posted January 27, 2004 02:38 AM         

Initially I planned to meet him as a friend since he came down to India after a long time. But as the day went by we talked and I realised that he had never stopped loving me. During our conversation I told him about this Scorp and he accepted everything with open hands. He just me put on top of the world. There was nothing like it and at the end of the day he proposed me for marriage. I don't know what came over me and I accepted his proposal instantly. Soon I found him talking to my parents about the wedding. My family is very happy to know about this and they have all liked him very much. His parents have also given their approval. And the wedding is scheduled to be sometime this year end or early next year. He has gone back to the US but he has been in constant touch with me.

Now my ex-scorp happened to call me up yesterday for a casual talk. Somehow I felt that he wanted to get back. He knows nothing about the wedding. Although our conversation lasted for a short while, I've been upset since then. I don't know why but I've been thinking about him constantly. The more I try to shift my thoughts away from him the more I find myself thinking about him. I know this Taurean can really keep me happy and I don't want to get back to that Scorp again even if there had been no Taureans for me.

posted January 27, 2004 09:57 AM         

Excitment has a way of waring off after a while, while steady love lasts forever, but you must be honest with yourself above all other things.

You do the math.

posted January 27, 2004 11:09 AM         

Why didn't you ever mention it?

.gloria

posted January 28, 2004 02:16 AM         

I know I have sounded very confusing. But I am very sure that the Taurus can keep me really happy. I feel that he had never stopped loving me even though we were separate. He did try calling me up when we had separated but it was me who refused to speak to him. At that time I thought i had the Scorp beside me. And moreover the Scorp was so possessive about me that he wouldn't tolerate me talking to any guy except my own brother. Somehow now I feel that after five whole years of mental pressure with the scorp I am free to do my will at last. The Taurus however acknowledges that he has learnt his lesson. He told me that even though he tried getting into a couple of relationships, he couldn't do so since he had never stopped loving me. Now he just doesn't miss a chance to communicate. All he keeps saying is that "I'll do everything for you but all you have to do is just be with me".

As far as the scorp is concerned I know very well that it'll turn out to be the same even if I get back to him.

I'm a little scared to tell the scorp about the wedding because he's very revengeful. If he really wants to get back then he can actually go to any extent to achieve his goal. He will not stop at anything even if he has to pay dearly for it. So I really don't know how to go about it.

As far as my feelings are concerned, I'm quite clear about the fact that I am with the Taurean. But I really don't know how to handle the scorp anxiety.

As far as looking at my charts is concerned I'm still not perfect in doing so. Can one of you please help me out? This is the info about my Moon:

Moon in the 10th house
Moon in Virgo
Moon Conjunct Midheaven
Moon Sextile Mars

Also my Ascendant is in Scorpio.

I did check this out at astro.com but have been unable to figure out the exact thing.

Waiting eagerly for your help.

Thanks once again.

pocco

posted January 28, 2004 12:00 PM         

Why do I get the feeling that there is a power gap going on? It doesn't seem as if the men in your life think of you as a woman who has the right to do as she pleases...

How are you going to make yourself or anyone else happy this way?

.gloria

posted January 28, 2004 09:18 PM         

I will take a look and post what I see here,

posted January 29, 2004 02:32 AM         

Natasha:
My info is:

Birth place: Asansol, India
Time: 10:22 A.M.

Gloria:
You've guessed right. I really don't get much of a choice with either Especially with the Scorp. The Taurus is much better that way. But sometimes he did get stubborn too. But however he's trying his level best now.

posted January 29, 2004 07:55 AM         

I really don't know what am I groping for.

posted January 29, 2004 11:40 AM         

A rule of life. When you have two lovers you cannot decide between...

IT'S NEITHER

posted January 29, 2004 10:15 PM         

Gloria:
I guess you are right. And that's where the confusion lies. When I think of the Scorpio, all I can think of are those bad moments because they were so many that thinking about the good times is like looking for a needle in a haystack. But when I'm with the Taurean or while talking to him, I'm so much at ease. I guess my troubles lie in the fact that I feel terribly guilty when I begin thinking about the Scorp when I know I have the Taurean. But one thing is definitely clear within me is that its a definite NO to the Scorp. Thats what my practical side tells me. Do I need to give myself some time before I can get out of this Scorp completely?

posted January 29, 2004 11:37 PM         

You have so many planets in Virgo...

Are you sure you're not overly intellectuallizing OR over-analyzing things?

Do you know how you really feel about any of this? Do you know how to get in touch with the sappy feelings?

Maybe you are attributing any deep feelings you DO feel to the Scorpio, and giving him all the credit for it.

Perhaps you are compartmentalizing parts of yourself and "storing" them in different people. OWN all parts of yourself before giving it away! Before giving away the glory that is yours and yours alone.

If you don't, you're not really loving anyone.

posted January 30, 2004 03:39 AM         

Do you think if I really take a firm stand for myself, stick to the Taurean no matter what and barr all feelings for the Scorp will help me out? Whenever I think of the Scorp all I have within me is just bitterness.

posted January 30, 2004 07:33 AM         

Sometimes we think love has to hurt.