posted November 01, 2008 02:40 AM
my brother went to his first wake tonight for a girl he knew in high school. she got pneumonia while at school and ignored how sick she was until she started throwing up everywhere. later in the hospital, the doctors found out that she had a rare form of pneumonia that shut down her liver. she went into a coma in the hospital because of the brain damage she suffered from the toxins in her body. in order for her to live, she would have to get both a liver transplant and kidney transplant, but due to a lot of factors she couldn't get either in time and her family chose to remove life support.when i was my brother's age just three years ago, two friends of my mine died around this time as well. one of them died the same day as my brother's friend. last year, two other friends died around the same time. autumn has really become a depressing time for me, especially around Halloween. my friends and i celebrate as usual (and sometimes it seems as if they have already forgotten that we are rejoicing our friends and not just another occultist holiday), but i can't help but feel just really down and melancholy.
why is it always this time of year? is it because the sun is conjunct pluto for my generation at this time? it would make sense... everyone who died was no more than 7 months older than me, one of them a boy i knew from birth who was only a week younger than me. i dunno... it's just a weird thing... to know of so many deaths within this month specifically.
i dunno. i'm probably just being emotional and not just wondering, "Gee, I wonder if all these kids my age died because tSun is conjunct nPluto for all of us?" It does seem odd to me... but even if i studied all of my friends' charts and my friends' friends charts, it doesn't really change that they're gone.
i suppose i'm just left wondering why...
Lindaland
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posted November 01, 2008 02:40 AM