posted May 16, 2005 04:25 AM              

Love
SG

posted May 20, 2005 07:09 PM              

Life is so difficult,

Ive had two Scorpios reject me within a week, one before a first date, and one right after, and the one who rejected before, asked me what my 'unconventional views' on religion were, because he had heard I did have unconventional views, and I told him one, which really isnt that radical, and he came down on me about trying to rewrite my religion...and how I shouldnt change scripture...and I feel horrible

The other one was a sweetheart...but too bad hes not interested...he was so cute and wonderful and funny. I only wish I could be with a guy like that.

It took special strength to break up with my Aqua which I did a while ago, he admitted he was ignoring me because he does want be but doesnt want a relationship, which is something my values and myself cannot live with. I was so ignored and bitter all the time, it was a difficult decisoin butone that had to be made, and now its done...I feel so hollow and empty, although I know he is hurting too, because he is avoiding more than ever and with Aquas nothing is unintentional.

The Virgo friend broke to me that he is madly in love with this girl who is a drunkard nearby him somewhere. I am happy that hes in love, concerned that the girl is good for him, but a little angry of why he flirted with me when he confesses to love this other girl. and believe me, the flirting was OVERT, such as 'i love seeing you you're so breathtakingly beautiful' and the such. I am more than a little disappointed with men nowadays.

I really need some love sent this way, and prayers...if you believe in God, I do, and He is my only call for support right now, if it werent for my faith in Him I woulda given up a long time ago...but I am hoping He will listen to me once again...and to all of you...if you are so kind as to wish me the best...

I know I have the strength I just need to find it once again, Ive lost it through these trials and tribulations...that are eating away at me...I am so lost and alone, alone to face the world, as it grows larger and more problematic ,

posted May 21, 2005 12:14 AM              

I was thinking of starting a thread saying thank you for you,

you posted links in soul unions, you replied on HD's site for me, and you always show up to send me love,

i can never even keep up with all your generosity, much less reciprocate, although i wish i could be as giving and approachable and receptive as yourself,

posted May 21, 2005 02:27 AM              

I am far from being ' The Great Book of Knowledge' here but, I wanted to say that I find your strength and, firm stance with regard to NOT settling for just anyone and, not taking the second seat, not even for Mama, very amiable. If that's what being spoiled is, then I'm, completely, Rotten,.... and totally, ok with that! I'm a firm believer in ' getting what you give' and, why would this not apply in what you bring and, attract to you? Hence why I am wondering, if you are experiencing any kind of self doubting, at this time? Don't give away that power in/of self, to anyone..... Ever. Only you can bring what you want. Focus your attentions on and, get back in touch with you. I think it may help to bring about a change in the types of individuals you may meet....
But, as I said, this is just a thought and, only given through the experience with my own relationship. It does sound like you and I share, very similar, views however and, I had to say, that I too, am a spoiled brat! We are worth it, DA*Nit!!!

Love to You,