posted August 27, 2008 03:04 PM         

A. Capricorn sun in 12th house
B. Capricorn is a depressing sign, and i have double!!!!
C. Venus in the 12th house
D. Scorpio moon in 8th house making me extremely emotional, obsessive, possesive and indulgent (all tendencies I see in myself

I recently stopped talking to someone I loved dearly but we had many differences. We got on intellectually and shared many interests. but he did not feel the same way emotionally stressing that he did not want to commit to anyone. Initially we were friends and then progressed into lovers (he bacame very fond of me and we spend every day with each other for a good year) he is a Aries sun virgo moon gemini rising!!! (Can you imagine!!!) After the honeymoon period arguements were consistent and he spoke to alot of females (my scorpio moon unleashed the jealousy aspect frequently) He didnt tell me that about the other females he was sleeping with and ensured me i was paranoid when i confronted him. (I also started smoking during this period...the strong stuff)it was only until I caught him out on many occassions with many different females!!! This all happened over the past 3 years. We then decided to be friends. But I could not do it. I became bitter as the days went by, jealous as hell and insecure. It was like he drained me. I did everything for him, and supported him in everyway. I trusted him and opened up to him which is something i find difficult to do. I blamed myself and still do for the downfall in our friendship as he was able to press on and be happy as friends but i found it difficult to let go. Now we do not speak at all and I feel I have lost out big time. I know he will probably erase all memory of my exsistence but he will always be remembered in mine.

Sorry for the big rant fellow knowflakes but i always feel down about this even when I am happy during the day. The other two relationships I have had have ended with them wanting to be with someone else. Is it me??? am I doomed in love. Should I not try so hard and give up in finding love. I say this because I am scared I will not be successful in it at all.

Please help or give suggestions what does having sun in 12th house and venus in 12th house entail. And do u think they relte to the situation I have been in with men?

posted August 28, 2008 10:24 AM         

I seriously feel for you and COMPLETELY understand. I should warn you this is a VERY long post lol.

I don't have a scorpio moon, but I have quite a few pluto and neptune aspects (the nasty one's are horrible), which include a cap moon squre pluto, and loosly conjunct neptune. Not to mention my venus is opposite both saturn and pluto.

I too was semi involved with a guy off and on for a year and he just walked away, he was flirting with other girls and probably sleeping with them, and of course I would get VERY jealous and possessive and try to flirt with someone else. He was always telling me how he didn't want a serious relationship, or how he didn't have feelings for me (he was a double sag), but everytime I would walk away or say I didn't have feelings for him he would do something to manipulate me into caring, or having feelings for him (I blame his venus in scorpio for being manipulative, and his mars in pisces for wanting me to not stop caring).

After coming back in my life and making my life a living hell, I find out he has a gf (whom is actually white) on facebook. I'm african american, and the entire time I knew I was his dirty little secret (he couldn't even write on my wall "happy birthday" on facebook...we go to school in the south despite the fact that I'm from the west coast and he is from the north) but in the end I knew my color was an issue.

It's hard because he too was the first person I had really trusted and let see me for who I am, and at the end of the day a year after we've been done he is still someone I think about when he is really happy with his gf of a year now. It's hard because I know that color may not have mattered to him but interracial dating in a southern school is VERY difficult.

Before him all my relationships were with guys who could care aless about me. I just never understood why I have to sacrifice so much to get someone to care about me, or why was it so easy to walk away from me when I give my all to the people I care about. It was especially hard when it seems that love comes so easily to others.

Blossom I don't think you're doomed, I think you might find it hard to find someone who truly cares probably due to saturns restrictions (do you have a aspect from saturn to your moon or venus perhaps,if you posted a chart I could find out) because lets be honest a lot of guys out there suck. But for every one guy that sucks there is one out there that is awesome. I know its hard to see others happy and to see that they can find love so easily, but that doesn't mean there is something wrong with you. In fact (and I know you're thinking what does this have to do with me right now...I want to be with someone who cares about me) the advice I get from others is to learn lessons from each relationship you get into and eventually you'll find a rich rewarding relationship. Also walk away whenever you feel unhappy, I think that saturn types and even people with lots of neptune have a tendency to stay even when they shouldn't. I think this has to do with the fact that saturn types take a committment to someone in their life seriously, and neptune types have a tendency to view others in rose tented glasses. Seeing them as better people then they actually are.

Also your relationship with him could have some challenging aspects with neptune or even saturn. If he lied about sleeping with others, that sounds like a neptune thing (decit), and the blocking of releasing emotions could be due to saturn. He could have felt something but saturn can make it VERY difficult to admit that (trust me I know...double sag guy and I had a composite moon in cap conjunct neptune...and we were both saturn types...him with his double sag stuff conjunct saturn) If you could also give me the composite to you and him that would be great.