posted July 06, 2002 11:33 AM         

Someone help me please.
I've found my one and only true twinsoul.
We recogonized each other right form the start.
Our charts tell us that my venus conjucts his pluto.
HE has shown me things I have never seen befor and opened me in ways I never dreamed of. My psychic abilites sky rocketed since I've met him and so many other wonderful things. He came in my life when I needed him most but there is a problem.
Problem is, I am with someone now that I just cannot leave.I am having a hard time
breaking his heart. I am no where near enlightened but am a little further along the path then he.I always thought I loved him before but now I know I've found my true love now.
I haven't been honest with the one I'm with now and I don't know how to say good-bye.
But I need to.
My true love knows of my situtation and has never pressured me.But we are parting now because( in simlple terms) of my innability to make sacrifices for him.And it hurts so badly.HE cannot provide me with the security I need now(monetarily)and I hate that fact about me.I am not a materialistic person at all but I have a hard time just leaping away from the little that I do have to nothing. Even though our being toghter would be great enough comfort and reward, I am having a hard time doing it.
Now we are parting and I cannot bear it. I know it's my own fault. I know.

posted July 06, 2002 03:43 PM         

Well you're obviously hurting
I'm not sure what help you're looking for.
Can you be a little more specific?

posted July 08, 2002 02:16 PM         

Reading season and reasons was very helpful.

I guess I was looking for someone to give me the correct answer for what I should do or who I should be with. I know I'm the only one who can make that choice, or bring my dreams to fruition, but I guess I feel guilty about leaving someone behind.

posted July 08, 2002 11:53 PM         

Gosh, love can really hurt sometimes! I like Cat's "Reasons, Seasons and Lifetimes" string as well. I would like to offer you two other thoughts...

1. Linda mentions in her Love Signs Book about how when one person stays in a relationship because they "should", or out of a sense of duty to the other person, the real loser in the situation is not the person who stays, but the other. In this case it would mean that the loser is really your boyfriend who you don't want to hurt. If your love belongs to someone else and you stay, you are doing both of you a great disservice.

2. Answers about what to do or not do can only really come from you, however since I felt compassion in reading your words, I pulled some cards for you. Above and beyond anything they clearly said that your main focus in life right now is actually not to be found in a relationship at all. The Hermit card says that what you need to be doing now is learning yourself, finding yourself and disillusioning your need for a partnership. Possibly being on your own would be best right now. Furthermore, the Two of Disc card followed which signifies change. You are going to feel unstable, but if you are up to the idea of "change" you will transform yourself in absolutely amazing ways and you will be "ready" for the more evolved type relationship you really want.

Anyway, please know that I use cards as guidance only. In everything there is a message if you are willing to see it.

Let me know how it all works out!

posted July 09, 2002 07:14 AM         

Yes life would be very easy if someone could give us "the right answer" to all our problems. But you know, if that were possible we would never "grow" in ourselves.
I always remember my Mother saying to me (when I was little and sometimes said my legs are aching) "Oh, it's just growing pains"
And I would think I'm getting taller

I think you're now experiencing "growing pains" of a different kind
And yes, you're correct, only you can make these choices.

Actually, the cards that Pearly mentioned to you are very interesting. (Hi Pearly, nice to meet you)
I would tend to agree that your main focus in life right now should actually be on yourself.
What makes you happy, what makes you sad, what makes you feel secure, what makes you feel like dancing.....

Sometimes when we are faced with 2 choices that we find impossible to make...maybe it's because there's a 3rd and ultimately better choice?

Only you will know the answer.
But first of all you have to learn to love yourself
Sue

posted July 09, 2002 01:24 PM         

your story reminds me very much of something that I have encountered about a year ago. There was a guy, his Venus conjuncting my Pluto, I believe we were soulmates...He had a girlfriend, at that time - but she did not behave the way she should have...I do not want to get into details...There were mutual sympathies between us but he was afraid to loose the stability of the relationship by going to the 'unknown territory'...At a certain stage I have decided to get away from that situation...Later on I have coincidentaly found out that she has broken up with him for the second time. I wonder what he thinks now. Does he think like you?
anayway, I believe that if we are meant to meet again we will...trust your intuition, if you want love go for it and do not look only at the money...

DreamPisces

posted July 09, 2002 03:38 PM         

Thanks everyone.

posted July 09, 2002 04:55 PM         

Perhaps learning to Love your self more {for who you are alone} should be a main focus for you now. And I mean regardless of any thing in your past or present. You as all of us still have controll of our futer fates and decisions.

posted July 09, 2002 06:13 PM         

Hi Cat, nice to meet you as well.
I love the growing pains analogy, I SO remember those from growing up. My legs used to ache! It's funny what one remembers, but they did make an impact on me!

Thanks, Randall...