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grayheart
Knowflake

Posts: 215
From: Land O Love
Registered: Oct 2003

posted October 24, 2003 01:41 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for grayheart     Edit/Delete Message
Unhappiness.
This is what I have been given.
what once was grand is now lying on the brink of destruction.
Nothing matters anymore.

When I first found you, it brought me joy.
I learned to love, and learned to fly.
Now, when I am learning so much about how to live, I find out that you do not believe.
That you and I are truely one, and doubt and fear have sounded out their awful sirens in your head.
When I learned this I truely cried.
And after wondered if I had died
having been sent to live in a rotting hell, that is a world of fear an doubt.
For when ones twin has been so afflicted it is hard to resist the tempting call of fear and doubt and to not fall.
Yet still I must resist its call, for thought the doubt has clung to you, I must hold on to what is true.
The great strength that I posses may not be enough to save you from your fear, but know that I am still near.

You used to smile when I cam home, and now you can't seem to get away fast enough. constantly locked away, build a wall of fear and pain between us.
Don't you see that I can feel it too?
I feel your doubt, you transmit it too me with such force.
Your subconcious is drowning in this sea of fear.
It takes all my strength each and every day to stand firm and resist the seductive call of the doubt that is being projected at me.

And to make things worse, it seems that amidst this misty fog of unknowning there is another soul who to you appears to vibrate on the right frequency to seem to be much more appealing.

And knowing that you much work this out for your S-elf
I can do nothing but stand by and try to show you how much I truely care, though you say that you are aware,
Know even more that no matter if you continue to fall, or if you rise once again above the clouds to where you belong, as long as you find you happiness, I know in my heart and in my soul that we shall meet again. perhaps not soon, or even not in this life, but we will, for we are twins, and twins can never be truely separated.

I have faith in you, though you do not have faith even in yourS-elf.
I send my Love, and pray for your light to return.

For my Twin, who has fallen.

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Aphrodite
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Posts: 4927
From:
Registered: Feb 2002

posted October 24, 2003 02:29 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Aphrodite     Edit/Delete Message
Are you certain that you have the right person in mind? The internet is a strange place with personalities all over the place. Please just make sure. Love, Aphrodite

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bewitched
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Posts: 130
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Registered: Oct 2003

posted October 24, 2003 04:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for bewitched     Edit/Delete Message
Sweet grayheart,

I pray for you, I am just finished going through what you are experiencing. Please save yourself before it's to late. You have to face reality and not live in the illusion/nightmare. Because you still have time now to go out into the world and find the love you deserve. I just went through this with my twinflame. My love was so strong I couldn't let go or love another. But if you don't protect yourself you have a good chance at ascending alone, and I sense you know already the horror of what that will be. I prayed to God night and day but it didn't help, I got information only not love from another human being. Go out meet people force yourself. This is just my opinion only you know best, just look carefully and see reality. Yourself is the true reality don't listen to anything else.

Peace

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grayheart
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Posts: 215
From: Land O Love
Registered: Oct 2003

posted October 24, 2003 05:59 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for grayheart     Edit/Delete Message
The circumstances are for certain, for we have talked at great length about it.
I do not feel fear, and though there is sadness, there is also some form of gladness, for in it all we have not become hateful, nor have we truly become intentionally hurtful. All talks have been open and honest. But the doubt is still there, and only time will allow the healing to happen. Both of us will grow stronger. and though we may not remain in a bond in these temples, I KNOW that we will meet again and next time will we will BOTH be ready. For twins relationships with each other grow from trip to trip on this marvelous space ship Earth. Sometimes they are siblings, sometimes they are friends, sometimes they are parent and child, sometimes they do not even meet, and eventually, when both are ready, they can be free to be lovers too. And this is when they truely soar. And though I grieve that this may not be the right time. I will accept and hold no ill will, and will eagerly await our next meeting and know that it will be better the next time, if we should fail this time.

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Playing pisces
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Posts: 30
From: Toronto,Ontario,Canada
Registered: Jan 2003

posted October 25, 2003 08:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Playing pisces     Edit/Delete Message
Grayheart,

If you love yours-elf enough...you will not hurt inside. You are just as important as this twin of yours..know that and you will be alright.

Love and light and goodluck on your journey!

Ann Carnegie

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grayheart
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Posts: 215
From: Land O Love
Registered: Oct 2003

posted October 25, 2003 09:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for grayheart     Edit/Delete Message
Thank you for your kind thoughts, I know that from this I will grow, and that the pain I feel will subside in time.

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metoo
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Posts: 45
From: Purple Fields, USA
Registered: Jun 2002

posted October 26, 2003 07:35 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for metoo     Edit/Delete Message
Dear Sweet MeWho:

This letter is for You. Of all the things I wish I could do – take this pain Away from you. Of all the times you told me True .. I love You, too. I remember things – of You. I remember them – as True. What I always feel/felt – is Still – True. I don’t deserve you, Mewho. I don’t know if I’m Lost, Found or Fallen – to the ground. I feel so far away from everything. I knew on Oct 24th what I didn’t remember then. I didn’t remember until it was too late, and then I knew (knew that what I posted would find it’s way – to you). I am sorry that I was so Selfish – it was not my intention. I feel Detached. I feel a massive Guilt Growing. I feel a Big Fall coming (to me). I feel I Deserve all of these things. I Believe – I Do.

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metoo
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From: Purple Fields, USA
Registered: Jun 2002

posted October 26, 2003 07:36 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for metoo     Edit/Delete Message
But you? What you deserve is so much More. Listen to all of these Beautiful people who Love – so Well. Listen to nothing from me, because I do not yet know – what I have Lost. Listen to yourself – and Know – that Everything happens for a reason. When we are meant to See – when we can take it no longer and ask this of our self - we Will Remember. When I can stop this torture – of my Self – I will Know too. I will Know who or what – I gave up. Maybe I gave up on my S-elf. I will know – why I cannot Ever forgive myself. I will know if Ever I am meant to be – Happy.
But you Mewho, you are meant for so much More. You are meant for Love. You are meant to be loved, Fully and Focused. You are the one who met me in my Dreams. As we Slept – you were there, as was I. You Believed – as I did. You made me See so many things. With you I Dreamed, with my Eyes Wide Open. I don’t know what else to say, only that I never meant any of it to happen – this way.

Turn out the light
Don't try to save me
You may be wrong
For all I know
You may be right

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grayheart
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Posts: 215
From: Land O Love
Registered: Oct 2003

posted October 26, 2003 11:40 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for grayheart     Edit/Delete Message
Silence, broken only by the cries of my heart. Metoo, dearest Metoo, I know that it was not the plan, it is just the way things worked out. Know that I forgive you, and I do not hold anything against you. I do not know what will happen yet, I still need to meditate some more on this. The next time I post here, I will know. That may be a few days, but it must be done. I will return when I know.

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pidaua
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Posts: 6991
From: Schweinfurt, Germany
Registered: May 2002

posted October 27, 2003 01:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for pidaua     Edit/Delete Message
My heart goes out to both of you Grayheart and Metoo. What ever happened, my heart hurts for your suffering. I will pray that both of you find each other again and that your hearts / souls will be healed.

Blessings.

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Aphrodite
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Posts: 4927
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posted October 28, 2003 04:17 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Aphrodite     Edit/Delete Message
Good luck to you both

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metoo
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Posts: 45
From: Purple Fields, USA
Registered: Jun 2002

posted August 12, 2006 06:38 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for metoo     Edit/Delete Message
Almost two years later and I find myself here. I received an email from the webmaster and so I came again - to LindaLand. I did a search for grayheart and I found these old historical life changing - words.

Now, today grayheart is in another state. I do not know the state of his love life, but I still talk to him sometimes. Me? I am happily married (for the first time ever) a little over a year now ... to a Great and Knowing Pisces. He is Everything to me although I never have met him in my dreams. Not yet, but soon maybe more ... or maybe already there is more that we have ... than dreams ... it feels that way.

Our story is just as magnificent is my story with mewho (grayheart). I don't know why I torture myself and look back into the past as I do. I just wanted to be here now, now that I am making some more (positive) life changes. And if no one ever sees this, at least LindaLand understands the importance of it being "out there" ... because this thread is almost two years old.

Thanks!

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pixelpixie
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Posts: 5123
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005

posted August 12, 2006 11:27 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for pixelpixie     Edit/Delete Message

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metoo
Knowflake

Posts: 45
From: Purple Fields, USA
Registered: Jun 2002

posted October 13, 2007 11:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for metoo     Edit/Delete Message
It seems I am back again looking for answers. I got another message from the webmaster and so I am here again (what would I do without him, is it still Randall?). Anyway, this always makes me sad -- I feel so bad, why do I do this to myself.

I am still happily married to my Pisces. Ours is rockier than any road I have traveled with any other sign. Lately I fight the urge to just go back to my "humble" life before him, rather than these struggles we are facing now. Its so hard --- I keep telling myself in a year, two (more?) I will look back and Know it was all worth it.

I am reading a great book now ... ever since hearing about "The Secret" on Oprah, I have had the same awakening as I did when I first picked up a book by Linda in 1998. That book, I will never forget (Love Signs). What's great about getting older (if there is such a thing) is that you can draw your own conclusions, decide what you believe. Of course, now, when I read what I just typed -- I guess I always had that pOwer, didn't I?

I believe in the "secret" and in Astrology. I believe they are one in the same. The way they intersect or connect maybe is not completely clear. Oh well, I guess I just wanted you all to know (again) that I am (still) here. Hopefully someday soon I can find a new topic

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