posted October 01, 2005 03:30 PM
OH boy, the things I get myself into. This time it's a Saggie with Aqua moon and rising. I'm not too sure what to make of him anymore, really. I can't get into his head. Perhaps you, my fellow Knowflakes, can assist.Yesterday, I started to notice how he was being more attentive towards me. I know this because he kept trying to get me to hang out with him. I've been friends with him for four years already, so we've hanged out before. But this time it felt like he was doing it for another reason. Never before has he been this.. attentive. He is a Sag..
Well, lets start from the beginning. First, he tells me on Thursday that we're gonna go bowling. I tell him that I dont feel like going bowling because there's a lot of smoke at the alley and I just dont like bowling too much. Everyone going- this is about 9 of our friends- tells me to suck it up and go, but Saggie tells everyone that we're gonna change the plans and go play Frisbee. Friday rolls along and we're at school...
<tangent> okay, so for the past few weeks he's been awkward around me because he found out that i liked him. i told him that it wasn't a big deal. he still felt awkward. and even before he found out, he's always been "the detached friend". you know, the mostly unavailable unless by apointment kind. </tangent>
... and almost every passing hour- we have only one class together and lunch- that he sees me, he stops and starts talking to me. About anything. And everything. I'm surprised because normally when he sees me he just says hello and keeps walking. I can sense he isn't awkward around me anymore. I can just tell. (It's the cancer sun/pisces mars thing). I'm happy though, because I do still like him.
Later on, before Frisbee, we go to my Pisces friend's house. We're in his basement/bedroom, which is in its usual mess, and I start cleaning. Saggie says, verbatim: Hey, (name) let's get married. I mean- seriously... Me = excuse me? Pisces = giggle.. oh wait...what? I laugh, and then he laughs. I then say that I probably shouldn't get married so young. He says: What? Why? You're like the perfect candidate. I mean- you... (doesn't complete sentence). I think I should get married a little early. That way I wont have to worry about it. It wasn't an awkward situation, just... you know...strange..
Later on, after Frisbee, we go to my friend's house. My friend and his Virgo driver (you guys take forever to drive, it isn't even funny sometimes) arent there yet, so Pisces, Sag, and I are laying on the grass in his front yard. Pisces thinks it's "funny" when I get poked and say "Ow" because I always whimper, lol. So he keeps poking me. Then Sag starts to tickle me. And I mean- A LOT. After that, everytime Sag got a chance, he would poke me and tell me to do that "cute 'ow!' thing".
Oh, i just remembered. Whenever we're at a park, he would tell me to look at the little kids because I love kids and would say, "Awwwww". He thinks it's "cute" when I say Awww. And he's cute when he says aww with me when we see little kids.. But that's another thing.
Anywho, for the rest of the night he's always doing things like tickling me or poking me so I say "Ow", and when I say Im mad he gets all, "WHY ARE YOU MAD?? (TELL MEEEE)" and then he's playing poker and lets me fix his chips and shows me his cards. He always looks at me, and I turn away...because I do like him.
I'm not sure about this, though. Hopeful wishing perhaps.
Oh, what to do...
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cancer sun/libra moon/libra rising