posted November 23, 2008 09:30 PM         

here is what I posted. It's all from my response in 2004. http://groups.google.com/group/alt.astrology.moderated/msg/315d72d247ef6556

Hi,

I agree. I have Neptune oppose/contraparallel Saturn. My
Mercury,Venus,and Neptune contraparallel my Saturn. I do have phobias related to speech and hand/eye coordination that seems like social anxiety disorder. I hate public speaking and doing things with my
hands in front of people. I enjoy dancing in front of a lot of people though.

I have Moon in Pisces in 6th squares Neptune in Sagittarius in 3rd oppose retrograde Saturn in Gemini in 9th for a t-square, and I do have phobias related to mental health professionals....well..mainly
psychiatrists. I have fears of higher education. Also it can indicate
my fears involving speech and hand/eye coordination. I have fear of
getting hurt because of my feelings are ultrasensitive to begin with.
I worry about my mom's health problems(Hepatitis B/C and Diabetes). I
am very shy with women. I feel intimidated by people who are more educated. Fear has been my main problem since my special ed days. I also have Moon oppose Saturn/Neptune midpoint with 17 minutes of arc. I have Saturn oppose Jupiter/Neptune midpoint(5 minutes of arc),Mars/Ascendant Midpoint(27 minutes),and Pluto/Node midpoint(33). I feel that multiple midpoint picture has to do with my developmental
problems including motor coordination. I believe that midpoints show a
lot, and I use them extensively in readings now.

I did have past history of Dyslexia and Dyspraxia that got corrected in 3 yrs(1st,2nd[twice] grades) of special ed. Being in special ed,having speech/coordination problems, and being called "retard" by normal kids made me grow up feeling stupid even though I have above
average intelligence. Being called stupid when I was in the navy for being absentminded,disorganized,clumsy,forgetful,and problems with auditory processing led to my having low self esteem. Being seen as
crazy by psychiatrists for those same problems and my anxiety(especially psychiatry-phobia) even lowered my self esteem. I thought I was stupid for being in "retard" class and having speech
problems until I learned about Dyslexia,Dyspraxia,and AD/HD last year.
Feelings of intellectual inadequacy let to my feelings of shyness which led to my feelings of anxiety which led to my feelings of depression.

Just 2 months ago, I am finally diagnosed with ADHD,inattentive
type(means..I have attention deficit....not hyperactivity) at the age
of 32 yrs old. I have been diagnosed with Generalized
Anxiety,Dysthymic Disorder,Avoidant Personality Disorder, and per
history: Developmental Coordination Disorder.

Now I am in Massage Therapy class, and I am averaging a B after 3
modules.