AM
Death cannot......okay, should not be predicted in a chart.Love to you Tranquil. ------------------ "I was so much older then, I'm younger than that now." - Bob Dylan IP: Logged |
Yang unregistered
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posted May 01, 2005 05:50 AM
Hi Sue GHe is on anti depressants but I feel sorry for him as he has chronic depression. IP: Logged |
sue g unregistered
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posted May 01, 2005 06:03 AM
You are both air signs Yang and both suffering from depression - I am very very watery so probably approach the therapy thing from a different angle. For the past 15 years or so I have tried, counselling, psycotherapy, reiki, massage, past life regression, colour therapy etc etc but the thing that really helped me, as I said before, and sorry to repeat is "hands on", it sort of goes deeper than just words. I send love and light to you and your friend - God bless - Sue xxxIP: Logged |
Yang unregistered
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posted May 01, 2005 06:13 AM
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hot_ice unregistered
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posted May 01, 2005 06:47 AM
tranquil poet..I dont know what to say..but you have been strong and very brave.....few people can....IP: Logged |
cristiname Knowflake Posts: 66 From: Earth. Welcome! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted May 01, 2005 11:03 AM
well... they say Aquarius Asc always "thinks" about suicide.. it's true it's always "there', like a last resort or something...something else about Uranus – its response to adversity is FLIGHT. so I guess suicide is just like running away from things.... an Uranus-like rebellious flight in the face of the requirements life puts on you sometimes... so I'd look for any Saturn and pluto transits or SA to bring about hardships, limmitations or drastic changes, and some sort of Uranus contact that provided the escape when it all became too much... it's always harder on the ones left behind, you know... you need to find release from this inheritance... when you find it driving ur life just STOP, take a step back and remember that u're a witness! learn from it, but don't carry it on ur shoulders... u have ur own life to worry about. god bless! be strong and wise!
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