posted September 04, 2006 08:52 AM            

Story is like this:
I had last year and half great change inside me. Trying to bring my ex back, but without any effort...trying to "find" something new, but couldnt find anybody...only persons that I found that they are not for me. The ones I found attractive and interesting were in relationships or they were not interested in me. Like some magic circle...

I had Saturn return this August in 8th house, and I knew what is that telling to me. I changed my way and wanted to apply that knowledge to somebody and to move on. Because it is a final time. From April I knew that I should move one because I knew ex has serious relationship and that whatever I say or do, wont change this as they are. SO I finnaly met somebody, turn my energy and love for myself, but still I couldnt make new relationship. With some hope and good vibrations I move on, till 2 weeks ago.
Another try to fill my emotional life ended badly, and I started to see my ex again, like today with her boyfrend, from nowhere, driving from airport.
(IT is very complicated story with my ex, ended with bad taste in mouth, for both, and without reason. As much I wanted to get to her, she was escaping more and more. SHe is ashamed when she sees me).

I ask one question, why IF I cant be with her, and I made peace inside myself, every attempt and hope to met new person fails without any reason and explanation?
If I am not supposed to be with ex, why then life doesnt give me somebody special for me?
If the past is over, why this "seeing" came today on Pluto going direct?
Why is Saturn making opposition to my natal Venus if I cant be with my ex? It is starting this month.
In same time I have:

Pluto conjuct my natal Mars
Uranus conjuct Moon
Neptune conjuct Venus
Jupiter conjuct Uranus and is going in my 12th house

Precisely all that is going to happen in November but I feel it started toda with Pluto changing direction.
Pluto is always telling us something, but I am not the one that runs from past...

I would appriciate if somebody can take a look and explain what is going on this next 4 months, because I really dont understand anymore. E

My info: 26th december 1976, 6:15 AM, Zagreb, Croatia.

posted September 04, 2006 05:12 PM              

I wish I could help but I cant, I'm not as experienced as others on here - I'm sure someone will respond soon.