posted February 22, 2007 01:24 PM              

I read some of you had problematic childhood, or were forced to grow up «in a moment», which, of course is one of the crucial things on which depends further development of personality for all of us, but for a person with Pisces influence, and especially with Moon in Pisces, I have a feeling it IS crucial.
Moon in Pisces is an eternal child.
No, eternal baby.
The baby that needs nurturing all the time.
It needs smiles, tender caresses, a lot of attention, and tons of emotional support to be able to enter the real life, much more I think than any other Moon.
Hearing some of other people stories here, I'm almost ashamed to say that I had the most wonderful and loving childhood, and still receive 100% support from my parents.
I could say equally, cause both of my parents are too wonderful to say who is better, though my Mum is a being from «other» world.
She has already crossed all the borders of beauty, understanding, protection and support, that I really don't know how far can she go.
We have some great aspects to support our «love»; my Venus in Taurus is in lovely and tasty sandwich lol between her Moon and Jupiter. All within 3 orbs.
We nurture each other with our love, though I doubt I will ever come as close as her, if I ever have a child.
I thank God every day that it gave me her to be my Mum, and I tell him if I had to die tomorrow, I will be happy, cause I got more than I deserved from this life.
Sometimes I am a very hard person to understand and to put up with, but she understands everything, and she always said to me, and repeats it, «You always have to speak what you think, to me, to everyone, no matter how stupid, crazy or unacceptable you think it might sound for us…don't worry about us..we will definitely find a way to deal with it; we won't die or love you less if you say what we might not want to hear…we're all different and have our own views, and if you worry what everyone will think, you won't ever live your life...think about yourself and be true to yourself.»
I know how important her support is, and how crucial she was and is in my life.
So I can understand how difficult it was for some of you to grow up in this world, and how necessary it was to put some walls around you and build some kind of protection so that the world doesn't «eat you alive».
I had to do the same, cause not everyone is like my Mum, and, God, have I learned that.
I've been many times bruised and battered because I thought that everyone is like her.
But I never regretted the moments I was nice.
I never regretted the moments I was gentle.
I never regretted the moments I trusted someone, no matter how hurt I was.
I always remember those moments with beauty, because I was myself then.
But I regret the moments I wasn't gentle to those who needed it.
I regret the moments I was too careless or rough to some people who didn't deserve it.
Those are the moments I regret. cause I haven't given what I could.

Now, in the end I would like to say that I think it is very important that we open our hearts and tell what's inside us.
Of course, we don't go around telling everyone what we need or want, but as Solane star said..there are some great feelings of love and understanding circulating here, and I'm glad we all contributed with our little part to create it.
That is the most beautiful and gentle way in which we can present our inner needs to this world around us so that it can understand mentally, emotionally and even, physically how a gentle approach, a kind word, warm embrace and emotional encouragement have the same importance and value as a physically saved life, the work that brings us money for our daily life or the most beautiful present that you receive.
It is all as real and needed as the Sun that shines.
I think that when, without initial belittling and humiliating, we start to understand more deeply the value and importance of each other needs, no matter how different, strange or insignificant they might seem to us, that might be the beginning of solving of some very complicated problems, and the start of a true friendship between people.

Though I am far away from that great person, and sometimes I make one step forward, and two step backwards, I still feel I'm on THAT path.
And that's what matters.
My heart trusts that path, and I trust my heart.

Love xxx

posted February 22, 2007 01:36 PM            

What you just wrote is *fabulous* -- I'm so glad you are feeling comfortable enough here now to express yourself so beautifully

posted February 22, 2007 01:52 PM              

I appreciate it so much, cause I wrote this early this morning and thought whether to send it or not out of a fear I'd sound stupid lol
But this thread is full of love, and I'm just drawn to share some of mine

posted February 22, 2007 04:18 PM              

castlegirl, that was great what you wrote, and it is nice to know we're not alone. What you said about us building walls is so true for me but, just like I heard in a song once, some walls must fall. I am learning that that's where faith comes in. Faith that I won't die or fall apart if someone is rude, mean to me, or hurts me in some way.
I never realized how much energy I spent in protecting myself. *whew!*

posted February 22, 2007 06:44 PM              

basically I'm sensitive yet emotionally balanced but with some self esteem issues.
I'm fairly a rational thinker balanced with clear emotions not your stereotype of being an emotional wreck. I do tend to go into my own fantasy world, but I keep it real in the real world.

and I'm highly artistic and pretty intelligent.

posted February 23, 2007 09:18 AM              

With Aries Sun and Merc in 8th, Gem Mars and Saturn in 10th, Pluto in Libra in 1st ( so similar placements to Gem Nymph??)

If people come with problems to me now, I kind of let them know to P!ss off. Not unkindly meant, because if I hear too many of their problems, their problems become my problems and you know how it goes - I'm like a celestial sponge. Loggerhead (where DID she disappear to?) once suggested I suffered from co-dependency, and I think she was right. I don't really want a close relationship in my life right now, I can't cope with it. Friends = fine. Lovers = not fine.

I get through the day by producing lots of artwork and, currently not seeing too many people (altho' I communicate lots!).

Love,

posted February 23, 2007 10:10 AM              

But yes, 1H Pluto can make a person either more "cut the crap" in attitude. It's the result of Pluto's ability to see through facades and pretense and the 1st House's self-assertative. How that plays out inone's relationships depends on the native's disposition, whther they're generally hoonest or not. Basically, with this placement if you're honest withyourself, you're going to be honest with everyone else, whether they want to hear it or not. LOL. If you're more inclined to be secertive and manipulative, you'll use this placement to sense out people's weaknesses and self-deceptions, and in turn exploit that.

Pkuto's also very "territorial" in some ways, so it's good at drawing boundaries. But again, how that is used depends on the native's disposition. Strong Pluto energy can always be abused. So one has to be careful not ot be too conniving or too severe when drawing boundaries.

posted February 23, 2007 03:41 PM              

Solar_third,
I'm sorry to hear you have a bad experience regarding your Mum; mutual moon-neptune squares must have brought a lot of emotional «misunderstanding» and unacceptance between you.
I know how important is that connection, and I hope you found the best way to heal the hurt feelings, and learned to look at things from some brighter and positive side.
As I said I have some good aspects with my Mum, though there are some really hard, too.
I will post our synastry and composite, so you can see..
My Pluto squares and my Saturn opposes her Sun, so she didn't get only roses from me...

Spry,
So true! How much energy is needed to build the walls, that in the end, will need to fall.
The faith in life is the faith in yourself, and your own good will, and the life always fights for life, so you that made those walls, will be the one to break them.
I think that if you feeling bitterness and repulsion for something or someone, if you look deeper inside yourself, maybe you vaguely see your own reflection and your own behaviour in some other situations, or toward some other people…
«If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is a part of yourself.
What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us»
Hermann Hesse, what a great and deep thought from Demian, one of many of the great books that this loving, understanding and clever writer wrote. (Sun Cancer/ Moon Pisces/Asc Sag)
The more we go deeper into ourselves, the more truths we find about people around us and vice versa.
Depending on our own inclination towards learning and understanding, the path is opening or closing.
Someone stops at the answer that pleases him/her, someone digs deeper no matter how disturbing it may be.
We all get the answers we are at that moment ready to accept.
The mirror that we look at every morning tells us whether we're comfortable and satisfied with it or not.

«Character is destiny»
Novalis

Love

posted February 23, 2007 03:51 PM              

Love and Light to all Knowflakes!!!!!

posted February 23, 2007 03:57 PM              

composite

be free to comment..
I don't know what aspects make it, but this is the person who, no matter what happened and will happen to me, made my life a real fairytale...

posted February 23, 2007 04:19 PM              

Nice to meet you too!
And the pleasure is mine!

Like you, I feel there are so many nice and loving people here, and I'm so happy I "found" you all!

posted March 04, 2007 09:55 AM              

It was in Virgo, so at some point it conjuncted my nPluto. I noticed yesterday how I was organizing all of my papers, bills, receipts and such and I was on a cleaning streak. I like to be very organized anyway, but this was more like dividing everything into groups and filing them in those groups. The cleaning was anal as well. I was cleaning between tiles, along floor boards and dusting off ceiling fans. How appropriate, I was Spring cleaning.

With it opposing my moon I'm not sure how it has affected me. If at all. I haven't noticed myself being anymore moody or impatient than usual. Though I am wanting to be more alone these past few days.

posted March 05, 2007 03:57 AM              

As for the eclipse, I thought it was great, although not as humbling and as awe-inspiring as the total eclipse a few years ago. But no dramas. I actually had a rather fun, stress-free and spontaneous weekend. Again.

posted March 10, 2007 12:25 PM              

I think the opposition to Saturn modifies my moon quite a lot. Outwardly at least I am not emotional. When I was younger I put a lot of effort into controlling my emotions and would feel embarrassed and a failure if I let myself cry or show "weakness" in front of other people. I've changed my perspective on that more as I've gotten older but it's a constant struggle not to deny my feelings.

Like a lot of pisces mooners I'm a pretty good judge of character. I always take note of my first impression of people and it has never failed me.

I can forgive a wrong, especially if the person seems genuinely apologetic, but I can never forget.

In terms of the opposite sex, Scorpio moon men knock me out every time. It's gotten to the point where if I'm watching a movie or tv show and an actor catches my eye I'll think, "hmmm, scorpio moon?" look up his chart and sure enough, scorpio moon. This is probably because scorpio moons fall in my fifth house.

posted March 11, 2007 06:04 PM            

how's life been for you guys lately? The emotional turmoil has subsided and life is at the top of the roller coaster ride again. scorpio mooners and pisces mooners relationships are the equivalent of all venus-pluto aspects, right???

posted March 11, 2007 06:24 PM            

Hey folks -- we have the Solar Eclipse coming up this week in our Moon sign..... any of you with Moon about 20 degrees or later, fasten your seatbelts

I'll bump the Eclipses 2007 string and add what I find to it.....

posted March 11, 2007 08:16 PM              

Solar Eclipse are about new beginnings, right?