posted January 04, 2006 05:48 PM              

Doc? Oh hell. I don't know what's going on. My heart gets really overwhelmed. I always think I am reading him correctly but then I am not certain. It does not help that a professional astrologer recently told me I have a million aspects from my Scorpio Neptune to my relationship "male" planets which make me attract and be drawn to healers and those needing healing. She says I give all sorts of wonderful traits to those I feel for and sometimes those wonderful things are simply a mirage.

At any rate, our last encounter via email was odd and I got hurt, stupid 19 year old frightened hurt---that's a feeling I am not familiar with anymore, so I have not written him in 2 and half weeks. Not even for the holidays (not me at all). Last week, his nurse called and said that he asked her to call me while he was on vacation to tell me that my thyroid ultrasound arrived back clean. Of course typical me, I immediately thought "that Pisces is at work and scared to call me"-- He has never had his nurse call me in 10 years.

My sister who has a cancer venus and pisces moon corrected me swiftly last night. She said,"You don't get it, do you?. He's on vacation; he wants you to know that. He wants you to know that he's putting you on his list even when he's on vacation. He could have waited, but he was probably worried that you were waiting for the results!" My sister is my best friend and sensitive. I love her, maybe she's right.