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Topic: So sad is love...
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JustAmanda
Knowflake Posts: 497
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Registered: Jan 2003
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posted January 31, 2005 04:29 PM
 
love is so sad when your body belongs to one person but your heart and soul belongs to another. When your heart and soul yearn for it's mate, it's soul mate, but they aren't the person you are with. And you sit and look around and wonder, "how did all this happen? Where were you, my soul mate, when we could have been together? Why must we suffer now?"For the past 4 or 5 years my life has been in a state of panic, and sometimes shambles...and somehow, fate allowed for someone to enter my life that I feel is my soul mate...yet, we are tied to others...therefore making us unattainable...I question my morality...I question my faith...I question all the things that I grew up knowing was wrong. But now, I am left wondering...why things happen the way they do...why some people are allowed to enter your life, and why happiness cannot be achieved with the person you are with--why does it seem that the other one is better? Is it sin? The blindness of sin that makes you react? Is it Satan the master of confusion, wrecking havoc with my mind, my heart, my spirit? Was it Satan that brought this man to me? Why did this man enter my life at the time that he did? During a time of great upset and upheavel in my life, in my marriage...during a time of separation from my husband..mentally, emotional and eventually complete physical separation... Why do you think things happen the way they do? Are the events brought upon myself because of something I did? Is this a sort of revenge for something I did that was bad? And furthermore, does this mean, that *I* am a hideous person for allowing myself to allow a person who actually wanted to be with me, and share time with me to actually have my attention? Someone that filled all the voids that my estranged husband was not filling? Someone to put a bandaid over all the pain that my husband was causing me? Why does love have to hurt so very much? Maybe it's just my sign...I'm a Sag with a Taurus rising... IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 1233
From: MAINE! :)
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted January 31, 2005 04:34 PM
I know the feeling.Love and light... clarity will find it's way to you.  IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Moderator Posts: 1843
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted January 31, 2005 04:38 PM
I was rereading older posts the other day. Aphrodite had posted something about love many many pages back, and I poured my heart and soul out there.
You responded in kind ( likewise feelings, and kindness  .), and saw such parallels with your own life. My situation has changed... more acceptance. Not neccesarily clarity, but there is a patience now there wasn't then. The situation has evolved, closed and adapted....
I see why I read that thread in its entirety
so recently.
All I can say is I understand you.
That is all I can really give you, and that is what you gave me last year.
I wish you clarity, courage, and most of all love.. it which ever form it takes hold in your spirit.... and means the most to you. IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Moderator Posts: 1843
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted January 31, 2005 04:47 PM
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GemStar
Knowflake Posts: 689
From: USA
Registered: Jul 2004
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posted January 31, 2005 04:57 PM
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GingerB
Knowflake Posts: 279
From: Lucedale, MS USA
Registered: Oct 2004
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posted February 01, 2005 12:28 AM
Well, I don't know the whole story, but...Do what's best for you!
Do what makes you feel like the self you are inside.
Follow your heart!
Live your life in a way that blesses other's and you will be blessed... Did the 'devil' do it?
No! That's second guessing yourself. IP: Logged |
Jazzebel
Knowflake Posts: 229
From: Georgia
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted February 01, 2005 12:32 AM
why things like that happened to you? It's not because you did something wrong in this or your previous life, is my thinking. It just shows once and again that we people are not monogamous by our true nature and the marriage contract, "the union until the rest of my life" is completely wrong and suffocating for the human`s growth. I suppose we would have been all very well developed human beings with great minds by now if our minds werent so narrowly framed in the rules imposed by the chirch for so many hundred of years ago. Or maybe ...now that I am thinking, we are just so primitive, we form that kind of attachments, the marriage that is, because of our own fear of the unkown. Whatever the reason is - the contract (marriage) made with the knowledge of binding two different people together for the rest of their life is, in my own presumpton, cruel and suffocating. But then again - if we weren`t imprisoned in that sort of a contract by our own choice, we wouldnt be so drawn to know what the taste of the forbidden fruit is like. All good stuff is forbbiden, after all. We create our own little dramas. As Oscar Wild, my favorite author, mentioned in is book "The picture of Dorian Gray" - "Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the unfaithful who knows love`s tragedies."IP: Logged |
JustAmanda
Knowflake Posts: 497
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Registered: Jan 2003
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posted February 01, 2005 12:36 PM
Aww...thanks everyone...I appreciate your sentiments so very much...and Pixel thank you for pointing that thread out to me...it's good to go back and see what was going on at that time you know? Sometimes, Lindaland is like a journal for me...Oh, and just for reference...I'm a Sag..my husband is a Leo but the other is a Aquarius...guess that explains alot huh? IP: Logged | |
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