posted August 02, 2005 06:36 PM              

I finally figure out I can get a solar return chart. Here it it. I have imputed it to form a regular chart. What guidance can I get from this? The first things I notice are that my Ascendant and Moon are conjunct in SCORPIO and the Moon is in the 12 House! So that seems to explain all my emotional intensity, and secrecy. I also see Uranus and MARS conjunct in the 4th so does this mean I am going to be taking my household through radical blow everything up changes this year? I also see An Air Trine though I am not certain what that bodes exactly.

This under the name REDUX:

http://www.astro.com/ cgi/chart.cgi?nhor=1&nho2=1&btyp=2&mth=gw&hsy=&zod=&sday=2&smon=8&syr=2005&rs=&orbp=&cid=jubfile0TIv0c-u1123017773&lang=e&gm=a1&ast=

Planetary positions
planet sign degree house motion
Sun Gemini 00°57'21 07 direct
Moon Scorpio 06°07'32 12 direct
Mercury Taurus 16°49'24 07 direct
Venus Gemini 14°27'16 08 direct
Mars Pisces 15°01'19 04 direct
Jupiter Libra 09°14'25 11 retrograde
Saturn Cancer 23°31'43 09 direct
Uranus Pisces 10°31'51 04 direct
Neptune Aquarius 17°36'09 03/4 stationary (R)
Neptune is technically near the end of house 3 and is interpreted in house 4.
Pluto Sagittarius 23°46'09 02 retrograde
True Node Aries 22°19'18 06 retrograde

posted August 03, 2005 12:58 AM              

The only thing I would add to your list of stressful energies is Neptune (spirituality, also confusion) conjunct (energy is combined with) Nadir (inner world). When Neptune is conjunct the Nadir we may tend to get confused about who we are and our place in the world. It may be helpful to find a place to "disconnect" from the pressures of the world and explore your spirituality, perhaps through meditation practices.

Suggesting,

posted August 03, 2005 09:37 AM              

Gulping hard AND meditating!!!, (lol)

posted August 03, 2005 09:53 AM              

Always a Gemini doing crazy things,

lol,

posted August 03, 2005 12:46 PM              

Astrological Interpretations:
Mars-Uranus Aspects

Aspects of Mars and Uranus ... The Conjunction

Will-power, courage, an dogged persistence characterize this aspect ... Often the character shows best in moments of danger but it has little patience under stress and strain. - C.E.O. Carter in Astrological aspects

The executive ability and energy of Mars is placed under high tension by a conjunction with Uranus. With two impatient active factors in such close contact, we feel the urge, even when very young, to go our own way as unconventionally as possible. There is something provocative and defiant about our behavior whenever we stand up for ourselves. Our patient is not great: we have too much need of action, change and renewal ... But the same swiftness of action makes us extremely adroit at handling difficult situations where snap decisions have to be taken. - Karen Hamaker-Zondag in Aspects and Personality

The power of this conjunction [Mars conjunct Uranus] gives great vitality, honesty, persistence, and courage. They are strongly freedom-oriented, which makes it very difficult for them to take instruction from anyone else since they interpret it as an infringement on their freedom. ... They seem to have a need to shock people... - Myrna Lofthus

Mars conjunct Uranus. The natives cannot bear a dull life and constantly seek excitement through danger and unusual action. Courage and decisiveness are prominent .... Natives gain emotional satisfaction from dramatic manifestations of energy: sport car racing, jet planes, rockets, firearms, or the explosive human situations found in large crowds. Mechanical and scientific bents are indicated ... It is more of a technician's than a scientist's aspect, unless both a strong Mercury and a strong Saturn are in the horoscope... - Frances Sakoian - Louis S. Acker

With Mars-Uranus there are strong individualistic tendencies - not only do these types have to establish themselves as separate entities, but they have to do it in their own way. There is a need to produce or express (Mars) something which is original or unique (Uranus). If those with this aspect don't have outlets for creative energies, they stay highly strung: there is too much energy and nowhere for it to go. - Howard Sasportas, in Liz Greene & Howard Sasportas: Dynamics of the Unconscious

posted August 04, 2005 01:42 PM              

That's fascinating about Saturn in 9th. Unfortunately I have always follwoed the good girl social contract so having in 9th now seems typical. LOL. Frankly I am not doing anything about my situation right now because I wonder if I have the heart to upset everyone's life and the social construct that I have 14 years in. GRRR.

My natal shows Saturn in House 2 and I have always been fairly astute with finances but never flush in cash...careful. That natal Saturn House 2 for me often has to do with self esteem issues left over from childhood.

Saturn in May 2006 solar return will actually be in the 7th House, makes me wonder if this poor communication with my spouse will simply continue? Well that's a little irksome. LOL.

posted August 12, 2005 02:30 PM              

My alternative take is this ...

You have strong Mutable's dueling it out with strong Fixed energies. So you're not quite sure when to ACT on things. This is further complicated with a Saturn in Cancer, which makes you a little suspicious.

I don't think that there is a "problem" with being emotional or secretive. That's just indicative of your processing style.

Your tendency is actually probably more to do with shooting from the hip, but then something makes you hesitate, which causes you to second-guess yourself. It's the actual stage of hesitation which confuses you. You'd like things to flow, but don't get too caught up in your "style" according to what others think. Accept the way you naturally need to process things. Give yourself ample room to hesitate. Don't be so hard on yourself, is a simple solution to that trap. IT'S THAT SIMPLE!!

Know that your destiny is pulling you towards that North Node in Aries. Towards that MC in Leo. You WANT to shoot from the hip, and you want to be right every time (which is an impossibility for ANYONE).

You'll be learning strong lessons on HOW to do that without sabotaging yourself.

You may be struggling with being a leader, versus going with the flow. Going with the flow may seem like the easier path, and the most "pleasant" way to be around others. But do not neglect your capability to start things and lead. You sort of have to agree to negotiate WITH YOURSELF first.

Hope I came close to the mark.

posted August 13, 2005 01:08 PM              

Again, I can relate to those contradictions. Just my Scorpio Stellium in the 6th House ALONE makes me the same way. Plus Venus in Virgo.

I have Jupiter & Saturn in Capricorn and lots of Cardinal's. Everything just seems to keep PUSHING ME to do more and more. Libra Sun in the 5th helps somewhat, but not really.