posted September 03, 2006 06:02 AM              

So, for the record:
On january, 5th in 1990 the transiting Pluto was square my Moon (05 minutes of arc); transiting Uranus was conjunct my Venus (this aspect was exact 0°00` on the evening of that day) and transiting Jupiter was moving towards an opposition to my Venus.
Then Pluto started moving backwards again and the square to my Moon was exact on april 11th of this year.
On april 26th the opposition of transiting Jupiter to my natal Venus was exact.
In the meantime transiting Uranus was also moving forwards and backwards over my Venus (yes, it means there were three planets; Jupiter, Uranus and Pluto, changing direction exactly at the place of my natal Venus and Moon); and was exaclty conjuncting Venus on august 11th again.
On october, 21st was Uranus conjuncting my Venus again, and 5 days later transiting Pluto was squaring my Moon again.

One year later, in july 1991, the transiting Juptier had been moving towards an exact opposition to my natal Moon.
In August the transiting Pluto squared my natal Moon again (with 30 minutes arc) one last time.
So I had important transits by three planets Jupiter, Uranus and Pluto at that time, and it has been the most important year(s) in all my life, absolutely lifealtering.

In the beginning of that year when I had Pluto square Moon, Juptier opposite Venus and Uranus conjunct Venus, I "accidentally" stumbled over a new form of theatre, musicals, or even more exact "Starlight Express".
There was one voice on the LP that shook me to the core, and when I saw the photo of the man in the program, I was lost.
Well, I don`t call it a "crush", because it was a different feeling. Like I lost all contact with the ground, within the heartbeat of seeing his photo and hearing his voice my life changed, and I knew it would never be the same anymore.
I cannot really explain it well, but I was terrified,paralysed, hypnotized, and not able to think clearly. There was just one feeling, one thought that was repeating again and again in my head and that was: "I know him. How the hell can I know him? I have never seen him before!"
Well, I was 15 at that time, and I fell for him, hard. No, I was obsessed with him. From the very first moment I was convinced he was the ONE, my twin-soul and that we would end up together somehow. I had no idea, how this should happen (He had been gone from the musical by that time, and had kind of "disappeared" and I had no way to contact him). But back then I didn`t care for the impossibility, I just knew we were meant for each other, and I loved him from afar with a passion that I had never known (and never experienced after that).
Then I started dreaming and meditating, and I felt like I kind of "connected" to him, talked to him on a telepathic level. I don`t know if I have been dreaming it all, making it all up, but I was convinced then, it was true; I was convinced he would return to the city where that musical was playing.
Well, true or not, I later learned th at many of the things I "dreamed" were true, and he even really returned to that city later (and hasn`t left it since then; and no I haven`t been stalking him; it is just as if the informations about him "search" for me and reach me without me even wanting them).
However, the first half year was a miracle, it was wonderful; I was living in my dreamworld; my spiritual side bloomed; it was even the time I started doing astrology and also found Linda Goodman`s book.
This year shaped my personality, absolutely; my views on love and my emotional nature.

But then later on I realized, that it would never be true; that I had been dreaming; that i had been obsessed with an idea of love, that could never become real.
I even learned later on that he was gay (there seems to be some spiritual triangle involved; or I have gone completely insane; well, maybe a bit of both). And I totally broke down. I lost all my faith, I died inside, emotionally, and it took me years to get back to life again, but I never felt like this again. I never loved anyone as I had loved him (or thought I loved him). I think it is because I cannot silence the doubts anymore. Everytime I feel that I could love someone, there`s the thought: "What if you`re wrong once again?"
That is the nasty face of Pluto-square- Moon, I think.
But, well, I think I`m over it now. But it took me 16 years, and sometimes I still feel so tightly connected to him. NOt in the sense of being in love, but connected.
Sometimes out of the blue, a thought like: "He`s playing Lumiere in Beauty and the Beast" hits me, and when I lo"oked it up, to prove myself wrong, I found out that I was right. Even more so, the very day, I had that "thought" hitting me, was the day he performed the role for the first time on stage. *sighs* In my case, the Pluto-Moon-transit shaped my whole life (well, but it could also be, because Pluto is ruler of my 12th house and Moon is ruler of my 8th house; so it seems to be even more karmic and deep in my case than in other cases, maybe).

I also experienced a Pluto-Moon-sextile.
It was 4 years ago, in march 2002.
Transiting Pluto was sextile my natal Moon, transiting Juptier was exactly opposing my natal Venus once again.
It was the day, I met that actor, for the first time, and found the courage to approach him and thank him for the good show he had done (it was also meant as an attempt to say goodbye spiritually; but it didn`t work really well; even though I have given up on that crazy idea of him and me belonging together; so it got a bit lighter and easier to deal with it all; now I just accept that there seems to be a connection, and that`s it.). It was a good day, an intense, and very uplifting experience.

However, now I have transiting Pluto approaching a conjunction to my Sun and Mercury, and I wonder what this will bring.
Well, it already brought me an opening up to my spiritual side again.

well, so much for my experiences with dear Pluto.
how do you experience those Pluto-transits?

DD

posted September 03, 2006 02:22 PM            

I’m sure it will be an *interesting* time when Pluto, turning direct on Sept 4th, hits the Galactic Center!!

While tPluto has been retro, it's been a different energy. When it was direct last year, first coming into orb with my nMoon I had some really up and down times emotionally -- we're talking really bleak and depressing days. My friendships were tested, my Aries child with ADHD was acting up, a storm blew a tree down on top of my house, my mother had her health issues, and all this at a time when I was struggling with health issues of my own and eventual surgery. When tPluto went retro, things changed. Everything wasn't so "in your face, demanding to be dealt with." Things moved underground (to the unconscious realm). I'm curious to see what next week will bring

Here’s an interp that I thought fit very well:
Emotional upheaval, obsessive, compulsive behavior and irrational, compulsive feelings are key issues now. The feelings that arise are triggered by events and interests of a very personal nature, perhaps that go back to your early childhood. The emotions vary but jealousy, emotional insecurity, feelings of inadequacy or deep attachment to another person, anger and strong maternal or paternal feelings are all possibilities. However the current energy manifests itself, your emotional life will be intense during this time. You may try to ignore your feelings, especially if they are foreign to you or you fear they will be destructive to a relationship or other situation in your life; however, ignoring them will only cause them to fester and eventually boil over, out of control. Find time by yourself or with someone you trust -- a friend or a therapist or counselor -- to help you recognize and express these feelings. If handled successfully, you can release emotional blockages that you have been carrying around your whole life; your mood and attitude toward life will be greatly enhanced.