posted May 10, 2007 08:36 AM            

Me-
22nd feb 1978 4.10pm
Him-
5th mar 1985 5.30am

The pisces has been in contact again. Its been EXTREMELY weird; since he found himself a girlfriend somehow we now know a lot more about what went on between us than when we were kinda together.

I am kicking myself I wasn't honest with him about how I felt. He wasn't honest either I've since found out- we were (are?) nuts about one another. How could we be exactly alike yet not see what the other was up to???

I always felt we were so similar but thought it was wishful thinking on my part. We've pretty much done exactly the same mean things to one another. We've been nice too, although if I'm honest he put himself out there more than I ever did.

And while I've been trying to accept its over, he's done a few things that make me see 'wow it WAS real' and it definately ain't over. I thought I was the one who would give in and try to talk to him (for closure if anything) but its him who's doing it.

posted May 12, 2007 12:43 AM            

I only really gave half the story with the pisces. He didn't lie anymore than I did. I hate to admit it but we're so much alike its just not funny. We talked honestly last night for the first time. Closure is good and I understand a lot of things so much better.
It breaks my heart that 2 people can be so completely wrong together, yet fall so totally for one another. I could never see a realistic future for us but it didn't stop me falling for him. I told myself that it'd work out somehow, but it can't.
He's tried so hard to get me out of his system, he tried hard to stop me getting to him in the first place but now he still can't get over me and he hates himself. He doesn't understand why I affect him the way I do, I still affect him the same way I did almost 2 years ago. He can't even explain how I affect him, but I know cos he affects me the same way.
Its well and truly over finally, I got the answers I needed and he really listened to me.

posted May 12, 2007 12:58 AM              

Side note - Think for Pisces, meaning of success-failure in life might be very different, so it doesn't matter much. However something like this, emotional, is more significant to us.