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From: somewhere over the rainbow
Registered: Oct 2005

posted November 30, 2008 09:09 PM         

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my move-in was completely hectic as any move can be. i've been feeling like crap: physically but mostly emotionally. i miss home. at the same time there are a lot of problems there that can only be solved with time and distance. i've been ignoring taking care of myself because i have so many things i have to do here to get settled, most of which takes a long time with a lot of effort because barely anyone speaks english beyond polite conversation. i've been expecting this, and things have gotten better now that i've learned to understand "korean english" as my co-teacher and i have dubbed it.

so after ignoring my emotional health (it's pretty bad. i want to crawl into a ball and sleep forever in my happy, warm nostalgia of new york city in the summer), my scorpio moon physically manifested itself into my life.

my laundry room and bathroom overflooded after a big rain this past weekend. i live on the first floor, so all the crap and **** water from the entire apart building flooded into my laundry room and bathroom. it sucked. i had to clean it up multiple times until someone went into the basement and opened up a pipe. i actually kinda enjoyed cleaning up and scrubbing up the floor in the end. overall, though, it sucked. if that isn't a blatant "manifestation" i'm not sure what is. I think it's interesting that i'm living in a scorpio country too.

anyways, i've been spending more time to myself. after cleaning out my bathroom, i took a two hour hot bath. my neighbors finally put a password on their wireless network (they must have noticed their bandwith slowly being sucked away from them ) so i spent the whole weekend to myself with no contact with the outside world. i did step out to go shopping, but i got so frustrated not being able to communicate myself with others so i just went back home after an hour.

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posted December 02, 2008 06:48 PM         

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From a fellow scorpio moon, Im sorry this happened. This happens to me as well...it's like you try to keep everything in emotionally and it manifests in the outside world and we have to "clean it up" as they say. How are you feeling now?

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From: JC,NJ,USA
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posted December 02, 2008 07:03 PM         

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Me 2 ... I sooo can relate to this

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From: somewhere over the rainbow
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posted December 02, 2008 07:05 PM         

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i'm feeling a little better now. i've been here for a week now, but it feels like forever. i've been slowly transforming my apartment into my own, so when I come home at night I feel the comfort of feeling like I'm in my own head as opposed to being surrounded by a million thoughts as I am all day.

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posted December 02, 2008 07:10 PM         

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as a side note, i think scorpio moons genuinely need to be alone when we're feeling down. my family (who all have more "social" or outward moons) always tell me that i need to go out and do something fun, but i just really want to be alone in my room for 3 days straight. i'm not being depressed. this is the way i cope, lol. i can honestly sit in silence (or listen to music, but not speak at all) for hours and not feel lonely. i also think this is a part of a growing up (weird to say since i'm 20). i've found myself needing to step back a lot more and be less social.

also, i hate people jk. but really - people are always concerned about how much time i spend alone and it's like, "I'm fine! No really! Reading is enough for me! I just don't feel like being social. Stop thinking that I'm silently going insane!"

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posted December 02, 2008 11:10 PM         

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I can relate to that too lol

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posted December 03, 2008 12:23 AM         

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i can honestly sit in silence (or listen to music, but not speak at all) for hours and not feel lonely. i also think this is a part of a growing up (weird to say since i'm 20). i've found myself needing to step back a lot more and be less social.

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I get you I have a Capricorn Moon, but I think Cap and Scorpio and similar when it comes to needing alone time.

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posted December 03, 2008 01:49 AM         

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yeah, my brother is a capricorn moon although he's got a lot of sag/gemini action going on so he tends to be more inclined to party hardy until he passes out a bit more than your typical cap moon. he does spend a lot of time alone though. he's a scorpio sun.

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